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basically i was sitting on my neighbors couch babysitting, the kids are asleep, with my summer reading book, and it takes me about 3 minutes to realize: i'm sitting here with an open book that im supposed to finish and have notes on by the time school starts and im staring at the first line not even comprehending what it says. i swear i think ive gone a.d.d. i just cannot concentrate. i just have a ton on my mind. which seems really dumb, because its summer. what can i possibly be worried about right? yea i wish. i just hate this whole "i cant do anything about it" thing. its dumb, i hate not being in control of it. which, i guess, makes me a control freak. but is that really so bad? is wanting to be in control of an awkward situation such a horrible thing? i wish i could just talk about it. i wish i could just get things back to the way they used to be. but its not my call. i just have to wait. agh. dumb. im not patient. damn i talk about myself a lot.