「The Tear Of Joy」《Chapter 13》
Title:: The Tear Of Joy
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 7068 words
Rating:: PG-13
Before he could realize it, he was taking his luggage to get it inside the taxi to go to the airport and go to Fukuoka with his boss. He turned around to face his wife and kiss her lips softly. He still felt nothing but it was just to calm her down a bit. She was truly against going to that business trip for some reason and he could only reassure her before leaving so she would spend a good weekend alone. “I will be okay, I will be back with you on Sunday's evening, so don't put that face” he smiled to her while his hand was touching her belly slowly. Even if only three months had gone by, it had not changed almost anything, he could not believe there was a baby inside. Then, she put her hand over his and smiled at him back.
“Okay, I will call you tomorrow to see how you are” she pecked his lips for last time before he entered the taxi and told the man to go to the airport. It was not like he was worried, after all it was only a weekend, but somehow he had a bad feeling. Maybe it was just the fact he was going to travel with Kazunari, after all he was not looking forward to it at all, but no matter if he wanted or not, he had to go because it was his job. So that was what he was doing.
After paying the man, he got out with his luggage and searched for his boss around. Ninomiya had told him he would wait for him in front of the main door twenty minutes before the plane would lift off. Then, he did not know how he could notice him behind a tree, under its shadow. He sighed bothered and approached him. “How do you want me to see you if you are behind a tree?” Ohno scolded him and Kazunari caught his bag.
“And what do you want with this heat?” he replied back and both sighed deeply. The trip started well… After all, his boss could have a point, that heat was horrible in August. Luckily, inside the airport it was colder and the waiting was not tortuous, but uncomfortable. He could feel how both were in tension and only fifteen minutes had gone by. He was truly upset when he realized another two days beside him were left. What could he do though? Being in a plane with someone who did not dare to speak a single word no matter if their seats were beside each other. They spent the whole journey without speaking at all, better said, Kazunari spent it sleeping. Had he been unable to last night? Well he remembered that when he stayed in his house, he truly slept late in the night because he could feel when Ninomiya hugged him.
Then, remembering those moments beside him, he looked down with a nostalgic face and lost eyes. He missed that with all his might. He missed him as no one. Slowly, he glanced at him and stared at that black, messy hair, those closed eyes with long eyelashes, those thin lips or that Adam's apple which was protruding from his throat. He desired to lick it. All those yearnings were still inside him. So deep inside, but still with him and that weekend they would attempt to go out constantly, he had to resist and be strong because his pregnant wife was waiting for him in his house. That was why he tried to sleep as him until the plane arrived to Fukuoka and stop thinking a while.
*****
The trip had been nice, but tiring at the same time so both decided to go to the hotel straight, leave the luggage and bag there and have lunch. They only talked to decide it and returned to the silence again. It was truly hard to speak because the tension was still between them as hard as never. He did not know how to break the ice, even if he should do it. Maybe it was better to leave it like that so his feelings would not attempt to screw him. For that reason, he stayed silent in the taxi to the hotel too. Then, Kazunari paid the man and they both arrived. Ohno saw it was luxurious and beautiful. Luckily all of that was paid by the company, so it was like having free holidays. He was amazed by such a building when he came inside. There was a big hall full of people, luggage and workers. In the middle of it, there was a fountain and the water fell from the ceiling to the very floor with lights. He was mesmerized, but when he glanced at Kazunari, he seemed the most used person of that world. Well, being the CEO's son meant he could afford to pay this hotel when he wanted.
“Hi, I reserved two rooms. Name, Ninomiya Kazunari” he talked with the receptionist while Ohno continued observing everything. His attention only returned when her words were a problem for them.
“I'm sorry, sir, but for some reason you're not in the reservation list” she explained with troubled face. Kazunari moved in his place, like feeling really nervous. Satoshi placed a hand on his shoulder to calm him down.
“That has to be a mistake, I booked our rooms several days ago” his boss said with angry voice.
“Because it's August, we're having an overbooking. My deeply apologies, sir. If you want, I still have a free suite” she apologized and offered it to Kazunari, who sighed deeply.
“Does that suite have two beds?” he asked and that surprised Ohno. Was he angry because of that?
“No, but it has a king-size bed, plus-“
“Then, I don't want it. Don't you have a room with two beds?” he cut her off rudely and asked expressing what he wanted clearly.
“No, sir. Only that suite free” she clarified. Ohno was watching all of that without saying a word and after watching how troubled that woman looked and how angry Kazunari was, he decided to speak.
“Does that suite have a sofa?” he asked suddenly and the receptionist nodded. “Then, fixed. We will stay in the suite” Satoshi sorted the problem out quickly. Hastily, he felt a hand on his shoulder so he looked at his side to find Kazunari frowning.
“Are you sure?” he asked, concern fulfilling his eyes. Ohno nodded willingly to sleep in the same room and Kazunari accepted the idea while grabbing the keycard. After it, they approached the elevator and waited. “I’m sorry for this, I booked-“
“I know, don't worry. It's August, Fukuoka. I expected something alike” he giggled trying to relax a bit the ambient until he noticed how Ninomiya was looking at him, he was mesmerized and it was embarrassing. When his boss noticed it, he coughed a bit and looked down. Then, they took the elevator and went up to the floor of their suite. Before opening the door, Kazunari grabbed another keycard.
“This is yours, don't lose it” he warned him and Satoshi caught his.
“Why would I?” the employee answered bothered.
“Because I know you” Ninomiya smiled amused and this time, the mesmerized one was Ohno who kept looking at that smile until Kazunari started to talk again. “You know… Eh, the keycard works like this-“
“I'm not stupid” he spat him with disdain and Kazunari opened the door at the next second while raising his both eyebrows.
“Okay, but don't call me after, saying you can't open” his boss commented before entering and Satoshi only pushed him inside not to hear more stupid comments from him. Then he closed the door behind him and when his gaze realized the bedroom, his mouth was widely opened. That was too amazing to be real. That bed was three times his, with almost a whole living room in front of it composed by two sofas, a coffee table with a big TV and a big window illuminating the whole room without the need of lights. The furniture was beige and white combining too well with the floor covered by dark wood and white walls. Was he going to be there two days? That was incredible.
In the other hand, Kazunari only threw the bag on the floor beside the bed and walked beside him to enter the bathroom and closed the door. Satoshi stayed there, not knowing too well what to do in such a room. He was truly amazed by everything there and he kept observing each detail admiring how well designed it was. Then, he heard the water of the WC and watched how Ninomiya came out of it. “What are you doing here? Is there a bug threatening you not to come in?” he laughed despicably and Satoshi sighed. Why was he so fucking funny sometimes? He just threw him the cap he was wearing and Kazunari caught it after it hit his arm. “Not violence, please” he commented before throwing him the cap back softly. Satoshi took it and walked in to leave the luggage and cap beside the bed.
“Why are you so playful today?” he answered with tired face, he was like a five-years-old kid. Kazunari only approached him way too much with a smirk.
“No special reason” he muttered right in front of him and Ohno gulped nervous. What was he doing? He was going to set him aside, but Kazunari did a step backwards before. “We are a bit late already, do you mind to work while having lunch?” his question was done in a normal tone, like his boss again and Ohno frowned. Why was his behaviour changing that much? It was so tiring.
“No, at all” he answered. The employee decided to take a seat on the couch and feel how fresh it was. That was so nice after handling so much heat outside. He closed his eyes and let his mind rest five minutes while his ears were listening to Kazunari calling for the lunch.
“Satoshi, what do you want to eat?” his boss asked, but Ohno only heard the first word. Had he just called him by his name? The last time had been in his apartment that night so his heart was racing, his mind being blank. “Answer me” he insisted and Satoshi came back to Earth.
“The same as you” he opted for an easy answer and tried to breathe in and out to calm his heartbeat down. He was really nervous after hearing his name by his mouth again. He had truly missed it.
“Okay, then two bowls of ramen. Yes, to the room, thanks” he hung up and realized how his employee was looking at him. “What?”
“Ramen, really?” Satoshi raised an eyebrow.
“I like it. Also, I've asked you!” he complained while sitting beside him. Ohno was going to reply when he turned his head and found him closer than he thought. His eyes could only watch him without any other option and his throat gulped nervously. Kazunari tensed his expression and kept on looking at him. One of his arms was leaned on the top of the back of the sofa so when he felt the other one catching his chin, Ninomiya's move was fast. He had his boss almost kissing his lips in less than a second. However, he just stayed that close, as if he was waiting for his approval. Thanks God he did that and Satoshi could lower his head as rejecting it.
“You said this was for work…” he reminded him and Kazunari sat as far as he could.
“Yes… I'm sorry…” Kazunari looked out of place and he stood up. “Do you want to start with the contract?” he asked while gazing at the opposite side of the room. Satoshi nodded, wanting the ground to open and hide inside. He knew that was going to be a bad idea and this had just proved he was right. And now, he had no turning back so he had to handle those moment as he could for two days more. Something inside of him said it would be impossible and that they would end up on that bed making out or just on that couch if they were too hot. What was more, he was not hating the idea, he was loving it with all his might. His touches… His kisses… His caresses… He was missing everything and being alone with him at just two meters made it more complicated.
Luckily, Ninomiya put the laptop and documents on the table to work and stop thinking. So at the next instant, he was turning the laptop on and already reading the first document. Firstly, he needed to read everything if he wanted to know which type of contract he had to do and then, he would write it down. As if he were a machine, once he began, he could not stop. When he wanted to realize it, someone was knocking on the door and Kazunari could bring a bowl of ramen to him to eat as lunch. He was truly starving and decided to set it aside for five minutes as he was enjoying how good it was. During all that time, they only discussed the contract clauses and decided how to gain the biggest benefit for the company. In no time, his bowl was empty and he caught the laptop to go writing what Kazunari was reading from the papers. It was like a teamwork. And he did not dislike it completely.
Finally, when he wrote the last dot, he sighed tired and stretched his body while yawning. Then, his eyes noticed it was already night. How much time had they spent doing it? It seemed even a joke. He left the laptop on the table and lay down on the couch while Kazunari was dead on the floor. “I need a glass, do you want one?” he asked and Ohno nodded. After such a hard work, his body desired something strong inside. “There are Vodka and Whiskey” he proposed.
“Vodka with lemon, please” the employee chose and Ninomiya left his glass on the table before he sat on the floor again with a glass of what it seemed Whiskey.
“Thanks” he drank a bit of his. “Isn’t yours too much?” he asked knowing Ninomiya got drunk so easily.
“It’s okay, I can't hurt anyone here” his face was darkened as his aura. Ohno only drank more and lay down again.
“You're too hard on yourself” he commented, pointing out that fact which was already known by his boss by how he replied.
“As hard as everyone treats me” he drank a long swallow and left the glass on the table with a hit. Satoshi frowned wanting to know what he meant.
“Who treats you badly?” his question was insisting in a subject which did not seem nice for his boss.
“No one…” he tried to stop it, but Ohno sat beside him on the floor and leaned his head on his shoulder. They would end up drunk so his actions would not mind too much from now on.
“C'mon, tell me about yourself” that was going to be his last attempt to persuade him. After, he would stop.
“My father…” suddenly, he confessed. “He has always hated me…” he drank once more and this time he kept the glass in his hand to move the ices slowly. Ohno just kept listening to all he wanted to share that night. “Now I think about it and I hate his way of spoiling me when I was a child. Always giving me all the toys and whims I wanted. He even gave me my own maids…” he giggled bitterly and Satoshi frowned deeply.
“What would you want maids for?” he asked naïvely.
“For fucking” his answer left Ohno frozen, he raised his head to look straight at his boss and ask with his gaze. “When I was 19 years old, I liked one of them and we fucked. It happened that she ended up pregnant” Ninomiya touched his eyes with resignation regretfully. Satoshi opened his mouth widely not believing such a thing.
“So do you have a child?” he dared to ask.
Ninomiya only shook his head. “When I told my father, he went crazy and made her lose the baby… Then, he kicked me out of that house without money or a place to go” his voice still sounded really painful. Satoshi could not believe he had lived such hell with his father. In the company, the CEO had always seemed a nice man, why would he treat his own son like that?
“And what did you do?” the employee wanted to know more, Ninomiya did not seem as being forced or disliking it.
“I went to Sho's house” he laughed. “Since then I worked anywhere to be able to pay the university and get the career. After, Sho's father loves me like his own son so he hired me in his company where I learned all I know today” he told that story with a painful smile. He did not know what he was thinking regarding it, but Satoshi did not like it. Mainly because he seemed still so affected by it. After all, his own father had treated him like scum. That was why he had a doubt.
“Then, why are you now in your father's company?” that question was truly disturbing him with all his might and only then Kazunari turned around and faced him.
“He fell so ill and can barely work already. So someone has to take over. Obviously, nobody knew he had kicked me out so everyone asked for me. He had no other option but hiring me if he wanted to keep his good reputation” he shook his head as if he was the first one who could not believe it and ended his first glass. Ninomiya was going to stand up to get another, however, Satoshi grabbed his wrist and did not allow him to continue drinking. Without a complain, his boss remained sat by his side.
“I'm sorry” suddenly, Ohno apologized with husky voice. He was feeling truly bad after hearing his story; and Kazunari asked why that. “Because at first, I thought you were useless as long as you came from a rich family…” he confessed with regretful face. The boss chuckled and looked at him to touch his hair sweetly. “And it turns out that you're amazing” he muttered while staring into his eyes. Ninomiya approached until rubbing their noses and Satoshi could smell the scent of whiskey from his mouth. It was somehow erotic.
“Can I?” he asked as a well-trained dog, begging it with his eyes. Why was he containing himself? Why was he asking instead of just kissing him straight? He would win if he did that. Then, why?
“Why do you want to kiss me so badly?” Satoshi did that question before sighing and moving backwards to drink a bit more of alcohol. Ninomiya continued staring at him.
“Because I've drunk. I've not fucked even once since our last time” he stopped to gulp while staring at his neck. Ohno was just seeing a beast instead of his boss. “And because I desire you as no one else” he confessed before biting his lower lip and the employee widened his eyes. Just when he was getting to stop his own feelings, this trip was messing everything more and more. So he decided to finish his glass and stand up.
“I knew this was a trap of yours” he cried out a bit while showing how he was regretting it. Ohno approached his luggage to take new clothes to be able to take a shower after sweating so much the whole day.
“It wasn't! But controlling me is being harder than I expected” he confessed already with that voice of being too happy after just a glass. He just hoped he would not drink anymore during the time inside of the bathroom.
“Okay, then, try not to rape me while I'm in the shower” he joked before closing the door, but then, he could hear the answer.
“Lock the door just in case!” his voice was amused for some reason, and even Satoshi himself was amused and smiling a bit. He thought the whole trip was going to be tense and horrible, but that way of showing what they felt and wanted without being ashamed was truly captivating him. He wondered if their relationship would always be like that Friday if they had started something. Their connection was there, between them, as hard as never and Ohno was just loving it in a way which was difficult to handle. Because he had had more fun with Ninomiya in a day than with his wife in a month. His boss was able to get the best of him anytime, anywhere. And Satoshi would lie if he said he disliked it.
Then, after a quick shower, he dried his body and dressed a T-shirt and shorts. It was truly hot that night. Finally, he opened the door, which he had not left locked, and returned to his luggage to put the dirty clothes beside. When his gaze took a look at the room, he found a man on the floor, resting his head on the sofa while being completely asleep. Ohno sighed, thinking why he had let him fall asleep on the floor. That was why, he approached to grab him, but he stopped his own hands when his eyes admired how beautiful he was. Indeed, the pain was still there. “C’mon, let's go to the bed” he said to wake him up. Ninomiya recovered a bit and opened his eyes.
“No, let me sleep on the couch, so the bed is for you” his boss spoke tiredly. Satoshi titled his head a bit, noticing why he wanted to know that and his consciousness was unable to accept that.
“Don’t be stupid, that bed is immense, we can sleep there without touching at all” Ohno persuaded him. At last, the boss stood up by himself and they walked to the bed. Ohno kept beside him as Ninomiya changed his clothes. Sometimes his eyes glanced at his naked body, however he closed them at the next instant, knowing he had to be strong.
“Put some pillows between us if-“
“I’m not that childish, just get in the bed” he ordered with a severe voice and Kazunari did what he said. Then, Ohno lay down in the other side and both turned around so their backs were looking at each other. Indeed, there was a big space in the middle, so Satoshi knew it would not be a big deal to bear.
“Ohno” suddenly Ninomiya spoke.
“What?” what was he? A kid?
“Can you give me a good-night kiss?” he giggled at the end, uncovering he was just kidding him and Ohno moved his foot under the sheets to hit his legs strongly. His boss only complained between giggles.
“I’m already regretting this...” that was his last sentence for that night, which he tried to speak it with tired voice, but at the end, his smile was so wild on his face. Why was he able to do it that easily?
*****
He woke up beside him, face to face, but even like that, they were not touching at all. He wanted to caress his face and kiss those soft lips once again like those wonderful mornings they had spent together. However, he turned his head around to stop that feeling inside of him, he had to be strong and loyal to his wife no matter what. Then, when he was looking around half asleep, he checked the hour and found out it was 10:26 am. He panicked at the next second. He would have to meet the president at 12 pm and they were still in the hotel. He sat immediately to grab the sheets and remove them. Kazunari complained while moving around.
“You, stupid! We forgot to put the alarm clock” he shook his boss with both hands until Ninomiya opened his eyes. Possibly, full of panic also.
“What?! What time is it?” he sat quickly too to check the clock. “Why didn't you remember it?!” he asked as blaming him while standing up to get clothes from his bag.
“What?! Who ended up drunk and sleeping on the floor?!” Ohno blamed him back while undressing himself and stared how Kazunari was going to dress his suit. “Don’t dare to go sticking like that! Go grab a shower now!” he yelled at him and Ninomiya threw the suit on the bed angrily to remove his boxers, be like when he was born and walk through the room carelessly.
“It's all your fault!” he shouted from the bathroom. Satoshi was just there still, wondering why that puncture of excitation inside his stomach. Indeed he had not done anything since the last time with Ninomiya and his body was starting to complain. More if he had him near like that. Suddenly, his phone started to ring and he died by the heart attack. He ran to pick it up and discover it was his wife. After all, she said she was going to call him.
“Hi, how are you?” Satoshi answered while trying to dress his trousers. Suddenly, he heard a sob and Ohno's face changed drastically. “Hey, Yoko, what's wrong?” he asked nervously. Why was she crying?
“I'm so sorry, dear…” she spoke between sobs and Ohno frowned deeply, his heart pounding as never. What did she mean?
“Why are you sorry?” he insisted to see if she explained it to him. At that moment, Ninomiya got out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist. He stopped at the same instant he noticed his pale face.
“I’ve lost our child…” she confessed and started to cry harder. Right after hearing her words, Satoshi's world was destroyed, as if a bomb had ruined everything in a second. He was shocked, no word or move could be done by him. Even his hand with the phone was lowered to be placed on his thighs while the sound of his wife crying was still being heard by him. Then, Kazunari kneeled in front of him with worried eyes.
“What happened?” he asked trying to make him react, but Ohno only heard how his wife started to call him. Then, his hand returned to place his phone beside his ear.
“Wait me there, I will be back home as soon as possible” he spoke without even asking his boss first. It was not like he would be angry at him after all. His wife only nodded and they hung up. Ohno left the phone on the bed and sighed. Still expressing nothing. Then, Ninomiya patted his shoulder, trying to get an explanation. Only then, Ohno looked at him back and could speak. “She has lost the baby” right after speaking it, it was like his brain understood its meaning. All his hopes, his desires, his excitement regarding being father. All had crashed instantly against the floor, being broken into infinite pieces. And then he was there, trying to stop his chin from trembling. “Can I go back with her? I'm sorry but-“
“Go now, if you're lucky, you will be back for this evening” Ninomiya did not doubt his words and Ohno frowned deeply to handle the tears in his eyes.
“Thank you” he muttered as he could and stood up, almost not feeling his legs, to walk to his luggage and get everything inside. He caught his jacket and phone and turned around to look at Ninomiya for last time. His boss, already dressed up, approached him and hugged his body tightly. Satoshi closed his eyes strongly, resisting his desire to cry his life out and embraced him back.
“Anything you need, just call me” Kazunari offered him and Ohno nodded when they broke the hug. After that, he left his keycard on the table and exited that room.
The whole path to the airport he was inexpressive, his face being as shocked as his mind. He even had to wait two hours for the next plane to Tokyo and he just sat on a bench and waited. Why? Why did he have to lose his last chance to be happy? Why did he have to lose what would give happiness to him? Did he deserve it? Did he have to pay what he had done like that? He knew he had been so wrong and so mean, but his child was the only person he had loved even without having met yet. That love only a father can have for his kids. He had promised to himself to take care of that baby as no one else in that world. Then, how could this happen? Why?
Now, I have nothing…
*****
The trip back was hell, his mind did not stop thinking for a second, regretting, blaming, suffering. But his face still showed nothing. And like that, he arrived to his house in a taxi. When he got the luggage, he walked normally to the door and opened it. First thing he did was removing his shoes and after he crossed the hallway to take a look in the living room where his wife was, sitting on the sofa with a blanket over her belly. Only then, maybe noticing with his own eyes that it was true, the first tear fell finally. He did not doubt to approach and sit beside her, so right after, a woman was hugging his neck tightly. At that point of the day, he felt free to cry all he could not in all the trip back. Hard tears fell uncontrollably while his heart was aching as if it were being burned. One of his hands was placed on his belly, already missing the idea of having that baby into his arms.
“I’m so sorry, dear… I'm a fail like a mother” she regretted and cried on his shoulder without stop. Satoshi only brushed her hair.
“You aren't, you gave your best” he tried to comfort her, even if he knew better than anyone that simple words would not solve anything. His wife looked at him with red eyes. He could see how bad she was. “And why are you alone in home?” he asked, wondering why there was no one to take care of her. She looked away, trying to sit better on that couch.
“Yesterday I started to bleed hard and the pain was pretty harsh, then my friend took me to the hospital, but when we arrived it was too late… Doctors did some tests and I spent the night there. This morning I was okay and returned home. Then, I decided to call you” she explained. Ohno was so angry for having gone to such a stupid trip while she was here suffering alone. If he had been here, maybe that baby would…
“Which hospital did you stay in?” he asked to know how she had been treated and his wife opened his mouth like if she was thinking.
“I don't remember the name, it's… the one where you went last time” she replied while not looking at him. Satoshi was sure she had been in good hands and hugged her back.
“It’s okay… Come here” they kept hugging a while until his wife was completely calm down and he stood up. If he was busy, he would not think. “What do you want for dinner?” he asked while rolling up his sleeves.
“No, dear. I'm okay, let me-“
“Don’t be stupid and rest. I have to take care of you” Ohno refused her idea at all and his wife smiled at him sweetly.
*****
Sleeping that night was being truly hard, maybe he was just so worried about his wife or perhaps it was that plus his loss and having let Ninomiya alone in Fukuoka. That day had been shitty by far and he just desired to close his eyes and sleep. Nice of his mind that it did not want to fall asleep. Checking his clock by his side and noticing it was four am, he decided to stand up slowly and do something around. He went to the kitchen to drink a bit of water and when he sat on the table because he was really tired, his eyes found the small notebook where they wrote down all the expenses they did each month. Was she doing it? He could end it so it would be done already. His hands opened it and saw the last thing written, it was pretty updated. Only her hospital expense was left.
Then, he opened his phone to check their bank account to know how much money it was. However, when he started to search for it, it did not appear. He frowned, it was weird to pay in a hospital with cash, and more her that Yoko was always using the credit card anywhere. Tomorrow he would ask her about it. Mostly because that hospital was expensive and that month was being tight. That was why he left the notebook there and drank the water. After, he returned to the room and lay down beside her. Why was he having a weird feeling?
*****
In the morning, he went to the kitchen decided to ask her. She could have done it with cash after all. Ohno was just trying to know the truth before getting his own conclusions. Then, he sat on his chair and drank a bit of coffee in front of his wife. “Yoko, I want to know how much the hospital expense was, this month we are really tight” he started the chat as something casual, but his wife raised his widened eyes taken aback.
“How much? I don't remember exactly now…” she smiled like if she was wondering that question and Satoshi titled his head a bit.
“Did you pay it with cash?” he asked, maybe thinking it could have been a possibility for such an emergency. Yoko only raised his eyebrows.
“I never pay with cash, dear. That's so vulgar” she laughed with an aura of superiority. After her comment, he wondered how the hospital could have been paid. Because if it were through credit card, it should appear instantly, but then, there was not anything like that in the movements. Then what was wrong?
Satoshi stood up lost in his thoughts and went out of that house even without saying goodbye. He knew something was stinking there. And he would know what it was. That was why he drove until the hospital where she had been treated and entered it to approach a receptionist. “Good morning. I would like to ask about the room of my wife” he tried to know if that was possible so he would know if she had been there or not.
“Tell me your wife’s name” the receptionist accepted and Ohno celebrated it internally.
“Nakamura Yoko” he said and the woman started to write on the keyboard fast. She kept checking and checking, Ohno already eating his nails. Then, the woman raised his head.
“I'm sorry, but I don't find anyone here with that name” the woman seemed troubled and Ohno insisted.
“And if she is not here anymore?”
“It should appear on the screen even like that” she explained. Satoshi thanked the woman and walked away slowly. What did that mean? Had she never go to the hospital? Was that a lie? Why would she lie to him? He needed answers, because his mind would explode suddenly by so many incoherencies. That was why he stopped in a family restaurant to have lunch there even though his stomach was closed like a raw clam and the employee tried to end a bowl of yakisoba. It was really delicious, but when he had eaten the half of it, his stomach refused the rest. All he was suffering was truly being a hard burden for his health. And he did not know how to fix it. That was why he drove the hour until his house and encouraging himself as much as he could, his hand opened the door and his feet walked inside.
“Dear, where have you been the whole day?” she asked bothered in the hallway. Satoshi only approached her.
“We have to talk” his deep voice and cold eyes made her do a step backwards. Yoko nodded and they both sat on the couch to start that chat.
“Are you sure you paid the hospital? Because there's nothing like that in the bank account” he asked really calm for now. At the next second, she went pale and began to laugh nervously.
“Ah, but that's because my friend paid it as long as I didn’t take my credit card with me! I forgot it this morning” Yoko explained looking truly used to lie. Ohno handled his anger as better as he could. His vein was being pretty evident in his neck.
“Then, why don't you even appear in the hospital list?” his voice became huskier, feeling as betrayed as never. Then, when his wife was not answering, his gaze stared at her piercing her soul.
“Maybe it was a mistake of-“
“Why can't you say a fucking single truth for once in your life?!” he yelled at her as loud as never before while standing up because his whole body was burning. He was breathing really irregular, watching how she was scared on the sofa. “You weren't pregnant, right?” Ohno spoke what his conclusion was and Yoko looked down. Why? Why was she such a horrible human? Why was she able to do that to him? “Why did you do it?” he asked, taking her silence as an affirmation. “Answer me with the truth now!” he shouted again flying off the handle easily.
“I had no other choice!” finally, she spoke to him back.
“What do you mean?” Ohno approached to her with a frown. Why was he knowing he would not like her answer?
“You were cheating on me with your boss… I didn’t want to lose you and…” she pretended to cry at the end. Ohno widened his eyes. Did she know it? How? Since when? That was impossible.
“When did you discover us?” he asked, already caring nothing. She stood up with a sigh.
“When you were fucking on that disgusting sofa” she answered with a bothered face. “At least tell me you didn't in our bed” Yoko said with an ugly grimace.
“I didn’t, but maybe you did” he found the perfect moment to reproach her her own infidelity.
“What do you say? I've never-“
“Oh, c'mon, can you stop lying?! What about Matsumoto Jun in the university? Or that guy who was touching your but in MY kitchen?” he spat without hesitation. Not anymore. He was truly fed up with her and her lies.
“No, dear, I swear it was because I felt alone… You were always working and I was just alone here… I only love you, that's why I married you-“
“Can you shut up?!” Ohno stopped her before continuing hearing all of that bullshit. How sick was she? He had married a sick woman. But what hurt him the most was how many people had tried to warn him about her and he did not want to listen to anyone of them. Because of that. “I want the divorce” finally he asked it clearly, aloud, in front of her. That was his decision. There was no turning back.
“No! Satoshi, please, listen to me, I will never do it again, believe me” she begged him while grabbing his arms, tears falling from his eyes. Ohno set her aside rudely.
“Don’t ever dare to touch me again” those were his last words spoken to her, because after he walked to the door, changed his shoes and exited that house. He was feeling free. As if the big weight over his back had disappeared after breaking ties with her. He felt good finally, but at the same time as betrayed and stupid as no one else. She had lied to him over and over again, about unforgettable things and he had always kept there taking care of her health until the last moment as a fool. He had been used like a cloth without stop. It was impossible she had ever loved him. And that was what hurt him the most. That Ohno could have lost the person he loved because of her. Kazunari… What would happen now? He wanted to call him, but then he remembered he had erased the phone. He thought about driving, but the keys were inside. He only had a option and it was walking to his home.
The path was long and his mind had time to think about several things. Jun had always warned him about her. Ninomiya never warned him straight, but somehow thanks to him, he could finally discover her true self. Then, why had he wanted to remain so blind? Why did she have to reach such extreme situation so he would realize he did not want that crazy woman in his life anymore? Why did he take so much time? When he had Kazunari beside him. He did not need anyone else in his life. Then, why had he been so stubborn about losing Kazunari no matter what? How crazy was he? How could he? Only when the dark clouds started to cry over him, he cried too. Tears fell as if they were two rivers. He wondered why at that moment in the middle of the street, under that heavy rain. But indeed, he was just praying Ninomiya would at least let him stay in his apartment that night. Otherwise, he had no place to go. Better said, he had not other place where he wanted to go. That was why he went upstairs in that building and pressed the bell without thinking. He tried to stop crying, but when finally his boss opened the door and their gazes met once again, he realized whom he wanted to spend his life with.
“Satoshi”
//Hiii :DDDD I'm like Ohno :DDD Okno possibly, you love me and hate me at the same time. Love me because finally Ohno broke up with his wife, but hate me because I stopped the chapter in such moment. Buuut THE TRIP, JUST HOW CUTE COULD THEY BE?! I was dying a lot while writing it sincerely and I love it no matter how many times I read it so I truly hope you enjoy it as much as me T-T
Pd:: I will answer the comments in a few hours as always lol
Pd2:: I wrote the whole fic, all these 12 chapters only for the moment when the wife lies to him. I swear I started this fic just because of this scene lol
Pd3:: thank you for all the support 💕
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 7068 words
Rating:: PG-13
Before he could realize it, he was taking his luggage to get it inside the taxi to go to the airport and go to Fukuoka with his boss. He turned around to face his wife and kiss her lips softly. He still felt nothing but it was just to calm her down a bit. She was truly against going to that business trip for some reason and he could only reassure her before leaving so she would spend a good weekend alone. “I will be okay, I will be back with you on Sunday's evening, so don't put that face” he smiled to her while his hand was touching her belly slowly. Even if only three months had gone by, it had not changed almost anything, he could not believe there was a baby inside. Then, she put her hand over his and smiled at him back.
“Okay, I will call you tomorrow to see how you are” she pecked his lips for last time before he entered the taxi and told the man to go to the airport. It was not like he was worried, after all it was only a weekend, but somehow he had a bad feeling. Maybe it was just the fact he was going to travel with Kazunari, after all he was not looking forward to it at all, but no matter if he wanted or not, he had to go because it was his job. So that was what he was doing.
After paying the man, he got out with his luggage and searched for his boss around. Ninomiya had told him he would wait for him in front of the main door twenty minutes before the plane would lift off. Then, he did not know how he could notice him behind a tree, under its shadow. He sighed bothered and approached him. “How do you want me to see you if you are behind a tree?” Ohno scolded him and Kazunari caught his bag.
“And what do you want with this heat?” he replied back and both sighed deeply. The trip started well… After all, his boss could have a point, that heat was horrible in August. Luckily, inside the airport it was colder and the waiting was not tortuous, but uncomfortable. He could feel how both were in tension and only fifteen minutes had gone by. He was truly upset when he realized another two days beside him were left. What could he do though? Being in a plane with someone who did not dare to speak a single word no matter if their seats were beside each other. They spent the whole journey without speaking at all, better said, Kazunari spent it sleeping. Had he been unable to last night? Well he remembered that when he stayed in his house, he truly slept late in the night because he could feel when Ninomiya hugged him.
Then, remembering those moments beside him, he looked down with a nostalgic face and lost eyes. He missed that with all his might. He missed him as no one. Slowly, he glanced at him and stared at that black, messy hair, those closed eyes with long eyelashes, those thin lips or that Adam's apple which was protruding from his throat. He desired to lick it. All those yearnings were still inside him. So deep inside, but still with him and that weekend they would attempt to go out constantly, he had to resist and be strong because his pregnant wife was waiting for him in his house. That was why he tried to sleep as him until the plane arrived to Fukuoka and stop thinking a while.
*****
The trip had been nice, but tiring at the same time so both decided to go to the hotel straight, leave the luggage and bag there and have lunch. They only talked to decide it and returned to the silence again. It was truly hard to speak because the tension was still between them as hard as never. He did not know how to break the ice, even if he should do it. Maybe it was better to leave it like that so his feelings would not attempt to screw him. For that reason, he stayed silent in the taxi to the hotel too. Then, Kazunari paid the man and they both arrived. Ohno saw it was luxurious and beautiful. Luckily all of that was paid by the company, so it was like having free holidays. He was amazed by such a building when he came inside. There was a big hall full of people, luggage and workers. In the middle of it, there was a fountain and the water fell from the ceiling to the very floor with lights. He was mesmerized, but when he glanced at Kazunari, he seemed the most used person of that world. Well, being the CEO's son meant he could afford to pay this hotel when he wanted.
“Hi, I reserved two rooms. Name, Ninomiya Kazunari” he talked with the receptionist while Ohno continued observing everything. His attention only returned when her words were a problem for them.
“I'm sorry, sir, but for some reason you're not in the reservation list” she explained with troubled face. Kazunari moved in his place, like feeling really nervous. Satoshi placed a hand on his shoulder to calm him down.
“That has to be a mistake, I booked our rooms several days ago” his boss said with angry voice.
“Because it's August, we're having an overbooking. My deeply apologies, sir. If you want, I still have a free suite” she apologized and offered it to Kazunari, who sighed deeply.
“Does that suite have two beds?” he asked and that surprised Ohno. Was he angry because of that?
“No, but it has a king-size bed, plus-“
“Then, I don't want it. Don't you have a room with two beds?” he cut her off rudely and asked expressing what he wanted clearly.
“No, sir. Only that suite free” she clarified. Ohno was watching all of that without saying a word and after watching how troubled that woman looked and how angry Kazunari was, he decided to speak.
“Does that suite have a sofa?” he asked suddenly and the receptionist nodded. “Then, fixed. We will stay in the suite” Satoshi sorted the problem out quickly. Hastily, he felt a hand on his shoulder so he looked at his side to find Kazunari frowning.
“Are you sure?” he asked, concern fulfilling his eyes. Ohno nodded willingly to sleep in the same room and Kazunari accepted the idea while grabbing the keycard. After it, they approached the elevator and waited. “I’m sorry for this, I booked-“
“I know, don't worry. It's August, Fukuoka. I expected something alike” he giggled trying to relax a bit the ambient until he noticed how Ninomiya was looking at him, he was mesmerized and it was embarrassing. When his boss noticed it, he coughed a bit and looked down. Then, they took the elevator and went up to the floor of their suite. Before opening the door, Kazunari grabbed another keycard.
“This is yours, don't lose it” he warned him and Satoshi caught his.
“Why would I?” the employee answered bothered.
“Because I know you” Ninomiya smiled amused and this time, the mesmerized one was Ohno who kept looking at that smile until Kazunari started to talk again. “You know… Eh, the keycard works like this-“
“I'm not stupid” he spat him with disdain and Kazunari opened the door at the next second while raising his both eyebrows.
“Okay, but don't call me after, saying you can't open” his boss commented before entering and Satoshi only pushed him inside not to hear more stupid comments from him. Then he closed the door behind him and when his gaze realized the bedroom, his mouth was widely opened. That was too amazing to be real. That bed was three times his, with almost a whole living room in front of it composed by two sofas, a coffee table with a big TV and a big window illuminating the whole room without the need of lights. The furniture was beige and white combining too well with the floor covered by dark wood and white walls. Was he going to be there two days? That was incredible.
In the other hand, Kazunari only threw the bag on the floor beside the bed and walked beside him to enter the bathroom and closed the door. Satoshi stayed there, not knowing too well what to do in such a room. He was truly amazed by everything there and he kept observing each detail admiring how well designed it was. Then, he heard the water of the WC and watched how Ninomiya came out of it. “What are you doing here? Is there a bug threatening you not to come in?” he laughed despicably and Satoshi sighed. Why was he so fucking funny sometimes? He just threw him the cap he was wearing and Kazunari caught it after it hit his arm. “Not violence, please” he commented before throwing him the cap back softly. Satoshi took it and walked in to leave the luggage and cap beside the bed.
“Why are you so playful today?” he answered with tired face, he was like a five-years-old kid. Kazunari only approached him way too much with a smirk.
“No special reason” he muttered right in front of him and Ohno gulped nervous. What was he doing? He was going to set him aside, but Kazunari did a step backwards before. “We are a bit late already, do you mind to work while having lunch?” his question was done in a normal tone, like his boss again and Ohno frowned. Why was his behaviour changing that much? It was so tiring.
“No, at all” he answered. The employee decided to take a seat on the couch and feel how fresh it was. That was so nice after handling so much heat outside. He closed his eyes and let his mind rest five minutes while his ears were listening to Kazunari calling for the lunch.
“Satoshi, what do you want to eat?” his boss asked, but Ohno only heard the first word. Had he just called him by his name? The last time had been in his apartment that night so his heart was racing, his mind being blank. “Answer me” he insisted and Satoshi came back to Earth.
“The same as you” he opted for an easy answer and tried to breathe in and out to calm his heartbeat down. He was really nervous after hearing his name by his mouth again. He had truly missed it.
“Okay, then two bowls of ramen. Yes, to the room, thanks” he hung up and realized how his employee was looking at him. “What?”
“Ramen, really?” Satoshi raised an eyebrow.
“I like it. Also, I've asked you!” he complained while sitting beside him. Ohno was going to reply when he turned his head and found him closer than he thought. His eyes could only watch him without any other option and his throat gulped nervously. Kazunari tensed his expression and kept on looking at him. One of his arms was leaned on the top of the back of the sofa so when he felt the other one catching his chin, Ninomiya's move was fast. He had his boss almost kissing his lips in less than a second. However, he just stayed that close, as if he was waiting for his approval. Thanks God he did that and Satoshi could lower his head as rejecting it.
“You said this was for work…” he reminded him and Kazunari sat as far as he could.
“Yes… I'm sorry…” Kazunari looked out of place and he stood up. “Do you want to start with the contract?” he asked while gazing at the opposite side of the room. Satoshi nodded, wanting the ground to open and hide inside. He knew that was going to be a bad idea and this had just proved he was right. And now, he had no turning back so he had to handle those moment as he could for two days more. Something inside of him said it would be impossible and that they would end up on that bed making out or just on that couch if they were too hot. What was more, he was not hating the idea, he was loving it with all his might. His touches… His kisses… His caresses… He was missing everything and being alone with him at just two meters made it more complicated.
Luckily, Ninomiya put the laptop and documents on the table to work and stop thinking. So at the next instant, he was turning the laptop on and already reading the first document. Firstly, he needed to read everything if he wanted to know which type of contract he had to do and then, he would write it down. As if he were a machine, once he began, he could not stop. When he wanted to realize it, someone was knocking on the door and Kazunari could bring a bowl of ramen to him to eat as lunch. He was truly starving and decided to set it aside for five minutes as he was enjoying how good it was. During all that time, they only discussed the contract clauses and decided how to gain the biggest benefit for the company. In no time, his bowl was empty and he caught the laptop to go writing what Kazunari was reading from the papers. It was like a teamwork. And he did not dislike it completely.
Finally, when he wrote the last dot, he sighed tired and stretched his body while yawning. Then, his eyes noticed it was already night. How much time had they spent doing it? It seemed even a joke. He left the laptop on the table and lay down on the couch while Kazunari was dead on the floor. “I need a glass, do you want one?” he asked and Ohno nodded. After such a hard work, his body desired something strong inside. “There are Vodka and Whiskey” he proposed.
“Vodka with lemon, please” the employee chose and Ninomiya left his glass on the table before he sat on the floor again with a glass of what it seemed Whiskey.
“Thanks” he drank a bit of his. “Isn’t yours too much?” he asked knowing Ninomiya got drunk so easily.
“It’s okay, I can't hurt anyone here” his face was darkened as his aura. Ohno only drank more and lay down again.
“You're too hard on yourself” he commented, pointing out that fact which was already known by his boss by how he replied.
“As hard as everyone treats me” he drank a long swallow and left the glass on the table with a hit. Satoshi frowned wanting to know what he meant.
“Who treats you badly?” his question was insisting in a subject which did not seem nice for his boss.
“No one…” he tried to stop it, but Ohno sat beside him on the floor and leaned his head on his shoulder. They would end up drunk so his actions would not mind too much from now on.
“C'mon, tell me about yourself” that was going to be his last attempt to persuade him. After, he would stop.
“My father…” suddenly, he confessed. “He has always hated me…” he drank once more and this time he kept the glass in his hand to move the ices slowly. Ohno just kept listening to all he wanted to share that night. “Now I think about it and I hate his way of spoiling me when I was a child. Always giving me all the toys and whims I wanted. He even gave me my own maids…” he giggled bitterly and Satoshi frowned deeply.
“What would you want maids for?” he asked naïvely.
“For fucking” his answer left Ohno frozen, he raised his head to look straight at his boss and ask with his gaze. “When I was 19 years old, I liked one of them and we fucked. It happened that she ended up pregnant” Ninomiya touched his eyes with resignation regretfully. Satoshi opened his mouth widely not believing such a thing.
“So do you have a child?” he dared to ask.
Ninomiya only shook his head. “When I told my father, he went crazy and made her lose the baby… Then, he kicked me out of that house without money or a place to go” his voice still sounded really painful. Satoshi could not believe he had lived such hell with his father. In the company, the CEO had always seemed a nice man, why would he treat his own son like that?
“And what did you do?” the employee wanted to know more, Ninomiya did not seem as being forced or disliking it.
“I went to Sho's house” he laughed. “Since then I worked anywhere to be able to pay the university and get the career. After, Sho's father loves me like his own son so he hired me in his company where I learned all I know today” he told that story with a painful smile. He did not know what he was thinking regarding it, but Satoshi did not like it. Mainly because he seemed still so affected by it. After all, his own father had treated him like scum. That was why he had a doubt.
“Then, why are you now in your father's company?” that question was truly disturbing him with all his might and only then Kazunari turned around and faced him.
“He fell so ill and can barely work already. So someone has to take over. Obviously, nobody knew he had kicked me out so everyone asked for me. He had no other option but hiring me if he wanted to keep his good reputation” he shook his head as if he was the first one who could not believe it and ended his first glass. Ninomiya was going to stand up to get another, however, Satoshi grabbed his wrist and did not allow him to continue drinking. Without a complain, his boss remained sat by his side.
“I'm sorry” suddenly, Ohno apologized with husky voice. He was feeling truly bad after hearing his story; and Kazunari asked why that. “Because at first, I thought you were useless as long as you came from a rich family…” he confessed with regretful face. The boss chuckled and looked at him to touch his hair sweetly. “And it turns out that you're amazing” he muttered while staring into his eyes. Ninomiya approached until rubbing their noses and Satoshi could smell the scent of whiskey from his mouth. It was somehow erotic.
“Can I?” he asked as a well-trained dog, begging it with his eyes. Why was he containing himself? Why was he asking instead of just kissing him straight? He would win if he did that. Then, why?
“Why do you want to kiss me so badly?” Satoshi did that question before sighing and moving backwards to drink a bit more of alcohol. Ninomiya continued staring at him.
“Because I've drunk. I've not fucked even once since our last time” he stopped to gulp while staring at his neck. Ohno was just seeing a beast instead of his boss. “And because I desire you as no one else” he confessed before biting his lower lip and the employee widened his eyes. Just when he was getting to stop his own feelings, this trip was messing everything more and more. So he decided to finish his glass and stand up.
“I knew this was a trap of yours” he cried out a bit while showing how he was regretting it. Ohno approached his luggage to take new clothes to be able to take a shower after sweating so much the whole day.
“It wasn't! But controlling me is being harder than I expected” he confessed already with that voice of being too happy after just a glass. He just hoped he would not drink anymore during the time inside of the bathroom.
“Okay, then, try not to rape me while I'm in the shower” he joked before closing the door, but then, he could hear the answer.
“Lock the door just in case!” his voice was amused for some reason, and even Satoshi himself was amused and smiling a bit. He thought the whole trip was going to be tense and horrible, but that way of showing what they felt and wanted without being ashamed was truly captivating him. He wondered if their relationship would always be like that Friday if they had started something. Their connection was there, between them, as hard as never and Ohno was just loving it in a way which was difficult to handle. Because he had had more fun with Ninomiya in a day than with his wife in a month. His boss was able to get the best of him anytime, anywhere. And Satoshi would lie if he said he disliked it.
Then, after a quick shower, he dried his body and dressed a T-shirt and shorts. It was truly hot that night. Finally, he opened the door, which he had not left locked, and returned to his luggage to put the dirty clothes beside. When his gaze took a look at the room, he found a man on the floor, resting his head on the sofa while being completely asleep. Ohno sighed, thinking why he had let him fall asleep on the floor. That was why, he approached to grab him, but he stopped his own hands when his eyes admired how beautiful he was. Indeed, the pain was still there. “C’mon, let's go to the bed” he said to wake him up. Ninomiya recovered a bit and opened his eyes.
“No, let me sleep on the couch, so the bed is for you” his boss spoke tiredly. Satoshi titled his head a bit, noticing why he wanted to know that and his consciousness was unable to accept that.
“Don’t be stupid, that bed is immense, we can sleep there without touching at all” Ohno persuaded him. At last, the boss stood up by himself and they walked to the bed. Ohno kept beside him as Ninomiya changed his clothes. Sometimes his eyes glanced at his naked body, however he closed them at the next instant, knowing he had to be strong.
“Put some pillows between us if-“
“I’m not that childish, just get in the bed” he ordered with a severe voice and Kazunari did what he said. Then, Ohno lay down in the other side and both turned around so their backs were looking at each other. Indeed, there was a big space in the middle, so Satoshi knew it would not be a big deal to bear.
“Ohno” suddenly Ninomiya spoke.
“What?” what was he? A kid?
“Can you give me a good-night kiss?” he giggled at the end, uncovering he was just kidding him and Ohno moved his foot under the sheets to hit his legs strongly. His boss only complained between giggles.
“I’m already regretting this...” that was his last sentence for that night, which he tried to speak it with tired voice, but at the end, his smile was so wild on his face. Why was he able to do it that easily?
*****
He woke up beside him, face to face, but even like that, they were not touching at all. He wanted to caress his face and kiss those soft lips once again like those wonderful mornings they had spent together. However, he turned his head around to stop that feeling inside of him, he had to be strong and loyal to his wife no matter what. Then, when he was looking around half asleep, he checked the hour and found out it was 10:26 am. He panicked at the next second. He would have to meet the president at 12 pm and they were still in the hotel. He sat immediately to grab the sheets and remove them. Kazunari complained while moving around.
“You, stupid! We forgot to put the alarm clock” he shook his boss with both hands until Ninomiya opened his eyes. Possibly, full of panic also.
“What?! What time is it?” he sat quickly too to check the clock. “Why didn't you remember it?!” he asked as blaming him while standing up to get clothes from his bag.
“What?! Who ended up drunk and sleeping on the floor?!” Ohno blamed him back while undressing himself and stared how Kazunari was going to dress his suit. “Don’t dare to go sticking like that! Go grab a shower now!” he yelled at him and Ninomiya threw the suit on the bed angrily to remove his boxers, be like when he was born and walk through the room carelessly.
“It's all your fault!” he shouted from the bathroom. Satoshi was just there still, wondering why that puncture of excitation inside his stomach. Indeed he had not done anything since the last time with Ninomiya and his body was starting to complain. More if he had him near like that. Suddenly, his phone started to ring and he died by the heart attack. He ran to pick it up and discover it was his wife. After all, she said she was going to call him.
“Hi, how are you?” Satoshi answered while trying to dress his trousers. Suddenly, he heard a sob and Ohno's face changed drastically. “Hey, Yoko, what's wrong?” he asked nervously. Why was she crying?
“I'm so sorry, dear…” she spoke between sobs and Ohno frowned deeply, his heart pounding as never. What did she mean?
“Why are you sorry?” he insisted to see if she explained it to him. At that moment, Ninomiya got out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist. He stopped at the same instant he noticed his pale face.
“I’ve lost our child…” she confessed and started to cry harder. Right after hearing her words, Satoshi's world was destroyed, as if a bomb had ruined everything in a second. He was shocked, no word or move could be done by him. Even his hand with the phone was lowered to be placed on his thighs while the sound of his wife crying was still being heard by him. Then, Kazunari kneeled in front of him with worried eyes.
“What happened?” he asked trying to make him react, but Ohno only heard how his wife started to call him. Then, his hand returned to place his phone beside his ear.
“Wait me there, I will be back home as soon as possible” he spoke without even asking his boss first. It was not like he would be angry at him after all. His wife only nodded and they hung up. Ohno left the phone on the bed and sighed. Still expressing nothing. Then, Ninomiya patted his shoulder, trying to get an explanation. Only then, Ohno looked at him back and could speak. “She has lost the baby” right after speaking it, it was like his brain understood its meaning. All his hopes, his desires, his excitement regarding being father. All had crashed instantly against the floor, being broken into infinite pieces. And then he was there, trying to stop his chin from trembling. “Can I go back with her? I'm sorry but-“
“Go now, if you're lucky, you will be back for this evening” Ninomiya did not doubt his words and Ohno frowned deeply to handle the tears in his eyes.
“Thank you” he muttered as he could and stood up, almost not feeling his legs, to walk to his luggage and get everything inside. He caught his jacket and phone and turned around to look at Ninomiya for last time. His boss, already dressed up, approached him and hugged his body tightly. Satoshi closed his eyes strongly, resisting his desire to cry his life out and embraced him back.
“Anything you need, just call me” Kazunari offered him and Ohno nodded when they broke the hug. After that, he left his keycard on the table and exited that room.
The whole path to the airport he was inexpressive, his face being as shocked as his mind. He even had to wait two hours for the next plane to Tokyo and he just sat on a bench and waited. Why? Why did he have to lose his last chance to be happy? Why did he have to lose what would give happiness to him? Did he deserve it? Did he have to pay what he had done like that? He knew he had been so wrong and so mean, but his child was the only person he had loved even without having met yet. That love only a father can have for his kids. He had promised to himself to take care of that baby as no one else in that world. Then, how could this happen? Why?
Now, I have nothing…
*****
The trip back was hell, his mind did not stop thinking for a second, regretting, blaming, suffering. But his face still showed nothing. And like that, he arrived to his house in a taxi. When he got the luggage, he walked normally to the door and opened it. First thing he did was removing his shoes and after he crossed the hallway to take a look in the living room where his wife was, sitting on the sofa with a blanket over her belly. Only then, maybe noticing with his own eyes that it was true, the first tear fell finally. He did not doubt to approach and sit beside her, so right after, a woman was hugging his neck tightly. At that point of the day, he felt free to cry all he could not in all the trip back. Hard tears fell uncontrollably while his heart was aching as if it were being burned. One of his hands was placed on his belly, already missing the idea of having that baby into his arms.
“I’m so sorry, dear… I'm a fail like a mother” she regretted and cried on his shoulder without stop. Satoshi only brushed her hair.
“You aren't, you gave your best” he tried to comfort her, even if he knew better than anyone that simple words would not solve anything. His wife looked at him with red eyes. He could see how bad she was. “And why are you alone in home?” he asked, wondering why there was no one to take care of her. She looked away, trying to sit better on that couch.
“Yesterday I started to bleed hard and the pain was pretty harsh, then my friend took me to the hospital, but when we arrived it was too late… Doctors did some tests and I spent the night there. This morning I was okay and returned home. Then, I decided to call you” she explained. Ohno was so angry for having gone to such a stupid trip while she was here suffering alone. If he had been here, maybe that baby would…
“Which hospital did you stay in?” he asked to know how she had been treated and his wife opened his mouth like if she was thinking.
“I don't remember the name, it's… the one where you went last time” she replied while not looking at him. Satoshi was sure she had been in good hands and hugged her back.
“It’s okay… Come here” they kept hugging a while until his wife was completely calm down and he stood up. If he was busy, he would not think. “What do you want for dinner?” he asked while rolling up his sleeves.
“No, dear. I'm okay, let me-“
“Don’t be stupid and rest. I have to take care of you” Ohno refused her idea at all and his wife smiled at him sweetly.
*****
Sleeping that night was being truly hard, maybe he was just so worried about his wife or perhaps it was that plus his loss and having let Ninomiya alone in Fukuoka. That day had been shitty by far and he just desired to close his eyes and sleep. Nice of his mind that it did not want to fall asleep. Checking his clock by his side and noticing it was four am, he decided to stand up slowly and do something around. He went to the kitchen to drink a bit of water and when he sat on the table because he was really tired, his eyes found the small notebook where they wrote down all the expenses they did each month. Was she doing it? He could end it so it would be done already. His hands opened it and saw the last thing written, it was pretty updated. Only her hospital expense was left.
Then, he opened his phone to check their bank account to know how much money it was. However, when he started to search for it, it did not appear. He frowned, it was weird to pay in a hospital with cash, and more her that Yoko was always using the credit card anywhere. Tomorrow he would ask her about it. Mostly because that hospital was expensive and that month was being tight. That was why he left the notebook there and drank the water. After, he returned to the room and lay down beside her. Why was he having a weird feeling?
*****
In the morning, he went to the kitchen decided to ask her. She could have done it with cash after all. Ohno was just trying to know the truth before getting his own conclusions. Then, he sat on his chair and drank a bit of coffee in front of his wife. “Yoko, I want to know how much the hospital expense was, this month we are really tight” he started the chat as something casual, but his wife raised his widened eyes taken aback.
“How much? I don't remember exactly now…” she smiled like if she was wondering that question and Satoshi titled his head a bit.
“Did you pay it with cash?” he asked, maybe thinking it could have been a possibility for such an emergency. Yoko only raised his eyebrows.
“I never pay with cash, dear. That's so vulgar” she laughed with an aura of superiority. After her comment, he wondered how the hospital could have been paid. Because if it were through credit card, it should appear instantly, but then, there was not anything like that in the movements. Then what was wrong?
Satoshi stood up lost in his thoughts and went out of that house even without saying goodbye. He knew something was stinking there. And he would know what it was. That was why he drove until the hospital where she had been treated and entered it to approach a receptionist. “Good morning. I would like to ask about the room of my wife” he tried to know if that was possible so he would know if she had been there or not.
“Tell me your wife’s name” the receptionist accepted and Ohno celebrated it internally.
“Nakamura Yoko” he said and the woman started to write on the keyboard fast. She kept checking and checking, Ohno already eating his nails. Then, the woman raised his head.
“I'm sorry, but I don't find anyone here with that name” the woman seemed troubled and Ohno insisted.
“And if she is not here anymore?”
“It should appear on the screen even like that” she explained. Satoshi thanked the woman and walked away slowly. What did that mean? Had she never go to the hospital? Was that a lie? Why would she lie to him? He needed answers, because his mind would explode suddenly by so many incoherencies. That was why he stopped in a family restaurant to have lunch there even though his stomach was closed like a raw clam and the employee tried to end a bowl of yakisoba. It was really delicious, but when he had eaten the half of it, his stomach refused the rest. All he was suffering was truly being a hard burden for his health. And he did not know how to fix it. That was why he drove the hour until his house and encouraging himself as much as he could, his hand opened the door and his feet walked inside.
“Dear, where have you been the whole day?” she asked bothered in the hallway. Satoshi only approached her.
“We have to talk” his deep voice and cold eyes made her do a step backwards. Yoko nodded and they both sat on the couch to start that chat.
“Are you sure you paid the hospital? Because there's nothing like that in the bank account” he asked really calm for now. At the next second, she went pale and began to laugh nervously.
“Ah, but that's because my friend paid it as long as I didn’t take my credit card with me! I forgot it this morning” Yoko explained looking truly used to lie. Ohno handled his anger as better as he could. His vein was being pretty evident in his neck.
“Then, why don't you even appear in the hospital list?” his voice became huskier, feeling as betrayed as never. Then, when his wife was not answering, his gaze stared at her piercing her soul.
“Maybe it was a mistake of-“
“Why can't you say a fucking single truth for once in your life?!” he yelled at her as loud as never before while standing up because his whole body was burning. He was breathing really irregular, watching how she was scared on the sofa. “You weren't pregnant, right?” Ohno spoke what his conclusion was and Yoko looked down. Why? Why was she such a horrible human? Why was she able to do that to him? “Why did you do it?” he asked, taking her silence as an affirmation. “Answer me with the truth now!” he shouted again flying off the handle easily.
“I had no other choice!” finally, she spoke to him back.
“What do you mean?” Ohno approached to her with a frown. Why was he knowing he would not like her answer?
“You were cheating on me with your boss… I didn’t want to lose you and…” she pretended to cry at the end. Ohno widened his eyes. Did she know it? How? Since when? That was impossible.
“When did you discover us?” he asked, already caring nothing. She stood up with a sigh.
“When you were fucking on that disgusting sofa” she answered with a bothered face. “At least tell me you didn't in our bed” Yoko said with an ugly grimace.
“I didn’t, but maybe you did” he found the perfect moment to reproach her her own infidelity.
“What do you say? I've never-“
“Oh, c'mon, can you stop lying?! What about Matsumoto Jun in the university? Or that guy who was touching your but in MY kitchen?” he spat without hesitation. Not anymore. He was truly fed up with her and her lies.
“No, dear, I swear it was because I felt alone… You were always working and I was just alone here… I only love you, that's why I married you-“
“Can you shut up?!” Ohno stopped her before continuing hearing all of that bullshit. How sick was she? He had married a sick woman. But what hurt him the most was how many people had tried to warn him about her and he did not want to listen to anyone of them. Because of that. “I want the divorce” finally he asked it clearly, aloud, in front of her. That was his decision. There was no turning back.
“No! Satoshi, please, listen to me, I will never do it again, believe me” she begged him while grabbing his arms, tears falling from his eyes. Ohno set her aside rudely.
“Don’t ever dare to touch me again” those were his last words spoken to her, because after he walked to the door, changed his shoes and exited that house. He was feeling free. As if the big weight over his back had disappeared after breaking ties with her. He felt good finally, but at the same time as betrayed and stupid as no one else. She had lied to him over and over again, about unforgettable things and he had always kept there taking care of her health until the last moment as a fool. He had been used like a cloth without stop. It was impossible she had ever loved him. And that was what hurt him the most. That Ohno could have lost the person he loved because of her. Kazunari… What would happen now? He wanted to call him, but then he remembered he had erased the phone. He thought about driving, but the keys were inside. He only had a option and it was walking to his home.
The path was long and his mind had time to think about several things. Jun had always warned him about her. Ninomiya never warned him straight, but somehow thanks to him, he could finally discover her true self. Then, why had he wanted to remain so blind? Why did she have to reach such extreme situation so he would realize he did not want that crazy woman in his life anymore? Why did he take so much time? When he had Kazunari beside him. He did not need anyone else in his life. Then, why had he been so stubborn about losing Kazunari no matter what? How crazy was he? How could he? Only when the dark clouds started to cry over him, he cried too. Tears fell as if they were two rivers. He wondered why at that moment in the middle of the street, under that heavy rain. But indeed, he was just praying Ninomiya would at least let him stay in his apartment that night. Otherwise, he had no place to go. Better said, he had not other place where he wanted to go. That was why he went upstairs in that building and pressed the bell without thinking. He tried to stop crying, but when finally his boss opened the door and their gazes met once again, he realized whom he wanted to spend his life with.
“Satoshi”
//Hiii :DDDD I'm like Ohno :DDD Okno possibly, you love me and hate me at the same time. Love me because finally Ohno broke up with his wife, but hate me because I stopped the chapter in such moment. Buuut THE TRIP, JUST HOW CUTE COULD THEY BE?! I was dying a lot while writing it sincerely and I love it no matter how many times I read it so I truly hope you enjoy it as much as me T-T
Pd:: I will answer the comments in a few hours as always lol
Pd2:: I wrote the whole fic, all these 12 chapters only for the moment when the wife lies to him. I swear I started this fic just because of this scene lol
Pd3:: thank you for all the support 💕