Learning like it's organic.
I'm done na with my pedia-ward rotation!! Yayyyyyy!!! I no longer have to see Ms Chimay on a daily basis!!
I'm now im pedia-out patient, so (relatively) new residents, a new breed of patients and new responsibilities! I really like the environment in the out patient dept (OPD). Right next door is a bunch of my co-interns rotating in one department or another. New ka-chikahan, new balita coming in.
Ok, so I like the familiar (friendly) faces, but it's really the new-ness of switching posts every 2 weeks that I really like.
It got me thinking, in two weeks, I'll be in another post. Incidentally, my next post is an outside hospital - I spend 2 weeks each in Jose Reyes and Children's Hospital.
It got me thinking even more... Let's see if I can be someone else when I'm in a new hospital. Well, still me, but... I'm thinking, less gay. Less reactive, more observing before I act. No need to be such a loudmouth. I need to practice reeling in some of my personality, my natural reactions.
I learned from my fight with Ms Chimay that I can't win every battle. I always speak up kasi when I think something is unfair. I react without considering how I might look to an observer who might not have all the facts, or might have an opinion different from mine.
I'm thinking I don't need to react all the time. Some things can be unfair, I'll learn not to mind. I need to pick my battles so that when I do speak, what I say packs more clout. If I can't change the world around me, I'm gonna have to learn to change!
It's hard to understand/explain, but internship is like a long war. The enemy is the work and also yourself. There's so much work to be done, so much expected from each person. And when exhaustion creeps in, out come the cattiness and the pettiness. You see the truest form of a person under pressure.
Anyway, let's see what happens when I begin my outside rotation in July.
I'll need some mental preparation the night before. Hahaha. Well, every night maybe!
I'm now im pedia-out patient, so (relatively) new residents, a new breed of patients and new responsibilities! I really like the environment in the out patient dept (OPD). Right next door is a bunch of my co-interns rotating in one department or another. New ka-chikahan, new balita coming in.
Ok, so I like the familiar (friendly) faces, but it's really the new-ness of switching posts every 2 weeks that I really like.
It got me thinking, in two weeks, I'll be in another post. Incidentally, my next post is an outside hospital - I spend 2 weeks each in Jose Reyes and Children's Hospital.
It got me thinking even more... Let's see if I can be someone else when I'm in a new hospital. Well, still me, but... I'm thinking, less gay. Less reactive, more observing before I act. No need to be such a loudmouth. I need to practice reeling in some of my personality, my natural reactions.
I learned from my fight with Ms Chimay that I can't win every battle. I always speak up kasi when I think something is unfair. I react without considering how I might look to an observer who might not have all the facts, or might have an opinion different from mine.
I'm thinking I don't need to react all the time. Some things can be unfair, I'll learn not to mind. I need to pick my battles so that when I do speak, what I say packs more clout. If I can't change the world around me, I'm gonna have to learn to change!
It's hard to understand/explain, but internship is like a long war. The enemy is the work and also yourself. There's so much work to be done, so much expected from each person. And when exhaustion creeps in, out come the cattiness and the pettiness. You see the truest form of a person under pressure.
Anyway, let's see what happens when I begin my outside rotation in July.
I'll need some mental preparation the night before. Hahaha. Well, every night maybe!