Many things I've got to get used to.
Yknow with the holidays ending, I feel extremely tired. Cause of trainings and late nights, thus lack of rest. Like when your body is telling you TAKE A BREAK I'M EXHAUSTED NOW. I think this break has been one that's... too short, but really lovely. I don't know when was the last time when I actually watched TV till hours end! And, I can't remember the last time I played with my cat, or or helped out at home, or have a real funny conversation with my siblings. I can't remember when I actually had a super long nap in the afternoons, or going out with the team so often -even if it's just out to lunch. I don't remember the car rides with my dad as he sends me for training in the mornings, how we are so comfortable with the refreshing silence in the morning. And I can't remember the last time I actually really take the time to heal myself, mind and heart, body and soul. It takes time without your friends to actually realise that.. you've changed. Some good and some bad, but hey now I see who I've become. Personally, there are things I'd want to change, and yet there are things I'd love to stay forever. But what is done cannot be undone. What made me regretful brought shame before, but now it's just another hurdle I've overcome which made me stronger. Tough luck trying to tear me apart now cause this year has been none other than a strengthening bumpy ride.
Sincerely, xx.