One of those days
Last night as I was about to go take a shower, a cockroach flew into my room. I jumped up and out of the room, and I was peeking through the slightly ajar door to see where the cockroach was perched.
It was one of those huge cockroaches, the ones that fly really fast and make slight noises. It was on top of my mirror, and the light from the lamp was making the cockroach's shadow look even huger. I could see the outline of its wings, and those two whisker-like things on its head were freaking me out!
I couldn't go have my shower because I left my nice body wash in the room (its this thing with me, using nice body wash before a party). So i just stood there peeking, watching it transfer from the mirror to the lamp, and after a few minutes I grabbed the closest throw-able thing and flung it at the lamp and slammed the door shut.
As I was leaning with my back against the door and panting for air, I thought to myself 'putanginang buhay to, here i am, i can't even take a shower, and the christmas party I'm about to go to is probably gonna suck pretty bad anyway, and the afterparty gimik i have planned isn't a thing that excites me, mostly because i'm not in the mood to meet anyone, because hooking up is far from what i plan to do, and what i used to look forward to dati, the good music, is no more because the music sucked the last two times i was there...'
And then I thought to myself 'you know, i have a drawer-ful of valium, and if I choose so, I can just kill myself right now, and then I won't be faced with this stupid cockroach problem, and both the party and the afterparty will no longer suck because it won't be my problem anymore!'
I want to emphasize that I wasn't thinking of killling myself in any sort of drama, I was just thinking of it matter-of-factly na hey, if I choose so, these things will no longer be a problem for me.
FYI I killed the cockroach minutes later by repeatedly hitting it with my tsinelas, and then I cackled, took a shower, got dressed and went out.
It was one of those huge cockroaches, the ones that fly really fast and make slight noises. It was on top of my mirror, and the light from the lamp was making the cockroach's shadow look even huger. I could see the outline of its wings, and those two whisker-like things on its head were freaking me out!
I couldn't go have my shower because I left my nice body wash in the room (its this thing with me, using nice body wash before a party). So i just stood there peeking, watching it transfer from the mirror to the lamp, and after a few minutes I grabbed the closest throw-able thing and flung it at the lamp and slammed the door shut.
As I was leaning with my back against the door and panting for air, I thought to myself 'putanginang buhay to, here i am, i can't even take a shower, and the christmas party I'm about to go to is probably gonna suck pretty bad anyway, and the afterparty gimik i have planned isn't a thing that excites me, mostly because i'm not in the mood to meet anyone, because hooking up is far from what i plan to do, and what i used to look forward to dati, the good music, is no more because the music sucked the last two times i was there...'
And then I thought to myself 'you know, i have a drawer-ful of valium, and if I choose so, I can just kill myself right now, and then I won't be faced with this stupid cockroach problem, and both the party and the afterparty will no longer suck because it won't be my problem anymore!'
I want to emphasize that I wasn't thinking of killling myself in any sort of drama, I was just thinking of it matter-of-factly na hey, if I choose so, these things will no longer be a problem for me.
FYI I killed the cockroach minutes later by repeatedly hitting it with my tsinelas, and then I cackled, took a shower, got dressed and went out.