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fuck it. i'm not doing better. i just cant fuckin do it. i might as well just not talk to him or anything not be his bestfriend, nothing. because this is really hard for me, &as much as i swear i don't really care what goes on, i do. it kills me. i jus dont know what to do with myself. as the days pass, i try to make believe that its easier&im okay, but it jus doesnt work. nothing fuckin will. i cant fuckin do this. i jus wanna like fuckin dieee. i just shouldnt have him in my life for a really longtime because its way too much for me. gfgfrjjukljhfb jjgdoiddhfbhrgkbfoigfr.
but i love casey btw. she's the fuckin shit & the greatest friend to me. fuuuck alll u bitchez. haha jk.
but seriously. i'm pissed. straight up pissed off. that's all. BUT IM NOT GIVING UP. I NEVER GIVE UP. AND I NEVER HAVE, NEVER WILL MUDDA FUCKUHHH.