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i'm really fucking confused right now.
this weekened was nothing special. friday night i got in a huge fight with my mom, nd things have been strange ever since. i've lost so much respect for her, ever since she left i feel like she can kiss my white ass any time she'd like.
tomorrow is probably the biggest game i've ever played in my entire life. whoever wins tmr is pretty much guarenteed regionals. i'm so nervous. i feel lke lately i havent been playeing very well,am i'm so afraid that i wont be good enough tmr. i know we can win, but its going to take everything we've got. i fear i'm not ready to play. there's some shit that i can't deal with that i know will affect my game. and there's nothing i can really do about it. =/
i'm oh so tired of feeling like this. not knowin what will happen next. pretending to be strong, while inside i'm dying. i cant take it anymore, and i dont know what to do. i can only hope so much. i have no choice but to watch this fall apart. there's nothing i can do. and it sucks.
F I G H T F O R E V E R Y I N C H
North Muskegon Varsity Soccer 2006
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