「School Ramblings」《My Thoughts》
Hi 🙌
This livejournal seems more like my site to complain about things or talk about some matters instead of posting fics lol. Well, I promise I will come with a big thing soon. Meanwhile, I need to vent regarding school. Lol. Just a while.
The main reason I do this post is because spending six hours everyday surrounded by a bunch of monkeys is hard... I truly have no idea of why some of them are there. I mean the degree is already optional, not obligatory in education, so for what will you go if you say you don't want to study and fail everything? Ah, yes, to bother the rest of people who wants to and the teachers. Because I can't think of another way really.
They just keep shouting during class, imagine in the recesses (my poor head will die one day), like if they needed to be hear over everyone else wtf. Also, they just fight in the middle, hitting anything and caring about nothing, they go destroying the school stuff just because it's funny and what's the best, they truly have zero respect for the teachers.
Today, ONLY TODAY, I heard "she's a bitch", "I'm going to punch her", "if I find her in the street in the night, I would kill her". And I know that the last two are false, they only try to seem cool by "oh, look what I say, I'm cool" but the insults are so real. And I just can wonder how stupid they are. Just finding themselves better than the teacher just because they don't like them because the teachers want them to be quiet so the class can work. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! They get angry like kids of three years old because they have homework, they have to be quiet, they have to pay attention... And what do you want to go there for instead? To have all the fun with friends as you want? To make teachers cry? To destroy all you want because you're fucking annoyed with your life so the rest have to pay your miserable frustration? C'mon, you should be so ashamed of your behaviour not to even be able to appear in class.
I'm so lost really. Being already 16 years old and still thinking class is to have fun and treat teachers as shits who will always torture you with exams and homework. Eh, the building next to our high school is an elementary school, maybe you mistook them. C'mon... Always trying to put the teachers as the bad ones, who try to make your life as teenager a hell because of course with your age parties are way more important than studies. Yes. Such a bunch of selfish, egocentric assholes...
But all of this is because they never had problems to study or have been through horribles phases of life and teachers meant a great support. They will never understand how teachers want us to suceed and be our best versions. Of course there are any type, but the ones I know and who I remember because they deserve to be remembered, were and are my actual salvation. If I hadn't met my actual maths teacher, I would have never obtained my high school certificate. And of course I wouldn't have continued studying, much less giving my best right now. But not only him, when my Spanish teacher teaches us, it's so enjoyable because she's enjoying her work with us. Also, my last Spanish teacher gave me so many good advices about life that I still remember and I'm so grateful with her for that. Every time I find her in the school she asks me how I am. "Life is like an empty canvas and you're the painter, you're the one who has to paint your own life on it". Also, the teacher of technical drawing. Her classes are amazing and if you don't understand anything she explaines it thousands of times. I have had tons of good teachers during my life, since the kindergarten woman how was the sweetest woman of this world, to my English teacher who gave me a monster as gift. Also, my teacher when I was 12yo who was mesmerized by me, always trying to get my best and it was his first year as teacher. Not to mention my History teacher that unluckily left the school this year... What a pity... I've had so many that made my life in school so easier that I feel like I'm indebted to them. To the profession as such. Because if I was all alone, teachers always came to me asking or talking to me. Because I was a nice person to talk with, mature and respectful.
That's why, I always try to get the best from each one independently if they are good or bad. They deserve my respect and I have my mind so in peace knowing that I do it. Of course I'm angry when I see such behaviour every day, how they are a bunch of assholes attacking just one person. I truly hope they will regret this. At least that. Otherwise they have no heart.
And changing a bit of subject, so random and suddenly yes, I think I'm doing a Narratage lol. I mean, in English classes, we have the normal teacher and a native one. Well the native one is Asiatic and so fucking cute and nice. His classes are the best and I'm always desiring Friday to arrive and have his class at first hour in the morning. Unluckily, I just could just go to three or four of his, but just in the first one I was really enjoying it.
The bad part is that I don't even know his name (I'm a shit with names wat) but he knows mine because today he chose me to talk the first one (his classes are always oral to talk and explain things) calling me from my name and so and really, I swear my heart was like skipping a beat. Also, he said his age, he was born in 1994 and I was like omg I'm from 2000, so close wat(?)
Maybe it's that I'm just in that phase I have sometimes that I'd fuck even a cactus, but... I think I may like him, just a little bit, but I may do and... Buah, now I understand my friends lol. Because one was in love with her philosophy teacher and another with her maths teacher lol. But I never thought I would fall in this trap. Why do I always have to like such difficult people?! XD Well, I will continue with my secret feelings a while more to see how I progress every Friday lol.
Actually it's not as bad as before. I mean I'm an adult already no mattering the grade I am, so no pedophilia looooool. Okay, I should stop. I will continue suffering in silence.
And because I'm almost falling asleep while writing this... Bye!
Tomoya~
This livejournal seems more like my site to complain about things or talk about some matters instead of posting fics lol. Well, I promise I will come with a big thing soon. Meanwhile, I need to vent regarding school. Lol. Just a while.
The main reason I do this post is because spending six hours everyday surrounded by a bunch of monkeys is hard... I truly have no idea of why some of them are there. I mean the degree is already optional, not obligatory in education, so for what will you go if you say you don't want to study and fail everything? Ah, yes, to bother the rest of people who wants to and the teachers. Because I can't think of another way really.
They just keep shouting during class, imagine in the recesses (my poor head will die one day), like if they needed to be hear over everyone else wtf. Also, they just fight in the middle, hitting anything and caring about nothing, they go destroying the school stuff just because it's funny and what's the best, they truly have zero respect for the teachers.
Today, ONLY TODAY, I heard "she's a bitch", "I'm going to punch her", "if I find her in the street in the night, I would kill her". And I know that the last two are false, they only try to seem cool by "oh, look what I say, I'm cool" but the insults are so real. And I just can wonder how stupid they are. Just finding themselves better than the teacher just because they don't like them because the teachers want them to be quiet so the class can work. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! They get angry like kids of three years old because they have homework, they have to be quiet, they have to pay attention... And what do you want to go there for instead? To have all the fun with friends as you want? To make teachers cry? To destroy all you want because you're fucking annoyed with your life so the rest have to pay your miserable frustration? C'mon, you should be so ashamed of your behaviour not to even be able to appear in class.
I'm so lost really. Being already 16 years old and still thinking class is to have fun and treat teachers as shits who will always torture you with exams and homework. Eh, the building next to our high school is an elementary school, maybe you mistook them. C'mon... Always trying to put the teachers as the bad ones, who try to make your life as teenager a hell because of course with your age parties are way more important than studies. Yes. Such a bunch of selfish, egocentric assholes...
But all of this is because they never had problems to study or have been through horribles phases of life and teachers meant a great support. They will never understand how teachers want us to suceed and be our best versions. Of course there are any type, but the ones I know and who I remember because they deserve to be remembered, were and are my actual salvation. If I hadn't met my actual maths teacher, I would have never obtained my high school certificate. And of course I wouldn't have continued studying, much less giving my best right now. But not only him, when my Spanish teacher teaches us, it's so enjoyable because she's enjoying her work with us. Also, my last Spanish teacher gave me so many good advices about life that I still remember and I'm so grateful with her for that. Every time I find her in the school she asks me how I am. "Life is like an empty canvas and you're the painter, you're the one who has to paint your own life on it". Also, the teacher of technical drawing. Her classes are amazing and if you don't understand anything she explaines it thousands of times. I have had tons of good teachers during my life, since the kindergarten woman how was the sweetest woman of this world, to my English teacher who gave me a monster as gift. Also, my teacher when I was 12yo who was mesmerized by me, always trying to get my best and it was his first year as teacher. Not to mention my History teacher that unluckily left the school this year... What a pity... I've had so many that made my life in school so easier that I feel like I'm indebted to them. To the profession as such. Because if I was all alone, teachers always came to me asking or talking to me. Because I was a nice person to talk with, mature and respectful.
That's why, I always try to get the best from each one independently if they are good or bad. They deserve my respect and I have my mind so in peace knowing that I do it. Of course I'm angry when I see such behaviour every day, how they are a bunch of assholes attacking just one person. I truly hope they will regret this. At least that. Otherwise they have no heart.
And changing a bit of subject, so random and suddenly yes, I think I'm doing a Narratage lol. I mean, in English classes, we have the normal teacher and a native one. Well the native one is Asiatic and so fucking cute and nice. His classes are the best and I'm always desiring Friday to arrive and have his class at first hour in the morning. Unluckily, I just could just go to three or four of his, but just in the first one I was really enjoying it.
The bad part is that I don't even know his name (I'm a shit with names wat) but he knows mine because today he chose me to talk the first one (his classes are always oral to talk and explain things) calling me from my name and so and really, I swear my heart was like skipping a beat. Also, he said his age, he was born in 1994 and I was like omg I'm from 2000, so close wat(?)
Maybe it's that I'm just in that phase I have sometimes that I'd fuck even a cactus, but... I think I may like him, just a little bit, but I may do and... Buah, now I understand my friends lol. Because one was in love with her philosophy teacher and another with her maths teacher lol. But I never thought I would fall in this trap. Why do I always have to like such difficult people?! XD Well, I will continue with my secret feelings a while more to see how I progress every Friday lol.
Actually it's not as bad as before. I mean I'm an adult already no mattering the grade I am, so no pedophilia looooool. Okay, I should stop. I will continue suffering in silence.
And because I'm almost falling asleep while writing this... Bye!
Tomoya~