It Bothers Me But Trying Not To Feel So + Gratitude Journal #14
Breathing...breathing...calm...not sad...not angry...just objective...
Hi. My name is Melody. It isn't fair. It doesn't make sense. It hurts everyday. It hurts even if I try not to think about it. Hi. My name is Melody. Hi. We use to call each other sisters. Hi. We loved each other. I still do. Hi. I don't believe in hate or unforgivable mistakes. Hi. I'm not a bad person. Hi. I feel like I have to suffer because I loved somebody. Hi. I never would use you. Hi. I am not a fucking gold digger. Hi. I work hard to get to where I am. Hi. I believe love conquers all even long distance. Hi. I am a human being too. Hi. I am a person who...loves you to pieces and people say I should be more detached and all this shit and I don't know. My love just doesn't work like that. Hi. I change. Hi. I changed for the better. Hi. I learn. Hi. I get better. Hi. I deal my problems head on. Hi. I am strong. Hi........ ...
No. I'm not suppose to feel bad about this. I am a good person with good intentions. I got hurt. I work things out. I can make great memories. It's just... I don't want to make them with anybody else.
I shouldn't be getting into this. I have a lot of work to do. I had trouble keeping these kind of thoughts out of my head today. I broke down randomly while washing dishes. I don't want to be like this. I chose not to be like this. I don't want to feel sad. I don't want to be a sad person. I want to be a laughing happy person. Like you are. I'm glad for you.
What is love?
What is life?
What is family?
Why do we work?
Why do we love certain people?
Why do we do anything?
What do we value in life?
Who do we value in life?
When does the heart stop loving?
I will not be addicted to these chemicals in my brain.
I will not
I will not...
Parties...have fun. Parties. New people. New loves. New friends. New new new new new new new...
Who am I?
I am thankful for...
Trying
Mental courage
Being calm
Chosing to be productive
Chosing not to take up bad habits
Piano
Adobe Photoshop CS2
Photoshop TV
One Minute Tip
Camera
Dr. Cross
Jill
Jill crying from laughing too hard
Matt
Posh
Tash
Monica
asdf;lkasjdf;laskjdf;laskj~~~!!!
Sorry, I think I should make sure I'm ok and do my hw.
I am thankful for...
Nick's BEST HUGS EVERRRRRRR!
Mikey
Jonathan
Pillar
Allison
Bright sunny day
My healthy body
Chocolate soy milk
Tutor job
Thinking positive...
Hi. My name is Melody. It isn't fair. It doesn't make sense. It hurts everyday. It hurts even if I try not to think about it. Hi. My name is Melody. Hi. We use to call each other sisters. Hi. We loved each other. I still do. Hi. I don't believe in hate or unforgivable mistakes. Hi. I'm not a bad person. Hi. I feel like I have to suffer because I loved somebody. Hi. I never would use you. Hi. I am not a fucking gold digger. Hi. I work hard to get to where I am. Hi. I believe love conquers all even long distance. Hi. I am a human being too. Hi. I am a person who...loves you to pieces and people say I should be more detached and all this shit and I don't know. My love just doesn't work like that. Hi. I change. Hi. I changed for the better. Hi. I learn. Hi. I get better. Hi. I deal my problems head on. Hi. I am strong. Hi........ ...
No. I'm not suppose to feel bad about this. I am a good person with good intentions. I got hurt. I work things out. I can make great memories. It's just... I don't want to make them with anybody else.
I shouldn't be getting into this. I have a lot of work to do. I had trouble keeping these kind of thoughts out of my head today. I broke down randomly while washing dishes. I don't want to be like this. I chose not to be like this. I don't want to feel sad. I don't want to be a sad person. I want to be a laughing happy person. Like you are. I'm glad for you.
What is love?
What is life?
What is family?
Why do we work?
Why do we love certain people?
Why do we do anything?
What do we value in life?
Who do we value in life?
When does the heart stop loving?
I will not be addicted to these chemicals in my brain.
I will not
I will not...
Parties...have fun. Parties. New people. New loves. New friends. New new new new new new new...
Who am I?
I am thankful for...
Trying
Mental courage
Being calm
Chosing to be productive
Chosing not to take up bad habits
Piano
Adobe Photoshop CS2
Photoshop TV
One Minute Tip
Camera
Dr. Cross
Jill
Jill crying from laughing too hard
Matt
Posh
Tash
Monica
asdf;lkasjdf;laskjdf;laskj~~~!!!
Sorry, I think I should make sure I'm ok and do my hw.
I am thankful for...
Nick's BEST HUGS EVERRRRRRR!
Mikey
Jonathan
Pillar
Allison
Bright sunny day
My healthy body
Chocolate soy milk
Tutor job
Thinking positive...