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have you ever thought that sometimes you just settle for things because....it's easy?
not because...it's supposed to be that way?
i don't really know what i'm getting at.
and i guess that i shouldn't really try to explain it, either.
because, well.....i just am not very good at that.
it makes sense in my head though.
i think it's kind of weird that i'm using this thing as practically a diary now.
...posting my business on the web for anyone to access...
it's kind of creepy, right?
..maybe it makes me look like i have no life?
well whatever.
ben and i matched at school today.
it was by complete coincidence.
i thought it was the funniest thing ever (being the overdramatic person that i am) but ben just felt "gay."
paahaha.
if you ask me, i say we looked cute. i think it's perdy cool how we both ended up wearing hot pink shirts.
(aaaahah and now you probably do think he's gay.)
ohh how that boy makes me smile.
tomorrow is mallory's birthday!!!!
she's going to be seventeen. we went to uno's tonight for dinner and it was a lot of fun. we haven't hung out super six-wise in forever. and i mean forever. it was nice.
i'm starting to think that paranoia should be my middle name.
and that makes me sad.
because it's the truth.
but it's just because i don't want right now to go away.
i love it too much.
(i'm trying not to fall in to my freakout stage where i freeze up at everything and just end up making things worse)
summer is in one week from today.
it's one of those times where i want to go forward with my life SO bad but i'm scared of leaving things behind and then can't let go.
i seem to have those times a lot.
it would be nice if summer just came..and then never left. only because i do and don't want to be a senior.
(mostly don't)
i have so much crap that i have to do before the end of next week. some of it deals with big decisions that i'm not ready to make...
on a happier note, my last day at baskin robbins will be next saturday.
i'm going to miss some of the people that are there, but i sure as hell won't miss customers asking me to make five billion large chocolate fudge milkshakes. or even one for that matter.
the things that i will miss are silly. i'll miss sneaking ice cream behind bill's back (mmmmm pralines and cream). i'll miss having the leftovers of people's drinks. i'll miss wearing my visor. i'll miss thinking how gross it is from watching people come in to get ice cream that they really don't need. i'll miss working with kelly. i'll miss goofing off with angie. i'll miss making fun of bill for calling himself the president (haha).
so you see, it's kind of a bittersweet feeling. that's how it always is with me.
but i'm still ready to move on.
well it's late, and seeing that i couldn't even keep my eyes open for ten whole minutes earlier, i think i should get to bed.
not because...it's supposed to be that way?
i don't really know what i'm getting at.
and i guess that i shouldn't really try to explain it, either.
because, well.....i just am not very good at that.
it makes sense in my head though.
i think it's kind of weird that i'm using this thing as practically a diary now.
...posting my business on the web for anyone to access...
it's kind of creepy, right?
..maybe it makes me look like i have no life?
well whatever.
ben and i matched at school today.
it was by complete coincidence.
i thought it was the funniest thing ever (being the overdramatic person that i am) but ben just felt "gay."
paahaha.
if you ask me, i say we looked cute. i think it's perdy cool how we both ended up wearing hot pink shirts.
(aaaahah and now you probably do think he's gay.)
ohh how that boy makes me smile.
tomorrow is mallory's birthday!!!!
she's going to be seventeen. we went to uno's tonight for dinner and it was a lot of fun. we haven't hung out super six-wise in forever. and i mean forever. it was nice.
i'm starting to think that paranoia should be my middle name.
and that makes me sad.
because it's the truth.
but it's just because i don't want right now to go away.
i love it too much.
(i'm trying not to fall in to my freakout stage where i freeze up at everything and just end up making things worse)
summer is in one week from today.
it's one of those times where i want to go forward with my life SO bad but i'm scared of leaving things behind and then can't let go.
i seem to have those times a lot.
it would be nice if summer just came..and then never left. only because i do and don't want to be a senior.
(mostly don't)
i have so much crap that i have to do before the end of next week. some of it deals with big decisions that i'm not ready to make...
on a happier note, my last day at baskin robbins will be next saturday.
i'm going to miss some of the people that are there, but i sure as hell won't miss customers asking me to make five billion large chocolate fudge milkshakes. or even one for that matter.
the things that i will miss are silly. i'll miss sneaking ice cream behind bill's back (mmmmm pralines and cream). i'll miss having the leftovers of people's drinks. i'll miss wearing my visor. i'll miss thinking how gross it is from watching people come in to get ice cream that they really don't need. i'll miss working with kelly. i'll miss goofing off with angie. i'll miss making fun of bill for calling himself the president (haha).
so you see, it's kind of a bittersweet feeling. that's how it always is with me.
but i'm still ready to move on.
well it's late, and seeing that i couldn't even keep my eyes open for ten whole minutes earlier, i think i should get to bed.