this is why i drink coffee in the morning.
i find sleep difficult. it always has been. even as a kid i was rubish at sleep. i envy those of you who can leave their heads down and within minutes be fast asleep, only to wake up feeling refreshed and ready to get out of bed.
unless i'm completely exhausted due to illness or drunkedness, I have to fall gradually to sleep. I think thoughts, because they are there in my head, and eventually the thoughts become less real and more absurd and finally drift away. of course, during this process if i'm startled or distracted, i have to start all over again. and my body starts to ache from the warmth of the bed and the solitary position i am confined to, so it becomes more and more difficult to drift off.
eric's been snoring lately. on and off he always has, but it never seemed so loud before. and i could always make the noise fade by pinching his nose so he has to breathe through his mouth. now he snores louder when breathing through his mouth. i know it's not something he can control, but it's really annoying. and when i nudge him to get him to wake up enough to stop, he gets annoyed. and i'm annoyed that he's snoring in the first place, but i don't know what to do.
i have to be up at 7:30 every morning and work sometimes three jobs (like i do tomorrow) where i'll be working from 8:30am to 11pm only pausing to travel from one location to the other. and it just sucks, because it's 1am, and i should be sleeping because whether or not i'm sleeping right now, my alarm is still going off at 7:30. i went to bed over an hour ago.
i spent all last night sleeping on the couch. it doesn't matter anymore tonight. i'm not tired at all. i'm exhausted physically, but so stressed mentally about the lack of sleep, that i couldn't sleep anyway. i'm going to be one grumpy muffin by the time i get off at 11pm tomorrow. (today.)
unless i'm completely exhausted due to illness or drunkedness, I have to fall gradually to sleep. I think thoughts, because they are there in my head, and eventually the thoughts become less real and more absurd and finally drift away. of course, during this process if i'm startled or distracted, i have to start all over again. and my body starts to ache from the warmth of the bed and the solitary position i am confined to, so it becomes more and more difficult to drift off.
eric's been snoring lately. on and off he always has, but it never seemed so loud before. and i could always make the noise fade by pinching his nose so he has to breathe through his mouth. now he snores louder when breathing through his mouth. i know it's not something he can control, but it's really annoying. and when i nudge him to get him to wake up enough to stop, he gets annoyed. and i'm annoyed that he's snoring in the first place, but i don't know what to do.
i have to be up at 7:30 every morning and work sometimes three jobs (like i do tomorrow) where i'll be working from 8:30am to 11pm only pausing to travel from one location to the other. and it just sucks, because it's 1am, and i should be sleeping because whether or not i'm sleeping right now, my alarm is still going off at 7:30. i went to bed over an hour ago.
i spent all last night sleeping on the couch. it doesn't matter anymore tonight. i'm not tired at all. i'm exhausted physically, but so stressed mentally about the lack of sleep, that i couldn't sleep anyway. i'm going to be one grumpy muffin by the time i get off at 11pm tomorrow. (today.)