day two
i have to say, i've never really understood these livejournal things. i've actually kept online journals before, but not that anyone else ever knew about, for the main purpose of preserving my personal sanity, but keeping others from knowing about everything. i used to keep journals in junior high and high school, and even let my friends read them, but only a select few, and i guess that was the budding writer in me wanting others to hear my words and to be able to hear their reactions. i look back on it all, though, and realize how...for lack of a better word, silly it all sounds, and so i guess i just have come to take everything i've ever written with a grain of salt.
this is new for me, though. and i guess i don't care if other people know about it. just don't expect any deep, dark secrets, because...well, first of all, because i don't think i'd write them in here, but secondly because i'm pretty sure i don't really have any.
aaaaaanyway, in true livejournal fashion (as i have come to understand it), i am stealing a survey out of alicia's journal and putting it in here. here goes nothing...
I see: myyyyyyy computer? and alicia IMing me.
I need: to clean my freaking room. seriously. gross.
I find: that when it gets down to it, i have the greatest friends in the entire world. flakey as some of them are...
I want: hahahaha, oh man.
I have: really good hair, at the moment, actually. this is weird for me!
I wish: i could lose this freaking 10 lbs and get it over with. i hate eating healthy. bike path tomorrow? i think soooo....
I love: my life. most of the time, anyway!
I hate: ughhhhh, that i'm home for the summer, that i don't have a job (but if i did have a job, i'd probably hate working at it, so it's all relative), that there's no good food in my house....
I miss: gorham *tear*
I fear: that the cute boys will get me again. last friday was a bitch!
I feel: like i should be productive this summer.
I hear: "your love" by the outfield. greatest song ever, i'm serious.
I smell: my cat. it's not a bad smell, though. i don't know. cats are weird.
I crave: that's easy. FUNFETTI CAKE. soooooo bad.....hahaha
I search: for...i don't know. good food? in my cupboards? to no avial?
I wonder: if going to a certain concert with a certain someone is the best idea...
I regret: oh man. i try to live life with no regrets, because i know that the things that went wrong in my life have contributed to making me who i am, but i reeeaaaaalllllly regret what did or did not happen the night after the party i went to at the girls' beachhouse, and also what did or did not happen at the party a few weeks ago at rich's. i don't know...i just wish i'd lived in the moment for once, i guess. or that i had not. i tried real hard! but it doesn't always work out, i guess.
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: when i heard that pat wants alicia's butt! that's so cool!
Laughed?: at my cat, for falling asleep on top of my computer. he's so damn cute!
Cried?: hmm. might've been at once and again today...then again, i think it was probably the last day in gorham. like 4 times. it was kinda bad.
Bought something?: hmm. a popsicle yesterday, i think.
Danced?: i try to dance every day, if possible. dance party of one? oh yes. right here!
Were sarcastic?: i think the real question is, when was the last time i was NOT sarcastic. it's kind of a problem. haha.
Kissed someone?: oh my god. i don't even wanna talk about it...but i SWEAR it was NOT my fault and he was awfully drunk.
Talked to an ex?: that's actually a really good question. and i don't really know the answer, to tell you the truth. it's been a while! unless you count michael as an ex, which i don't, but then it'd be thursday. oh! or if you count kurt as an ex, in which case, i got an email from him this morning!
Watched your favorite movie?: i haven't seen mary poppins in FOREVER. i actually should get around to seeing that again!
Had a nightmare?: hmm. probably a few days ago. i don't really remember. i guess that's a good thing?
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: oh my god. i'm a history major--i don't get to read for fun. my mother just gave me a book, though, and i'm really excited to start it.
Last movie you saw: i've seen bits and pieces of movies for the last few days on TV, the last of which was selena, tonight. but on purpose? wow. i think it was...Say Anything? hmmm....
Last song you heard: still listening to the Outfield! :-D i looove this song.
Last thing you had to drink: snapple diet lemon iced tea. yum!
Last time you showered: this morning? well, yesterday morning, technically.
Last thing you ate: mashed potatoes. my tummy is happy :)
Do You ...
Smoke?: gross, no.
Do drugs?: not illegal ones! but i'm a big fan of painkillers and cough medicine. when i need them, i mean.
Have sex?: I've still got my V card. <-----i'm leaving alicia's answer because i think that's a fucking great way to put it!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: of course. i don't go anywhere overnight without noah! my teddy bear, that is!
Live in the moment?: i try to. i think it's really important to at least try to live in the moment, because if you're not doing that, what are you really waiting for? and my only two real regrets both have to do with not doing just that.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: i hate to say "that's iffy" but it kind of is. i have a boyfriend, but...it's on...hiatus? i don't know. i love you, kurt:)
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: i used to, hardcore, but i haven't had it since sophomore year, and for a really weird reason, i think, but whatever. it's about being underwater and not being able to breathe. probably two of my biggest phobias in life.
Play an instrument?: i used to play the clarinet, too! but i really hated it and i haven't touched the thing since the 8th grade. i keep trying to learn to play the guitar, but i think i'm kinda hopeless at it.
Believe there is life on other planets?: sure, i think it's possible. but i don't think there are little green men running around on mars, if that's what you mean.
Remember your first love?: i remember the first time i thought i was in love...but i'm still pretty sure that was just emotions and confusion and being a little too 15 years old for anyone's good. but the first real love...yeah. i'll never forget him.
Still love him/her?: the real one? of course. i don't think you ever really fall out of love with anyone. romantic love, maybe, but never completely void of feeling.
Read the newspaper?: on occasion. i wish i did more, though.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: pshhh. my mom's a lesbian! no. i'm serious. plus, i have overactive gaydar, so i have a lot of closeted friends, but...i don't wanna get into it.
Believe in miracles?: sure. everyone does, i think.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: i'm having trouble with this question. yes, and no. do i believe in love? yes. if the circumstances are right? then yes, you can remain faithful. but in relationships, especially at this age, it's hard to even think about forever. it's hard to think about tomorrow, at this age. next question...
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes. absolutely.
Consider love a mistake?: hmm. that's interesting. next question...i have no idea how to answer this.
Like the taste of alcohol?: i don't mind it. sometimes you just gotta have a beer.
Have a favorite candy?: mike n' ikes!
Believe in astrology?: i'm a firm believer that everyone believes in astrology if it says what you want it to. if it says you're going to find your soulmate tomorrow, for example, and live happily ever after, you're going to hold your breath every time a cute boy walks by the entire next 24 hours. if it says you're going to lose your job next week? "who believes this shit anyway?"
Believe in magic?: i guess so. i don't know. not straight up magician stuff, but i guess i believe in the magic of sunsets and real moments in life and stuff like that. or i'm a complete sap, but whatever!
Believe in God?: i think so. i don't know. it's weird.
Pray?: sure. everyone does.
Go to church?: not for a long time. but i like to, on christmas eve anyway. sean said the coolest thing about church a while ago--about how he goes every sunday, and doesn't always exactly go IN the building, but still goes. i don't know, i thought it was really neat.
Have any secrets?: everyone does. i can't think of any at the moment, but i'm sure i have one...
Have any pets: haha, tooooo many...
Do well in school?: sure. pretty well.
Go to or plan to go to college?: go to. miss it like crazy!
Have a major?: history! wheeee!
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: oh man. what was his name? "something scary"? that was crazy...
Wear hats?: not really.
Have any piercings?: yeah, both ears twice, and one at the top of my left ear.
Have any tattoos?: nope! someday, though...
Hate yourself?: nooooooo...
Have an obsession?: hahahahaha. oh man. don't wanna talk about it!
Have a secret crush?: everyone does! mine are usually really stupid or embarrassing, which is why i don't tell people.
Do they know yet?: i'm pretty sure people know when i have a crush on them because i'm usually annoyingly obvious about it...but hopefully not!
Collect anything?: pictures. does that count?
Have a best friend?: i have the best friends on the planet, and i guess i have a few very best, but one absolute best? maggie brown. gotta be.
Wish on stars?: all the time.
Like your handwriting?: sometimes.
Have any bad habits?: haha, nailbiting, being too obvious about crushes...is cute boys a bad habit? i think it might be...
Care about looks?: ehh...sometimes. my new years resolution was to be more classy, and that has something to do with looks, i guess. i just like to look like i take good care of myself.
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: everyone cares, i think, but so many things come before looks. i'm just lucky to be a little bit crazy about someone who's super cute!
Friends and other people?: nah. well, sometimes. but it's never like, hindered a friendship or anything, if that's what you mean.
Believe in witches?: kristen's convinced my ex roommate is a witch. or a worlock. hahaha.
Believe in Satan?: yes. and her name is laura rochefort.
Believe in ghosts?: i guess so....what a weird question to end with!
oooook, so, to end our tale, sarah gets kicked off the computer and evil little brother takes over. so long!
quote of the night:
watch the sky 84: fuckin spanish chestnut...only you, paul rogers.
PR2120: hahahah
PR2120: it was a priceless summer moment
watch the sky 84: i bet
--s*
this is new for me, though. and i guess i don't care if other people know about it. just don't expect any deep, dark secrets, because...well, first of all, because i don't think i'd write them in here, but secondly because i'm pretty sure i don't really have any.
aaaaaanyway, in true livejournal fashion (as i have come to understand it), i am stealing a survey out of alicia's journal and putting it in here. here goes nothing...
I see: myyyyyyy computer? and alicia IMing me.
I need: to clean my freaking room. seriously. gross.
I find: that when it gets down to it, i have the greatest friends in the entire world. flakey as some of them are...
I want: hahahaha, oh man.
I have: really good hair, at the moment, actually. this is weird for me!
I wish: i could lose this freaking 10 lbs and get it over with. i hate eating healthy. bike path tomorrow? i think soooo....
I love: my life. most of the time, anyway!
I hate: ughhhhh, that i'm home for the summer, that i don't have a job (but if i did have a job, i'd probably hate working at it, so it's all relative), that there's no good food in my house....
I miss: gorham *tear*
I fear: that the cute boys will get me again. last friday was a bitch!
I feel: like i should be productive this summer.
I hear: "your love" by the outfield. greatest song ever, i'm serious.
I smell: my cat. it's not a bad smell, though. i don't know. cats are weird.
I crave: that's easy. FUNFETTI CAKE. soooooo bad.....hahaha
I search: for...i don't know. good food? in my cupboards? to no avial?
I wonder: if going to a certain concert with a certain someone is the best idea...
I regret: oh man. i try to live life with no regrets, because i know that the things that went wrong in my life have contributed to making me who i am, but i reeeaaaaalllllly regret what did or did not happen the night after the party i went to at the girls' beachhouse, and also what did or did not happen at the party a few weeks ago at rich's. i don't know...i just wish i'd lived in the moment for once, i guess. or that i had not. i tried real hard! but it doesn't always work out, i guess.
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: when i heard that pat wants alicia's butt! that's so cool!
Laughed?: at my cat, for falling asleep on top of my computer. he's so damn cute!
Cried?: hmm. might've been at once and again today...then again, i think it was probably the last day in gorham. like 4 times. it was kinda bad.
Bought something?: hmm. a popsicle yesterday, i think.
Danced?: i try to dance every day, if possible. dance party of one? oh yes. right here!
Were sarcastic?: i think the real question is, when was the last time i was NOT sarcastic. it's kind of a problem. haha.
Kissed someone?: oh my god. i don't even wanna talk about it...but i SWEAR it was NOT my fault and he was awfully drunk.
Talked to an ex?: that's actually a really good question. and i don't really know the answer, to tell you the truth. it's been a while! unless you count michael as an ex, which i don't, but then it'd be thursday. oh! or if you count kurt as an ex, in which case, i got an email from him this morning!
Watched your favorite movie?: i haven't seen mary poppins in FOREVER. i actually should get around to seeing that again!
Had a nightmare?: hmm. probably a few days ago. i don't really remember. i guess that's a good thing?
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: oh my god. i'm a history major--i don't get to read for fun. my mother just gave me a book, though, and i'm really excited to start it.
Last movie you saw: i've seen bits and pieces of movies for the last few days on TV, the last of which was selena, tonight. but on purpose? wow. i think it was...Say Anything? hmmm....
Last song you heard: still listening to the Outfield! :-D i looove this song.
Last thing you had to drink: snapple diet lemon iced tea. yum!
Last time you showered: this morning? well, yesterday morning, technically.
Last thing you ate: mashed potatoes. my tummy is happy :)
Do You ...
Smoke?: gross, no.
Do drugs?: not illegal ones! but i'm a big fan of painkillers and cough medicine. when i need them, i mean.
Have sex?: I've still got my V card. <-----i'm leaving alicia's answer because i think that's a fucking great way to put it!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: of course. i don't go anywhere overnight without noah! my teddy bear, that is!
Live in the moment?: i try to. i think it's really important to at least try to live in the moment, because if you're not doing that, what are you really waiting for? and my only two real regrets both have to do with not doing just that.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: i hate to say "that's iffy" but it kind of is. i have a boyfriend, but...it's on...hiatus? i don't know. i love you, kurt:)
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: i used to, hardcore, but i haven't had it since sophomore year, and for a really weird reason, i think, but whatever. it's about being underwater and not being able to breathe. probably two of my biggest phobias in life.
Play an instrument?: i used to play the clarinet, too! but i really hated it and i haven't touched the thing since the 8th grade. i keep trying to learn to play the guitar, but i think i'm kinda hopeless at it.
Believe there is life on other planets?: sure, i think it's possible. but i don't think there are little green men running around on mars, if that's what you mean.
Remember your first love?: i remember the first time i thought i was in love...but i'm still pretty sure that was just emotions and confusion and being a little too 15 years old for anyone's good. but the first real love...yeah. i'll never forget him.
Still love him/her?: the real one? of course. i don't think you ever really fall out of love with anyone. romantic love, maybe, but never completely void of feeling.
Read the newspaper?: on occasion. i wish i did more, though.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: pshhh. my mom's a lesbian! no. i'm serious. plus, i have overactive gaydar, so i have a lot of closeted friends, but...i don't wanna get into it.
Believe in miracles?: sure. everyone does, i think.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: i'm having trouble with this question. yes, and no. do i believe in love? yes. if the circumstances are right? then yes, you can remain faithful. but in relationships, especially at this age, it's hard to even think about forever. it's hard to think about tomorrow, at this age. next question...
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes. absolutely.
Consider love a mistake?: hmm. that's interesting. next question...i have no idea how to answer this.
Like the taste of alcohol?: i don't mind it. sometimes you just gotta have a beer.
Have a favorite candy?: mike n' ikes!
Believe in astrology?: i'm a firm believer that everyone believes in astrology if it says what you want it to. if it says you're going to find your soulmate tomorrow, for example, and live happily ever after, you're going to hold your breath every time a cute boy walks by the entire next 24 hours. if it says you're going to lose your job next week? "who believes this shit anyway?"
Believe in magic?: i guess so. i don't know. not straight up magician stuff, but i guess i believe in the magic of sunsets and real moments in life and stuff like that. or i'm a complete sap, but whatever!
Believe in God?: i think so. i don't know. it's weird.
Pray?: sure. everyone does.
Go to church?: not for a long time. but i like to, on christmas eve anyway. sean said the coolest thing about church a while ago--about how he goes every sunday, and doesn't always exactly go IN the building, but still goes. i don't know, i thought it was really neat.
Have any secrets?: everyone does. i can't think of any at the moment, but i'm sure i have one...
Have any pets: haha, tooooo many...
Do well in school?: sure. pretty well.
Go to or plan to go to college?: go to. miss it like crazy!
Have a major?: history! wheeee!
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: oh man. what was his name? "something scary"? that was crazy...
Wear hats?: not really.
Have any piercings?: yeah, both ears twice, and one at the top of my left ear.
Have any tattoos?: nope! someday, though...
Hate yourself?: nooooooo...
Have an obsession?: hahahahaha. oh man. don't wanna talk about it!
Have a secret crush?: everyone does! mine are usually really stupid or embarrassing, which is why i don't tell people.
Do they know yet?: i'm pretty sure people know when i have a crush on them because i'm usually annoyingly obvious about it...but hopefully not!
Collect anything?: pictures. does that count?
Have a best friend?: i have the best friends on the planet, and i guess i have a few very best, but one absolute best? maggie brown. gotta be.
Wish on stars?: all the time.
Like your handwriting?: sometimes.
Have any bad habits?: haha, nailbiting, being too obvious about crushes...is cute boys a bad habit? i think it might be...
Care about looks?: ehh...sometimes. my new years resolution was to be more classy, and that has something to do with looks, i guess. i just like to look like i take good care of myself.
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: everyone cares, i think, but so many things come before looks. i'm just lucky to be a little bit crazy about someone who's super cute!
Friends and other people?: nah. well, sometimes. but it's never like, hindered a friendship or anything, if that's what you mean.
Believe in witches?: kristen's convinced my ex roommate is a witch. or a worlock. hahaha.
Believe in Satan?: yes. and her name is laura rochefort.
Believe in ghosts?: i guess so....what a weird question to end with!
oooook, so, to end our tale, sarah gets kicked off the computer and evil little brother takes over. so long!
quote of the night:
watch the sky 84: fuckin spanish chestnut...only you, paul rogers.
PR2120: hahahah
PR2120: it was a priceless summer moment
watch the sky 84: i bet
--s*