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I haven't been on here in a while.
Things right now are good.
Life is still confusing, but when I look around...most people are in the same boat as me. Just treding the waters and trying to figure this whole situation out.
It seems I am constantly either thinking of my past or trying to map out my future. I try to live in the moment...but my thoughts carry me away.
I'm always on the search for the right guy....which sounds so stupid.
My sister says to stop worrying about finding Mr. Right and start looking for Mr. Right Now.
I'm dating a new guy right now. We've been dating for about a month.
I met him through some friends one night while bar hopping. I was instantly attracted, got drunk...and made my move. He accepted.
I pick him apart though. I pick everyone apart. I make a list in my head of things I like and dislike.
I like that we were raised with the same morals and values. I like that he's affectionate. He's really attractive and in shape. He is outgoing and likes to stay busy. He's very selfless.
I don't like that he talks to me in this annoying baby voice. He hums before actually speaking. He stutters a little bit. He's country accent. He blinks uncontrolably when he's thinking hard about something. And he flashed his police badge at a restaurant when the bouncer at the door had a problem with our table.
Arrggggg.....i hate these list. I hate picking people apart. I hate it that every day I wonder what I can and can't live with.
I just want to live in the moment, not care, and just be happy. Instead I'm like, could I wake up to this every morning? Could I see him being the father to my children? What will he look like in 20 years? Blah, blah, blah.
It drives me crazy.
I need an escape from my own mind.
Things right now are good.
Life is still confusing, but when I look around...most people are in the same boat as me. Just treding the waters and trying to figure this whole situation out.
It seems I am constantly either thinking of my past or trying to map out my future. I try to live in the moment...but my thoughts carry me away.
I'm always on the search for the right guy....which sounds so stupid.
My sister says to stop worrying about finding Mr. Right and start looking for Mr. Right Now.
I'm dating a new guy right now. We've been dating for about a month.
I met him through some friends one night while bar hopping. I was instantly attracted, got drunk...and made my move. He accepted.
I pick him apart though. I pick everyone apart. I make a list in my head of things I like and dislike.
I like that we were raised with the same morals and values. I like that he's affectionate. He's really attractive and in shape. He is outgoing and likes to stay busy. He's very selfless.
I don't like that he talks to me in this annoying baby voice. He hums before actually speaking. He stutters a little bit. He's country accent. He blinks uncontrolably when he's thinking hard about something. And he flashed his police badge at a restaurant when the bouncer at the door had a problem with our table.
Arrggggg.....i hate these list. I hate picking people apart. I hate it that every day I wonder what I can and can't live with.
I just want to live in the moment, not care, and just be happy. Instead I'm like, could I wake up to this every morning? Could I see him being the father to my children? What will he look like in 20 years? Blah, blah, blah.
It drives me crazy.
I need an escape from my own mind.