what would i do without jenn and mary?...
not EVER get on the GD internet, that's for sure. apparently there's some line that got cut or something for my dorm so we don't have the interent. i guess there are a few other dorms that are down, too, but i'm ready to kill myself. the kids in my hall are going crazy, too--it was bad enough yesterday (hallway rolling chair races), but today it's not only no internet, but rainy too. when i left the hall for dinner an hour and a half ago, they were playing frisbee in the hall. god knows what i'm about go to back to...
i just don't know what to do with myself today, or this weekend, or in general. i think i'm losing my mind. this sexual frusteration thing is making me crazy, and hooking up is great and all that, but i just want someone there all the time. is that weird? i just want someone to sleep next to, really. i'm at the point where i'd pay any number of people to just stay in my room with me for the night, some nights--not even to fool around or anything, just to be there.
it's been a really lonely 9 months, but especially the last few weeks have just been so sad and i've felt so alone and all of my friends are in these cute little relationships, and i don't even think i want a relationship right now, just someone to have, to be there all the time and to just be with.
i don't want to go on dates and i don't want to be taken out or fawned over or given presents or expensive jewelry or anything.
just someone to sleep next to.
that'd be enough, i think.
--s*
i just don't know what to do with myself today, or this weekend, or in general. i think i'm losing my mind. this sexual frusteration thing is making me crazy, and hooking up is great and all that, but i just want someone there all the time. is that weird? i just want someone to sleep next to, really. i'm at the point where i'd pay any number of people to just stay in my room with me for the night, some nights--not even to fool around or anything, just to be there.
it's been a really lonely 9 months, but especially the last few weeks have just been so sad and i've felt so alone and all of my friends are in these cute little relationships, and i don't even think i want a relationship right now, just someone to have, to be there all the time and to just be with.
i don't want to go on dates and i don't want to be taken out or fawned over or given presents or expensive jewelry or anything.
just someone to sleep next to.
that'd be enough, i think.
--s*