a new outlook...
Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I'm your friend
Help me find a way to bring me back to you
You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know you are near
You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause no one else
Can take you place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find a way
to bring me back to you
i've decided to take a new approach on life. A little less me...a lot more God.
i've realized that some people will never change. once you've had a taste of what the world is like, its hard to get away from it. People have to want to be with God, and i realized that those desires have to come from within. I can't force someone to want something, no matter how hard i try. As much as i want something, unless they want it too, its not going to happen.
so yeah. I'm just going to live for God. If you don't want to that's fine, but you don't have to be my friend. I'm not saying that I wont be your friend if you dont believe in God, but this is who i am. and i'm not going to force anything on you, you can be you, and i will be me...seperately.
Today i realized that I'll be in florida in 2 weeks. And this trip could really determine whether or not i'll play college soccer. North Carolina is going to be there. and if i want to play there, i'm really gonna have to start focusing more on soccer. Usually i worry about other things like boys, family, homework...but its time to really start working hard on soccer. If i want to play at UNC...i have to give this tournament everything I have.
There's no holding back....
my grandma and grandpa are moving to texas next week. i'm really bummed out about it. we're not as close as we used to be, but i really dont want them to leave. they'll be so far away. there are so many fun memories with them. the worst nightmares of my life came from watching nightmare on elm street at their house. lol. my grandma can't remember names for the life of her =) and she always wants me to have 5 boyfriends at a time. hehe. staying weekends with them, and having to get up to go to church. some of the funniest mornings i've ever had in my life.
You never know what you've go until It's Gone.