I'm not okay.
Do I feel okay? No, not really, I can't really breathe. I'm breathing kind of fast because I'm kind of upset because the idiot boy that I'm kind of dating feels the need to be an asshole when I least expect it. Ugh. I'm kind of cranky and kind of anxious at the moment and I call him because he asked me to and all we do is argue because he's being an idiot. He's going out with a bunch of his friends, and that's fine, but then he's talking to me on the phone when Matt gets in the car. And then Matt gets annoyed. And then I realize I should go, so I decide to go, but then he gets mad.
And why, exactly, am I annoyed? Because I haven't seen him in a week and instead of thinking to come see me when I live only 15 minutes away for once, he decides to drive 30 to go pick up all of his friends and go to a bar. And I'm tired and cranky and annoyed. And then on top of that, the last time he did this, he was with fucking Nicole, which wouldn't be bad, except every time she comes along, he "forgets" to tell me about it, like really? Because he's forgotten more than once, and it's annoying. And then he brought up Rory, as if I needed to think about Rory.
So now I'm talking to him through text and he keeps saying that I'm mad that he's hanging out with his friends. But I'm not, he's getting it all wrong. I'm fucking mad because he decided not to hang out with me and that he's out having a fantastic time while I'm home alone and I'm pissed that he hates my little sister because she put forth a hand to be nice to him and he didn't take it. I don't care who you are, don't fucking swear at my little sister. So now I'm just mad and I don't know about going to CAP tomorrow and I'm so pissed, he better not even talk to me when I get to the meeting. Fucking A.
And why, exactly, am I annoyed? Because I haven't seen him in a week and instead of thinking to come see me when I live only 15 minutes away for once, he decides to drive 30 to go pick up all of his friends and go to a bar. And I'm tired and cranky and annoyed. And then on top of that, the last time he did this, he was with fucking Nicole, which wouldn't be bad, except every time she comes along, he "forgets" to tell me about it, like really? Because he's forgotten more than once, and it's annoying. And then he brought up Rory, as if I needed to think about Rory.
So now I'm talking to him through text and he keeps saying that I'm mad that he's hanging out with his friends. But I'm not, he's getting it all wrong. I'm fucking mad because he decided not to hang out with me and that he's out having a fantastic time while I'm home alone and I'm pissed that he hates my little sister because she put forth a hand to be nice to him and he didn't take it. I don't care who you are, don't fucking swear at my little sister. So now I'm just mad and I don't know about going to CAP tomorrow and I'm so pissed, he better not even talk to me when I get to the meeting. Fucking A.