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so.
i don't know what i was going to say.
but anyways, today was just weird.
the next few weeks are going to be weird.
my birthday is next wednesday (the 4th), and i'll be seventeen.
ben is going to ocean city this weekend. he just told me tonight. and i'm not okay. because he leaves on friday, comes home tuesday, and then leaves two days later for 3 whole weeks. so i'll see him on my birthday, and then maybe the day after that. even worse is that when he comes home on the 27th, i leave the very next day for ocean city. it gets better. we come back on the 4th of august, and he leaves on the 5th for the very same place that i will have just left.
my mother denied the idea of him coming down to the beach with us.
i couldn't even talk to him earlier without getting choked up.
maybe i'm just being a loser but whatev.
it's five freaking weeks and i can't imagine how rough it's going to be.
by the time things are normal again summer will be almost over.
sometimes i want to know why things can't just be easy for once. just once.
i just sneezed.
and now i'm going to go to bed.
so goodnight.
i don't know what i was going to say.
but anyways, today was just weird.
the next few weeks are going to be weird.
my birthday is next wednesday (the 4th), and i'll be seventeen.
ben is going to ocean city this weekend. he just told me tonight. and i'm not okay. because he leaves on friday, comes home tuesday, and then leaves two days later for 3 whole weeks. so i'll see him on my birthday, and then maybe the day after that. even worse is that when he comes home on the 27th, i leave the very next day for ocean city. it gets better. we come back on the 4th of august, and he leaves on the 5th for the very same place that i will have just left.
my mother denied the idea of him coming down to the beach with us.
i couldn't even talk to him earlier without getting choked up.
maybe i'm just being a loser but whatev.
it's five freaking weeks and i can't imagine how rough it's going to be.
by the time things are normal again summer will be almost over.
sometimes i want to know why things can't just be easy for once. just once.
i just sneezed.
and now i'm going to go to bed.
so goodnight.