(no subject)

[sumdayiwillrule]

I'm so scared and I don't know why. With the few aspects of my life that are stable teatering on an edge.. in my mind I mean. I hate being so afraid, so vunerable. I give up, I'll just forget about trying to have feelings if anything happens, I'll let it numb me cause I really can't stand some of this shit anymore but o well. And I don't know how I am if you're wondering. But I'm sure no one will read this so whatever. I'm going to go do my eye makeup. Concert tonight with Bailey. The Mars Volta. Thinking of tonight is the only thing making me smile at the moment. Ok, tootles.

I love Lucas.