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It's funny being a vegetable cause on the occasion you'll find someone else too that is a vegetable. Then nothing really progesses. That can be good or bad, depending on the situation. But if you are really disciplined to be a vegetable, the other person will eventaully go out of thier comfort zone. Which is good cause we all need to learn to get out of our comfort zone, but for the other person, learning patience is good too. Plus it's good to build a relationship on a friendship, and not talk about liking each other too much, just so that you don't get ahead of yourself. Which would include saying "I love you" cause you really dont' know that for sure yet, and you might get your hopes to high... you know? Like ... I dunno, saying it is good and stuff I suppose to a point, but yeah I dont' know lol.
I've learned, though I've been told many times from other people's experiences, that it's not good to get attached to poeple. Cause people are human and they hurt others. And getting hurt sucks. Not that technically I've gotten hurt, cause I dont' really put myself in those situations, or atleast I try to avoid them. Which is good, cause like I said getting hurt sucks. Let's just say I've been... dissappointed... Yes,that's a good word. And each time, I'm learning more and more, Yay learning hahaha.
I'm laughing at myself. Wow. I'm just awesome like that.
Though this is what I've always wanted, it just keeps coming up and making this stronger and.... I guess, really reminding myself. But yeah, what am I talking about? I totally want a Christian family, and a good and healthy relationship with whomever I am with. And like I was saying with the above stuff, I want a good friendship with the person before it becomes a relationship.
I've never dated anyone. And that's for a number of reasons
1) I dont' care for dating too much, and would prefer to be older than I am at the moment.
2) I have such a hard time... dealing with it I guess. Like I dont' want to just date anyone, I want the person to actually have potential of their being an "us" in the relationship, not just a week or a month or two. Cause that's just not what I want. So yeah, it's hard I guess to determine, who will/would/could be the right person. And did I mention how many guys are out there I mean really?! And it doesn't help that I can at times be a bit of a flirt hehe. That's is why I try to steer clear of that area. And it doesnt' really help that there are always a couple guys at the same time who like me, that just sucks.
At the moment, I just found out someone else, who... likes me. And this is interesting, cause well, I've kinda known all along, and he's given alot of obvious hints... like ... "I can't tell you who I like... It's just some girl" Hahaha. But yeah, I just want to take this really slow. It's not like anything really could happen right now anyways. And well we still need to get to know each other alot better, and pray lots about it (he's a christian so he's rad) and yeah just let it work itself out. I'm interested yes, but I dont' really want to say too much, just so that if it doesn't ever work out, he doesn't get hurt and I dont' get hurt. And then we are all just happy! But yeah, I'm thinking this have much potential, like I said we just need to conitinue getting to know each other, building a friendship, and praying lots.
Random conclusion: Guys are confusing.
But yesums, I hope this helped give dork a better understanding or explanation that I said I would give him. And I know he'll understand, or atleast hope he does hehe.
::poke::
::runs away laughing::
I really like this, so I'm going to add this, and I hope he doesn't mind, I just think it's cute, and thoughtful, and yeah, I wanted to share it hehe. And it seems like a good way to end this.
"I'm lost on something..
something I think about all the time..
I can't seem to get it to leave me alone.
I just don't know how to deal with it.
It's nothing bad..It could end up being a good thing.
But i'm just not sure..
If only I could find a way to tell that person my feelings.
everything could work it self out.
It's just cRAziNess . . . I like her."
I've learned, though I've been told many times from other people's experiences, that it's not good to get attached to poeple. Cause people are human and they hurt others. And getting hurt sucks. Not that technically I've gotten hurt, cause I dont' really put myself in those situations, or atleast I try to avoid them. Which is good, cause like I said getting hurt sucks. Let's just say I've been... dissappointed... Yes,that's a good word. And each time, I'm learning more and more, Yay learning hahaha.
I'm laughing at myself. Wow. I'm just awesome like that.
Though this is what I've always wanted, it just keeps coming up and making this stronger and.... I guess, really reminding myself. But yeah, what am I talking about? I totally want a Christian family, and a good and healthy relationship with whomever I am with. And like I was saying with the above stuff, I want a good friendship with the person before it becomes a relationship.
I've never dated anyone. And that's for a number of reasons
1) I dont' care for dating too much, and would prefer to be older than I am at the moment.
2) I have such a hard time... dealing with it I guess. Like I dont' want to just date anyone, I want the person to actually have potential of their being an "us" in the relationship, not just a week or a month or two. Cause that's just not what I want. So yeah, it's hard I guess to determine, who will/would/could be the right person. And did I mention how many guys are out there I mean really?! And it doesn't help that I can at times be a bit of a flirt hehe. That's is why I try to steer clear of that area. And it doesnt' really help that there are always a couple guys at the same time who like me, that just sucks.
At the moment, I just found out someone else, who... likes me. And this is interesting, cause well, I've kinda known all along, and he's given alot of obvious hints... like ... "I can't tell you who I like... It's just some girl" Hahaha. But yeah, I just want to take this really slow. It's not like anything really could happen right now anyways. And well we still need to get to know each other alot better, and pray lots about it (he's a christian so he's rad) and yeah just let it work itself out. I'm interested yes, but I dont' really want to say too much, just so that if it doesn't ever work out, he doesn't get hurt and I dont' get hurt. And then we are all just happy! But yeah, I'm thinking this have much potential, like I said we just need to conitinue getting to know each other, building a friendship, and praying lots.
Random conclusion: Guys are confusing.
But yesums, I hope this helped give dork a better understanding or explanation that I said I would give him. And I know he'll understand, or atleast hope he does hehe.
::poke::
::runs away laughing::
I really like this, so I'm going to add this, and I hope he doesn't mind, I just think it's cute, and thoughtful, and yeah, I wanted to share it hehe. And it seems like a good way to end this.
"I'm lost on something..
something I think about all the time..
I can't seem to get it to leave me alone.
I just don't know how to deal with it.
It's nothing bad..It could end up being a good thing.
But i'm just not sure..
If only I could find a way to tell that person my feelings.
everything could work it self out.
It's just cRAziNess . . . I like her."