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anytime anything seems to go right for me, or i'm suddenly happy everything goes down the fucking toilet.
i dont want to put my head down and give up because i want to be happy but i cant help it.
i hurt probably one of the sweetest guys that have ever walked the earth. i was "bad" again last night, it's been a long time and a lot of advice i've given which i didn't follow myself. and i feel totally crushed right now.
i'm gonna try to let things go and stop being "bad". until then i'll just be really hardcore listening to mushy dash-like emo songs and crying myself to sleep. woot.
ps :: sean im sorry. i just cant.
i dont want to put my head down and give up because i want to be happy but i cant help it.
i hurt probably one of the sweetest guys that have ever walked the earth. i was "bad" again last night, it's been a long time and a lot of advice i've given which i didn't follow myself. and i feel totally crushed right now.
i'm gonna try to let things go and stop being "bad". until then i'll just be really hardcore listening to mushy dash-like emo songs and crying myself to sleep. woot.
ps :: sean im sorry. i just cant.