It's almost time to go.
Last night was so so so much fun. I was with Ryan, Sean, Chris, Ben and Mike. I got caramel for caramel apples and apple cider and a pumpkin to carve and cook the seeds and it was all good fun. Evan was there and decided to be awkward, which was fine by me. Everybody was high. It was the funniest thing ever. Mike was being a chicken (literally), we were watching Family Guy, Chris wouldn't share his Taco Bell with me, but eventually he did because I bought him a McChicken. Haha. Ben couldn't stop laughing and eventually fell asleep. Chris walked me back to my dorm at like 3am. It was a good good night.
On another note, I talked to Joey. Mainly because I was angry. He commented and said that we sucked during the Bristol Parade, when we marched. It just kind of sucked because I mean I know it hurt my feelings but, we did try, and nobody said we were perfect, and it's just not nice. I guess it just hurt my feelings a lot. I was so scared I would screw up. Let's throw it in my face that we're not perfect. And the other thing that annoyed me was he made fun of how I commanded my color guard, when east bay was asked to come up with a color guard for the NER conference and derek told them "we don't have a color guard". Barrows had to make other arrangements. But I will never shove that in his face, because I just don't want to fight. I just don't care for fighting anymore. Throw some more mean words at me. Say I suck. I know we did well. The General that we were marching in front of said so. =]
I just don't feel like feeling like shit. And I do want to talk to Joey. I just feel like most of the time, I don't deserve to, so I don't. Now I feel like I do because he was immature and I can be mad about that, but I don't want that to be the reason I talk to him. I want to talk to him to talk. And it will go nowhere, and he will never forgive me, but I want to do it anyway.
On a happier note, I am going out to the Providence Ghost Tour with Sean, Kyle and some other people. And when we get back, Addison wants to hang out and do something with us. I love love love my guy friends.
On another note, I talked to Joey. Mainly because I was angry. He commented and said that we sucked during the Bristol Parade, when we marched. It just kind of sucked because I mean I know it hurt my feelings but, we did try, and nobody said we were perfect, and it's just not nice. I guess it just hurt my feelings a lot. I was so scared I would screw up. Let's throw it in my face that we're not perfect. And the other thing that annoyed me was he made fun of how I commanded my color guard, when east bay was asked to come up with a color guard for the NER conference and derek told them "we don't have a color guard". Barrows had to make other arrangements. But I will never shove that in his face, because I just don't want to fight. I just don't care for fighting anymore. Throw some more mean words at me. Say I suck. I know we did well. The General that we were marching in front of said so. =]
I just don't feel like feeling like shit. And I do want to talk to Joey. I just feel like most of the time, I don't deserve to, so I don't. Now I feel like I do because he was immature and I can be mad about that, but I don't want that to be the reason I talk to him. I want to talk to him to talk. And it will go nowhere, and he will never forgive me, but I want to do it anyway.
On a happier note, I am going out to the Providence Ghost Tour with Sean, Kyle and some other people. And when we get back, Addison wants to hang out and do something with us. I love love love my guy friends.