the holidays...
Well its been awhile since the last time I updated, don’t really know what to update you all on… it’s Christmas eve, but I’m not excited for the holidays, I was really excited.. until Monday happened, now I just want them to be over with. The only thing I want for Christmas is for him to come back to me.. but he’s not going to… he’s going to change and forget about who he’s close to now.. or he will come back, but what are the chances of that? i have no luck in the world so I doubt he will.. or if he does, how long will it be? I want to wait cause I don’t want to lose him, but I’m afraid I already am… and it sucks.
I could go on rambling about this for hours, but I’m not going to. Tomorrow’s Christmas and its going to suck. I cant even open up any of my presents til like 4 in the afternoon cause my brother works from 7-3pm.. so it wont even feel like Christmas. You’re supposed to get up and open your presents and relax all day and just chill with family. But no holiday is ever normal in my house, at least not for the past 8 years…it all started when we spent Christmas day in the hospital and ever day of Christmas break in the hospital with my grandfather. We even brought him in a little foot sized tree and decorated it for him and brought him his presents. We bought him an eagles jacket, he LOVED the eagles, too bad he never got to wear it…
I just don’t have the holiday spirit, I think its from my parents, I had to beg my parents to put up a tree, we finally put it up Wednesday night. and I bet my mom will take it down Monday morning, the day after Christmas cause she hates the holidays…
This is sorta a pointless update, but I just felt like writing, so whatever.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE <3
I could go on rambling about this for hours, but I’m not going to. Tomorrow’s Christmas and its going to suck. I cant even open up any of my presents til like 4 in the afternoon cause my brother works from 7-3pm.. so it wont even feel like Christmas. You’re supposed to get up and open your presents and relax all day and just chill with family. But no holiday is ever normal in my house, at least not for the past 8 years…it all started when we spent Christmas day in the hospital and ever day of Christmas break in the hospital with my grandfather. We even brought him in a little foot sized tree and decorated it for him and brought him his presents. We bought him an eagles jacket, he LOVED the eagles, too bad he never got to wear it…
I just don’t have the holiday spirit, I think its from my parents, I had to beg my parents to put up a tree, we finally put it up Wednesday night. and I bet my mom will take it down Monday morning, the day after Christmas cause she hates the holidays…
This is sorta a pointless update, but I just felt like writing, so whatever.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE <3