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IM HOPING AS TIME GOES YOU CAN FORGET
I'm ready for Lauren to get here!
She loves me for me and wont drop me like a bad habit because I dont hang out with certain people
I would love to have more friends, closer friends. But I think thats impossible,well not impossible. But itll take a while.
It will take a while to feel like some people dont use me ( Read more... )
""starsburnout". some may think that its just some lame attempt at trying to be emo or scene or smart or something else of that sort although all of those really have nothing to do with eachother at all. maybe less than i even believe. This title for my acoustic project is way more than a faulty attempt at something as empty as that, or atleast to me it is. and in reality thats what counts right ? its a title describing change. and realizations having to do with change in everyday peoples lives.
stars. just like the sun that our universe revolves around have a lifespan just like anything weve ever come to know and appriciate in life. nothing of importance can last forever, or so it seems at times. Stars, are probably my favorite thing in the "world" ( not actually in the world at all but im sure you see what im saying ). Stars to me are beautiful. theyshine for everyone to see from anypoint on this living earth. this makes thier beauty universal as fuck. something eveyone can share. thier life patterns and reason for function is what amazes me even more than their simplistic beauty. Think to yourself how big the stars we say actually are ( or were ). Look at the sun. think of the distance to the sun. imagine the infinite amount of distance between us and the stars we see in the night time. Its almost unimaginable. The light from the stars of course travels at the speed of light probaby varrying due to what it passes through on its way to our pupils. the speed of light is fast. it would take more energy than that of what exists in the world to propel a person at the speed of light therfore proving the distance of the stars.
Naturally it takes a bit of time for the light to travel to us on earth, quite a bit of time. ...jumping foward....when stars "die" or burn out we continue to see them untill the light reaches the earth for its last time. this happens for so long that most people dont seem to realize the fact that these stars disappear. probably because the word disappear is a bad choice of words because the rate in which it does this can hardly be compared to a rabbit "dissapearing" instantly in a magicians hat. We dont notice the stars changing. until ( if the realization ever comes ) its done. We are the stars. We change ever so slowly when looking at it in the big picture althogh in our lives change at the speed of light, is never even noticed. we you us me all change. we are all beautiful at some point. we dont realize the fact that we change through time and events untill its already done for and the person you once were is nothin more than a last bit of light waves traveling for the world to see for the last time. Everything around you seems the same but somehow you're different, or in comparrison to your previous interests lusts obsessions ideas religions politics parents friends habits beliefs songs schools gods boys girls whatever may apply to you. starsburnout is a concept describing our cluelessness to ourselves changing or "dissapearing".." - Thursday March 31st 2005.
in a more familar and depressing note....
" cant go back to the way we were..where nothing else matters it was us against the world.
you were right in saying that we are a typical highschool group seperating as stupidity covers the breadcrumbs left for direction in case of realization 180 degrees for the past.
"change is now, and if one dosent take it upon himself to act on it, the past is where he will find himself, living a life revolving around memories of and with people who didnt care enough to stick around... hold close only those who hold close to you, cause resistance is key to a faulty grip. live for yourself with your eyes on sucsess, and watch your back as if your eyes were originally placed through the back-side of your chest." - burnout 5/22/06
i dont know why i left this long of a choppy, probably senseless, comment but this too has been on my mind lately. bottom line i miss you anna carswell.
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and im home! EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!
ps. i agree with all that shit. :)
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you and connor rule at life:]
love you!
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