my depth perception must be off again.

[sullenopiate]

after doing the most outrageous thing i've ever agreed to do, i've started thinking about all the weird situations i've gotten myself into. all this coming from the girl who used to never talk to anyone and continually walked by open-door opportunities. and somehow after all these thought trains, i derailed and found myself thinking of jim again. not in any kind of nostalgic sort of way, just how things went down over new years. i just don't understand how my life got to the point where i had to pretend that the person i once loved didn't just walk through the door. i can't even say i'd want to change any of the things that went down, i just wish we could at least acknowledge the other's existence. it's not like it's a huge deal or anything anyway being that we live states away, i just sometimes wish the war that no one won didn't have to have taken place.

on a side note: i got stung by a wasp!! the fucker flew in my car while i was on a perfectly peaceful trip to walmart. i perservered though and still ventured to walmart. my evergrowing need to buy sunglasses outweighed the extreme tingling feeling that was taking over my thigh. i've still got a huge welt but after three days, i've decided that i'm probably not allergic to wasps and that i also probably won't die. i was looking at 'wasp sting symptoms' sites and learned that if i was going to die from a wasp sting, i would have 'impending feelings of doom' and since those have not occured yet, i feel safe to say that that wasp will not be the death of me.

i wanna go dancing. i guess i'll go workout instead.