Right, Livejournal
See, the thing is, I LIKE Livejournal. So why don't I post? I'm no more busy than I was when I was at Macalester. It baffles me, honestly.
I've also noticed that most of my posts from the last year or so have included self-recriminations as to my non-posting status.
Anyway...
The wife being in Rome is driving me nuts, quite frankly. See, I didn't expect it to, because I was such a recluse during high-school. And I wasn't particularly social at Macalester. I guess there's simply something about spending at least half of every day with someone
But locally, I have no friends within 4 years of my age. my local friends are all 27 and older or 19 years or younger. This is what I get for making friends with the faculty and the first-years.
Were we this clique-ish in our junior and senior years? Possibly. I know I was one of the worse ones, as I know a number of the gamers were very welcoming to fresh gamer blood. I wasn't. I don't believe I was unwelcoming...but...I had enough friends to deal with at the time. If that makes any sense. I felt I could not afford to spend more time on acquiring additional friends at the time and still devote the time to my current friends that they deserved.
I also think that I was somewhat neglectful of friends two years ago. But graduating, getting into grad school and getting married was a hassle.
But it any case, I've had little luck finding friends here. My closest friends are a pair of UBC graduates with whom I play Earthdawn and Shadowrun, and a 19-year old girl who is in the same game and is also joining my newest D&D campaign. My attempts to make friends with the current students have largely flopped. Probably the same mentality I had back in the day.
(Yes, this is the FIFTH attempt I've made to get a campaign off the ground here.) (this also makes me feel unloved, yes)
Ah well. I just finished my first summer classes, presumably with As though with 40% finals, that's always uncertain. My GPA (unsurpringly) is better than at Mac, and I'm edging the magna border instead of the plain cum laude. I should be thankful for such things rather than bitter, but you know me...still a grade perfectionist even after ample proof that I'm probably not 4.0 caliber anymore, even at my best. Bloody Hell.
And here I sit, alone in a basement in Vancouver, half-whining, half-explaining, and being bored despite the fact that I KNOW I could spend ten hours cleaning this place and much more than that in reading all the books on my reading list. And missing my wife. A lot of that.
Well, someday this place will be clean, and someday those books will be read, and someday I WILL see her again, so its no use complaining.
And my Grandmother is coming to visit in a week and a half, so I will get a reprieve from loneliness.
I've also noticed that most of my posts from the last year or so have included self-recriminations as to my non-posting status.
Anyway...
The wife being in Rome is driving me nuts, quite frankly. See, I didn't expect it to, because I was such a recluse during high-school. And I wasn't particularly social at Macalester. I guess there's simply something about spending at least half of every day with someone
But locally, I have no friends within 4 years of my age. my local friends are all 27 and older or 19 years or younger. This is what I get for making friends with the faculty and the first-years.
Were we this clique-ish in our junior and senior years? Possibly. I know I was one of the worse ones, as I know a number of the gamers were very welcoming to fresh gamer blood. I wasn't. I don't believe I was unwelcoming...but...I had enough friends to deal with at the time. If that makes any sense. I felt I could not afford to spend more time on acquiring additional friends at the time and still devote the time to my current friends that they deserved.
I also think that I was somewhat neglectful of friends two years ago. But graduating, getting into grad school and getting married was a hassle.
But it any case, I've had little luck finding friends here. My closest friends are a pair of UBC graduates with whom I play Earthdawn and Shadowrun, and a 19-year old girl who is in the same game and is also joining my newest D&D campaign. My attempts to make friends with the current students have largely flopped. Probably the same mentality I had back in the day.
(Yes, this is the FIFTH attempt I've made to get a campaign off the ground here.) (this also makes me feel unloved, yes)
Ah well. I just finished my first summer classes, presumably with As though with 40% finals, that's always uncertain. My GPA (unsurpringly) is better than at Mac, and I'm edging the magna border instead of the plain cum laude. I should be thankful for such things rather than bitter, but you know me...still a grade perfectionist even after ample proof that I'm probably not 4.0 caliber anymore, even at my best. Bloody Hell.
And here I sit, alone in a basement in Vancouver, half-whining, half-explaining, and being bored despite the fact that I KNOW I could spend ten hours cleaning this place and much more than that in reading all the books on my reading list. And missing my wife. A lot of that.
Well, someday this place will be clean, and someday those books will be read, and someday I WILL see her again, so its no use complaining.
And my Grandmother is coming to visit in a week and a half, so I will get a reprieve from loneliness.