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Wow its been a long time...up until this point I guess I've just really had a boring life...until now...
This past week my cousin Drea came to visit for a week which was soooo much fun...we went to the movies, sunbathed, swam, skinnydipped ;-D, and just hung out...we also went camping on the weekend...that was soo much fun...However I don't know what it is...I mean people say that she looks like me all the time...but she always seems to turn everyone's heads. It really gets tiring after a little while hearing how gorgeous my cousin is...(hey danni could you set me up with your hott cousin) stuff like that...and then I felt like lately I can't seem to get along with anyone...I'm in this daze and I can't escape it. I try so hard to block out the things that bug me and I can't...so I normally break down by myself..I can't seem to show any emotion to my friends. Then to make matters worse ever since my dad has been traveling to Vermont every week...he comes home and he's grumpy, which makes mom grumpy which then directly effects everybodys mood...we all become incredibly moody and never end up doing things as a family...I am so flipping sick of my older sisters always being sided with from my parents and aimee because they are going to college in the fall...It's going to be just me mom and aimee this fall and if I don't find somewhere to run to I will seriously die...I want to go see jes at college..but I want to spend time by myself also...I try to run to work my energy off but mom always says we're too busy..but when gina wants to go...she lets her...
I can't seem to figure out what is going on with the stupid boy...I think that I understand him and then he does something that throws me completely off balance...like slowdancing with me when he just got done telling me that " it makes him uncomfortable when I "hang" all over him" WHICH I DON'T...by the way thanks for making me feel skanky for that lovely choice of words...My family is fighting right now and if I don't get out of here I feel like I'm going to go nuts!!! AHHHH!!!! My best friends are amazing but I feel I haven't seen them very much this summer...and when I do get to hang out with the one person I feel I can always count on...she makes me feel ugly and undesirable because all the guys are so obsessed with her that they don't even notice me...
I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS!!!! AHHH!!! Please someone send me love...
This past week my cousin Drea came to visit for a week which was soooo much fun...we went to the movies, sunbathed, swam, skinnydipped ;-D, and just hung out...we also went camping on the weekend...that was soo much fun...However I don't know what it is...I mean people say that she looks like me all the time...but she always seems to turn everyone's heads. It really gets tiring after a little while hearing how gorgeous my cousin is...(hey danni could you set me up with your hott cousin) stuff like that...and then I felt like lately I can't seem to get along with anyone...I'm in this daze and I can't escape it. I try so hard to block out the things that bug me and I can't...so I normally break down by myself..I can't seem to show any emotion to my friends. Then to make matters worse ever since my dad has been traveling to Vermont every week...he comes home and he's grumpy, which makes mom grumpy which then directly effects everybodys mood...we all become incredibly moody and never end up doing things as a family...I am so flipping sick of my older sisters always being sided with from my parents and aimee because they are going to college in the fall...It's going to be just me mom and aimee this fall and if I don't find somewhere to run to I will seriously die...I want to go see jes at college..but I want to spend time by myself also...I try to run to work my energy off but mom always says we're too busy..but when gina wants to go...she lets her...
I can't seem to figure out what is going on with the stupid boy...I think that I understand him and then he does something that throws me completely off balance...like slowdancing with me when he just got done telling me that " it makes him uncomfortable when I "hang" all over him" WHICH I DON'T...by the way thanks for making me feel skanky for that lovely choice of words...My family is fighting right now and if I don't get out of here I feel like I'm going to go nuts!!! AHHHH!!!! My best friends are amazing but I feel I haven't seen them very much this summer...and when I do get to hang out with the one person I feel I can always count on...she makes me feel ugly and undesirable because all the guys are so obsessed with her that they don't even notice me...
I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS!!!! AHHH!!! Please someone send me love...