it's really starting to hit me now..

[sumanimal]

so i was going to go to bed like an hour ago, but all of a sudden i was in the mood to look at old yearbooks, and so i did. i just read everything people wrote to me freshman and sophomore years. for the most part i just felt kinda nostalgic and like, "oh yeah, those were good times." then i got to the back cover of my sophomore year yearbook.. it was almost a whole page from somebody who used to be one of my best friends and who i hardly talk to anymore.. and then i started to cry. as much as i hated sophomore year at the time, looking back on it, it really wasnt so bad. and just like everyone told me, things did get better.

i loved junior year. i am loving senior year. i am ready to graduate and to go to college.. but i dont want to leave everyone behind. i am going to fall apart on june 25.

everything is BEYOND PERFECT right now and i dont want it to end.