Sometimes it seems impossible
I needed to post...my main page is a picture of Dane Cook's gigantic erection. Not that I mind but it gets a little unnerving after a while.
Les Miserables closed yesterday. For those of you who came to see it, thank you so much. It meant the world to me, just like this show. I've never cried harder in my life than when I walked off that stage last night after our five or something bows to a cheering and standing audience. More emotion came out of me in that last hour than has ever came out of me before. It was more fulfilling than...I'm gushing. I just can't put into words how proud I am to have been a part of that.
Now my next step comes...Belmont University. I've already made several friends on facebook and they are SO nice and warm and welcoming that it makes me even more eager to leave.
But my friends...my family...keep pulling my heart back. I've made such good friends this past year. It's so weird to think I haven't known them as long as I've known my other friends. But that also worries me because I can't forget my old ones. I rarely talk to them. But maybe that's life. People are forgotten and only the recent ones in someones life are remembered. Ain't it depressing.
There's a listlessness about the night. And about myself. There's so much inside me and so far my eyes need to open. But I don't know when it'll happen. Last night it happened a little. I'm more aware of myself and everything around me. But I'm expecting something to happen to me where it just hits me all of a sudden and I'm awoken from this dream-of-a-life that I've lived up until now.
I need to be better. That's what college is for. That's what life is for. Practice, experience, lessons...love. Heh. You know what I've learned? Love comes in all different forms. And even if you want it so bad but you don't have it at the moment...it's okay. Because it will find you in other things. In music, in friends, in movies, in anything you hold close.
This became a lot more deep than I meant it to. Sudden stillness. Breathe. You're found. That's where I want to be.
Les Miserables closed yesterday. For those of you who came to see it, thank you so much. It meant the world to me, just like this show. I've never cried harder in my life than when I walked off that stage last night after our five or something bows to a cheering and standing audience. More emotion came out of me in that last hour than has ever came out of me before. It was more fulfilling than...I'm gushing. I just can't put into words how proud I am to have been a part of that.
Now my next step comes...Belmont University. I've already made several friends on facebook and they are SO nice and warm and welcoming that it makes me even more eager to leave.
But my friends...my family...keep pulling my heart back. I've made such good friends this past year. It's so weird to think I haven't known them as long as I've known my other friends. But that also worries me because I can't forget my old ones. I rarely talk to them. But maybe that's life. People are forgotten and only the recent ones in someones life are remembered. Ain't it depressing.
There's a listlessness about the night. And about myself. There's so much inside me and so far my eyes need to open. But I don't know when it'll happen. Last night it happened a little. I'm more aware of myself and everything around me. But I'm expecting something to happen to me where it just hits me all of a sudden and I'm awoken from this dream-of-a-life that I've lived up until now.
I need to be better. That's what college is for. That's what life is for. Practice, experience, lessons...love. Heh. You know what I've learned? Love comes in all different forms. And even if you want it so bad but you don't have it at the moment...it's okay. Because it will find you in other things. In music, in friends, in movies, in anything you hold close.
This became a lot more deep than I meant it to. Sudden stillness. Breathe. You're found. That's where I want to be.