Another silent post

[sullenmadness]

I cannot believe that my life took such a good turn for once. Everything was laid out before me, and things weren't messed up as they usually are. I've slipped out of my negative state of mind and my thoughts are happy, for once. Well, mostly happy. I'm so worried about her. She does so many things that aren't good for her. I don't mean illegal, teenager things, but seriously bad things. She told me that if I needed to end it because it was too much, I could. And it isn't too much. I'm just worried. The thing that really hit me though, is when she said I deserved better than her. I told her that I thought she was perfect for me, and that even if I deserved better, I would still want her. She just shook her head and sighed, but I guess that's because she doesn't know how much I really care for her. I don't think she'd believe me if I told her how much I do care. I just want her to be ok. And I don't really know whether or not there's a God up there, but if he's listening, or reading this over my shoulder, then maybe you can answer my prayer. Make her better. Please, I'd damn my own life to make her better. I just want her to be ok. And if there is no God, and she happens to read this, I just want her to know how much I want my presence to make her feel better. I'll do anything. Anything...

~The Silent One