being wordless,nervous, sad, frustrated and angry at once
I bet you've heard about situation in Japan. Who hasn't really? I'm not going to talk about situation itself that much. I can't offer you any facts, I myself am hanging on the tidbits that helpful souls are scattering to us. It doesn't look good.
I was supposed to go to Tokyo in 10 days from now. Tour office told me that so far they're not cancelling anything. That was yesterday afternoon, before knowledge of damage in the nuclear plant. Tokyo hasn't suffered as much, so they might think it's ok to go there. But do I want to go? To feel the aftershocks? Even if that itself would be an experience... I'm being ripped to parts with this.
On one hand, I really really want to go. I've dreamed so long to go to Japan. And I finally had a chance too. This is not something I can cancel with light heart, because god only knows when I'll have this kind of chance again.
On the other hand, I want to cancel, get my money back and book another trip for later date. Summer maybe.Then there's the money fact. This tour I have is absolutely perfect package and with similar price there's no way to get similar tour... I tried to look my operator's website, but found nothing. Only thing I'd get with same price is flights and hotel. No trips, no fair, no ghibli museum. I'm so frustrated with this, I can't even call to the office, since they are not open till Monday.
What bugs me too, is that ministry of foreign affairs in Finland has stated that unnecessary tourism should be avoided to Japan. So why the hell is Finnair (flight company) still flighting to Japan?????
Not knowing what to do, what I want to do, is making me so frustrated I could cry. Plus the fact that I feel so sad for Japan already. My favourite country in world (after home that is) is suffering. I want this all be just bad dream.
Well, my sister was the sweetest yesterday. She texted me and said she was happy I wasn't in Japan already. Yes, I'm as well. And I'm happy my idols are safe too.
Another stuff....
Told you I was sick. After that, tuomas got it. He was throwing up and had high fever, 39,5 C (~103F). We went to doctor but he said it's maybe a virus, so fluids, meds and shower. It seemed to work too, though last two days he's been around 37C... not really a fever, but higher than normally. He's active but whiny and clingy all the time. And now Darling has fever too. He's sicker than I was and has high fever too.
I suppose there's nothing for me to do before monday, than to try not to worry myself sick and try to figure ways to get this thing out of my system.