Family Shit + True Blood
So my grandpa is dying. He's had cancer for a while. The last time I saw him was last Christmas. His birthday is coming up and we're having a family get together on Saturday that of course I'm supposed to go to.
Here's the thing. I don't like the man. Don't love the man. Never have. He's a raging alcoholic who made my dad's childhood miserable. He's never done a thing for me or my family. I don't think he's really a bad person at heart, but still. Don't like him. And I REALLY don't want to have to be around all that sickness and nastiness. I would so much rather just hear secondhand, oh yeah, Grandpa died last week. Simple. Easy. Distant.
But I fucking have to go, and it sucks. A lot. I'm going to dread it all week, hate being there, and feel awful afterward. Ugh.
Am I a terrible, terrible person for feeling this way? I kind of think I am, but I also kind of don't care.
True Blood! Tonight's episode had way too much vomiting (ick!), but other than that it was pretty good. Sam's secret is finally - finally! - out, so that's progress. And I loved watching Bill at the tribunal. I seriously want to read some Bill/Eric. And I loved watching him with the girl - trying to be kind to her at first, then kind of getting swept away as it went on...that was awesome. Can't wait until next week!