Guilty.
I honestly am posting this from the doctors office after just having a fight with my boyfriend on YIM, I feel really stupid about not being straight up and honest with him in the first place but, it's sort of hard when you don't wish to hurt the one you love in the long run and only wish to make them happy by doing anything even if makes you seem low and depressed sometimes.
I admit I can be childish, a bitch, but when I love someone I stick to them like glue in loyalty because I want to serve that person and make them the happiest person on earth, no ever on earth to my abilities. Even if sometimes I might seem like a pushover and get blinded by the one I love I can't help it.
I want to apologize to my friends if I'm not around as much as I used to be, or my love for not being what I strive to be.. but as tears hit my hands as I type this I think.. I want to really stick by your side even if it means enduring hell with you.. I love you and I'm sorry I'm not always honest with you right away, but sooner or later everything works out. ~Suki/Suzu
I admit I can be childish, a bitch, but when I love someone I stick to them like glue in loyalty because I want to serve that person and make them the happiest person on earth, no ever on earth to my abilities. Even if sometimes I might seem like a pushover and get blinded by the one I love I can't help it.
I want to apologize to my friends if I'm not around as much as I used to be, or my love for not being what I strive to be.. but as tears hit my hands as I type this I think.. I want to really stick by your side even if it means enduring hell with you.. I love you and I'm sorry I'm not always honest with you right away, but sooner or later everything works out. ~Suki/Suzu