「90 Minutes」《Chapter 13》
Title: 90 Minutes
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre: angst, drama, smut, romance
Length: chaptered
Word Count: 4,368 words
Rating: R for a scene and words.
“And is that why you were kissing?! He is a man! You are so useless you can't even marry a woman, and you don't care! You're so selfish-“
“AND YOU?!” Kazunari yelled with all his might while grabbing his face, which was hurting as hell. “You two have always been so selfish that I can't even choose the person I love! I don't want a woman! I want him! I don't care if you accept it!” he was crying because the words of his father had hurt him more than anything else. He never thought his father could say that. He was just in love, was that wrong? Was the love wrong? Why was he feeling alone in that world?
“You’ve never cared if your mother has died, you only want to have the reason about everything!” his father spat. Kazunari grabbed his own clothes, feeling that someone was ripping his heart off from his chest.
“I’d love to be the one who is dead instead of her!” he hit the threshold hard and turned to run outside, not wanting to hear a single word more. The last image in his head was his father's face completely upset and he felt so useless. Even his parents hated him. What was he doing wrong? If he knew it, he would change it for sure. He did not know how long he would handle that situation, he was just loving a human, which was the problem?
Then, when he got out and the fresh air hit his face, he realized that he had to go to somewhere, but he had no place to go. He thought about Aiba, but he could not be visited during the nights. He thought about Sho, but he had no money because his stuff had been left in that house when his father went alone. He only had his phone to call someone and he only thought of Satoshi. For sure he was in a near hotel. That was going to sound so cheeky, but he wanted to be protected by him, only by him. His shaking fingers searched for his number and he called him. It was the first time he called him. Kazunari had his phone number because Ohno had insisted a lot when he travelled alone in the underground.
“Kazunari?” suddenly, a worried voice sounded from the other side. Kazunari tried not to sob and talk properly, but Ohno was the only one who could see that face.
“Satoshi... Can I go with you?” he asked with a weak voice. There was a small silence until Satoshi sighed.
“Yes... Wait for me” he replied coldly. Maybe he had not noticed he was crying.
“Thanks...” he thanked him before hanging up. The night was a bit cold, November was starting and even if Autumn was being hotter than usual, the weather seemed worse that day. He decided to sit on the grass near the road and lean on a tree. He hugged his legs and covered his face to cry when his thoughts returned to storm him out. Why did nobody love him? Why should he be what others wanted to be loved? Why should he not be what he desired to be happy? Ninomiya did not understand anything and he only needed Ohno to be comforted.
Not caring about it, his ears heard how a car stopped near him and how a pair of shoes walked to him fast. Suddenly, he felt two hands catching his cheeks and Ninomiya found that round, cute face he loved so much. He lowered his legs to hug him without thinking. What was wrong with loving him so much? Was he hurting someone? He caressed his jaw, not understanding why people could not accept that relationship. Satoshi only tried to help him to stand up and know what had happened. Kazunari only cuddled up in his arms and kissed his neck lovely.
“Just tell me... Am I wrong if I love you?” he asked and Satoshi made him raise his head. He looked shocked again.
“Since when is love something bad?” Ohno smiled a bit. Kazunari smiled back while approaching straight to his lips, but stopped being unsure about that. What were they? What did Ohno feel about him? He waited to know if Satoshi wanted it too and the sir did the last step. Those lips tasted as coffee and he sucked a bit one of them. Why was that wrong? They were just sharing their love. He could not understand it. “Get in the car, you will explain me then” Satoshi pecked his nose and they started to go to somewhere Ninomiya did not know.
During the path, he was brave enough to tell him what had happened with his father. Everything, until the last dot. And that meant to tell him too the part when he said that he chose Ohno because he loved him. At that moment, Satoshi turned to catch his chin and kiss him sweetly. Kazunari had the feeling that Ohno was so happy about those words, which was odd because he had always been so gloomy when Kazunari had said those things. But that night, he felt free to say everything that it would only make Ohno be happier and happier. And somehow, he was unable to stop smiling sometimes.
Then, he reached a luxury hotel and they entered the tall building. Ninomiya was amazed by it and he only followed Satoshi speechlessly. Suddenly, Ohno hold his hand and Kazunari intertwined their fingers. And there was a whole hotel looking at them, but they did not care. The sir only approached to take their key and go to their room. The wait in the elevator was a torture because Kazunari knew what would happen when they crossed the door of the room. He could feel it, Satoshi was nervous with his bitten lip, he was excited because he could see his trousers already bulky, he was shy because of those quick glances. Kazunari smiled, swearing that he had never seen that cute Satoshi.
After a while, the elevator stopped at the floor where their room was and they walked, maybe Satoshi a bit fast, but Kazunari only giggled while following him. When the door was closed in a hurry, Satoshi cornered him against it to kiss his neck hard. Kazunari was loving that, but they needed to talk first. “Satoshi, stop...” he grabbed his face and Ohno frowned lost. “I want to talk, settle something before continuing this nonsense” he spoke lovely and Satoshi sighed disturbed. Kazunari knew perfectly that sex was the first thing for him, but he would enjoy it more if they could confess what they felt finally.
Accepting that idea, Satoshi walked to the sofa in front of the bed and sat, Kazunari only looked at everything around with wide eyes. How could Ohno have so much money to pay that? “It’s just a room, c'mon” he complained impatiently. Kazunari was amused by how Ohno was suffering at that moment. He was sure he could play a bit more, but just when he knew where to step. He sat by his side and looked at him.
“Why didn’t you want to know anything else about me this morning and now you appear like this?” he asked straight, wanting to know the reason. Satoshi looked away, seeming unprotected and Kazunari approached him to catch his hand. “Tell me so I'll understand you” his voice was soft.
“I had to resolve something before continuing this with you. I thought it would be more complicated, or even impossible, that's why I decided to let you go... But when I knew that you had gone, I...” his eyes were wet and his voice broke into the despair of remembering those details. Kazunari wiped a tear, which dared to fall.
“What am I for you?” he needed to know. And Satoshi smiled.
“You're that virgin boy, who makes me be angry constantly” Kazunari hit his arm and Satoshi laughed, but suddenly, he grabbed his wrist to place him over his thighs while they were looking at each other. “You’re my happiness” he answered seriously. Kazunari rubbed his face slowly because his heart was squeezed into the joy he was feeling after those words. “And what am I for you?” Satoshi asked doubtfully. He had to say everything there.
“You’re my first love” he smiled shyly. “I don't need anyone accepting this if I can have your love. If I can have you” he spoke wanting to kiss him, but he waited for his reaction. Satoshi slipped his hands inside of his T-shirt and left a soft kiss on his lips.
“You have me since the first moment you told me you were virgin. I've never desired someone as much as that day, but you became forbidden for me” his voice was sexier and Kazunari started to feel hotter. That situation was changing in the path Satoshi wanted, but he did not dislike it because he was getting his confession at the same time.
“Why was I forbidden?” Kazunari pressed their foreheads together.
“Because if I tasted you, I would be unable to stop... And that still happens all the times you're close to me” his hands were raised to remove his clothes and Kazunari allowed it while opening his shirt. That was not a game, maybe it would be the first time they would make love knowing what they truly felt when they were together.
“Don’t stop then...” he said lowly while their gazes were asking to be one soon. Satoshi's hands stroked his butt, but he did not do anything else. He was waiting for something, however Kazunari was lost about why he was still. The young man decided to continue by himself and sucked his neck, but after a few seconds, Satoshi was in the same mood. Ninomiya raised his head, wondering what was wrong, but abruptly Satoshi grabbed his thighs strongly to stand up with him. Kazunari hugged his neck and waist, trusting to be carried to the bed and they both lay down on it. But even like that, Satoshi only stared at him after being all on four over him. “Satoshi” he caressed his face.
“Be mine...” he muttered, but Kazunari frowned.
“I'm already yours” he giggled, being lost. Satoshi shook his head, sweating noticeably.
“No, my boyfriend...” he said abruptly and Kazunari widened his eyes. His boyfriend? Was he asking for going out? Was that true? After so much suffering, was he serious about it? Would Satoshi be his boyfriend? Would only he be able to touch him, to kiss him, to love him?
After a few seconds, Satoshi's thumb rubbed his temple, which was wet and Kazunari realized he was crying. He could not feel happier. “Are you serious?” he asked with a weak voice and Satoshi smiled slightly. He nodded.
“I don't want anyone else if I have you...” he kissed his lips slowly and Kazunari tightened his embrace around his neck. Why was he enjoying that moment after all what happened? He felt selfish somehow, but he could only focus on that man, who was sucking his neck. “Even if I had millions of servants, that wouldn’t make me as happy as you...” he muttered against his skin. Kazunari wanted to sob hard. Finally he understood, finally he saw what he had been trying to show him during those months. “So please, be my boyfriend... And I will be always with you...” he raised his head to look at his eyes and Kazunari could not stop crying. Why was he unable to stop that joy inside of him? It was even unbearable.
“Never leave me alone...” he sobbed while embracing him and Satoshi sat to lean him on his chest. He was scared of what was going to happen from that moment on. What would happen if Satoshi changed his mind? What would happen if he woke up the next day and Ohno had left? What would happen if their love ran out someday? What would their future be? What was waiting for them tomorrow? He did not want to lose him. Not at all. Not now that he had gotten him finally.
“This evening when I knew you had gone, I went mad searching for you... Just at that moment, I knew how important you are in my life. I'm sorry I have made you suffer so much... Since the first day, making you work like that for me... I would wish to return back and love you as you deserve since the first second...” he talked without stop, being sincere for first time and Kazunari calmed down while listening to his words. His breath was cut off with the last sentence and his hand caught Ohno's cheek to look at him. Those brown eyes were as a door to the heaven when he took a look inside.
“Love me?” he asked in a whisper, his hands rubbing parts of his face and neck, even shoulders and torso too. He observed how Satoshi widened his eyes and lowered his gaze. There was still something bothering him if he could not accept the last step. “C'mon” he caught his lower lip. “Make love to me” he asked seriously, they were not playing or working, they were spending their first night as couple and Kazunari lost the count on how many times he succumbed to be loved by Satoshi.
Just when his eyes could not be opened, he felt someone hugging him and covering them with the soft blankets. He was a bit cold so that warmth made him be sleepier. Satoshi intertwined their legs and also he left sweet kisses on his torso. He could not help smiling and when his eyes opened a little, Satoshi was smiling back. “I can't believe you love me...” he muttered while observing him. Kazunari embraced him tighter and Ohno had to rest his face on the pillow.
“With all my might...” he answered tired as he felt a kiss on his jaw. That was the dream he never wanted to wake up from. It seemed so real, even if they needed to still progress, their relationship had begun and they were trying to be sincere for first time. He was trying to understand him the best he could, so maybe someday he would know the reasons, which stopped him so long. Maybe someday, he would know his sorrow.
*****
The light was hitting his face and it was a bother because he wanted to sleep a bit more. Also that hot body beside him was making him sweat. He turned around to open his eyes and found Satoshi completely asleep, with his mouth half-opened and dropping a bit of saliva from the commissure of his lips. He smiled thinking he was still a kid even if he was twenty seven years old. Would they be fine? He was worried about how older Ohno was. He was still a kid, who had received the title as adult because he was old enough to drink or drive a car, but not because he felt as one. He was so immature and that might crash with Satoshi. Indeed, their fights were produced because they could not talk as two adults. Mostly because of his fault. He was the one who shouted first or who said everything straight. He must start to search for a solution regarding his behaviour.
While thinking about what he could do, his hand caressed his cheek lovely as he was observing him while sleeping. His life would be better if he could wake up beside him every morning, he was happy since the first second he opened his eyes. Satoshi was his reason to continue smiling despite what happened last night with his father. He did not know what he should do regarding that. His father really seemed affected; he had never hit him until that day. But he was his father, he could not let it go that easily, they needed to talk. Kazunari could not lose his father too, he was still regretting his mother's loss. At least, he had to try it, because he loved his parents no matter how much they hated him for loving men.
Breaking his thoughts, Satoshi started to stretch his body and open his eyes slowly. They smiled at each other and Satoshi sighed. “Where is my good-morning kiss?” he complained while pouting and Kazunari raised his eyebrows amused. What was that? Who was that person in front of him? Since when was Satoshi like that? Was that his hidden side? Could he get to know it?
“What are you saying?” he laughed shyly. He was flushed, it was the first time he had a boyfriend, but at the same time it was the first time Satoshi treated him like that. The sir sat, removing the sheets, showing his shaped body and Kazunari's gaze wandered around while he was licking his lips.
“I want a kiss every morning” Ohno ordered as a kid. He moved through the bed to sit beside Kazunari. “It can be like this” his voice became husky and he pecked his lips. “Or like this” he whispered. They started a deep kiss and Kazunari touched his jaw. He had goosebumps and shivers all over his body. A little sound marked the end of the kiss and Ninomiya gulped.
“If I kiss you like that every morning, we will get up two hours after” he giggled a bit, realizing that Satoshi was so weak to that behaviour, more if Kazunari was the one who started it. The sir laughed.
“True” he rubbed their noses. “Let’s take a bath” he proposed and the young man accepted, his body felt so dirty after the last day. But then, Satoshi caught his hand to go both there. He stopped shocked.
“Together?” he asked flushed and Ohno nodded.
“Don’t be shy, we've already done it” he smiled playfully. Kazunari was amazed by how changed Satoshi was. Was he the same man? He accepted because he wanted to continue observing him. He was as lost as never before.
They came in the bathroom and Satoshi started to fill the bathtub with hot water. When Ohno was looking at the water, absorbed by how the water fell, Kazunari approached and hugged him by behind. He was tensed, wondering which his reaction would be, but his partner only caressed his forearms. Everything was different. Their way to act, to talk, to love each other. He felt that he was at the same level as Satoshi; he was not already his sir, he was his boyfriend. And he loved that.
After a few minutes, he watched how Ohno got in the water and sat, his legs were opened to invite him to sit between them. And Kazunari did it, leaning his back on his torso. Satoshi's hands started to rub his skin slowly and his face seemed as always, serious and cold, but when Kazunari looked behind, Ohno looked at him and his eyes shone with a lovely brightness. Even that was different and he cuddled up in his arms. Could it be real? Because he had the feeling as dreaming. And sincerely, he did not want to wake up. Never if that would mean to be loved by Ohno eternally.
“Satoshi” suddenly, he said his name and he received a growl as reply. “I would like to talk to my father today...” he told him unsurely. His hands caught Satoshi's to intertwine their fingers so he could hug him somehow.
“It’s fine, I will take you there” he accepted normally, but Kazunari did not mean that. He was so scared that he needed him by his side, and that would mean to present him as his boyfriend in front of his father. Maybe if he knew his partner, he would understand how much they loved each other.
“No... I mean...” his voice was shaking and Satoshi caught his chin to look at him. Kazunari turned around a bit, his back over his leg now. “I want you to accompany me” he explained, maybe a bit afraid of his answer. Would he accept? Would he refuse to meet his father? That was an important step not only for him, but for their relationship too.
Satoshi caressed his neck slightly and kissed his lips softly. “Of course, will you present me as your boyfriend?” he asked seriously and Kazunari nodded. “I will help you” his voice was soft and Ninomiya smiled satisfied.
“Thank you” he kneeled on the bathtub to hug his neck and Satoshi took advantage of it to touch his naked skin until reaching his butt. Kazunari giggled a bit.
“Weren't you satisfied last night?” he started to play, his hands touching his torso slowly. He loved to feel that Satoshi was his, that he could do anything at that moment finally. He felt powerful and released, he was completely confident to provoke Satoshi as he pleased.
“I’m never satisfied with you” he touched his nose and Kazunari smiled uncontrollably. Why was he so happy? He could not stop that feeling. He could not stop loving him with all his might.
Slowly, they started another round of touches and kisses and it ended up with Kazunari on top of him, wrapping his arms around his neck to move better and gasping heavily. Satoshi was hugging his waist while kissing his neck and collarbones. Ninomiya arched his back and grabbed his hair tightly. His body was searching for Satoshi's more and more, that was not being enough lately, he wanted more. But he did not know what he wanted, he only felt it insufficient. He kissed his lips to see if that was what he needed, but once again, that did not calm his desire. Ninomiya was not focused on his moves and Satoshi noticed it.
“Kazu, what's wrong?” Ohno gasped breathlessly. Their gazes met, but Kazunari decided to keep in silence. He did not know what was wrong, so how could he answer? He preferred to continue concentrated and reach his climax. His head was leaned on his shoulder to rest a bit and cuddle up in his arms. “What’s in your mind?” he brushed his head sweetly, still trying to know the reason why Kazunari was absent before.
“Nothing, it's just... that a lot of things are happening lately...” he excused himself like that, he needed to think of it coldly and alone. Satoshi only raised his face to kiss him tenderly.
“It’s mainly my fault, I'm sorry...” his eyes were sad, regretful and Kazunari did not want those emotions inside of him. His personal goal was to make him happy, to make him smile everyday, every minute. Because his happiness was his priority.
“Forget that because now I have everything I need” he smiled and Ohno could shine again with that cute smile. His hand rubbed his body because he felt lucky to be able to do that, he was the only one who was allowed to touch him as much as he wanted, Ohno had chosen him.
“And it's only for you” he answered suddenly. Kazunari thought he had heard wrongly. His eyes looked at him as if nothing had happened and hastily he smiled thinking that maybe that was a joke. The last day they were fighting because Ohno did not want to lose his servants, but that day he was saying that, he hated that type of jokes.
“I wish it were true...”he sighed while smiling bitterly. He was fine like that, just gaining the title as his boyfriend was enough for him; Satoshi had accepted his feelings for him and he was satisfied with that. Kazunari was trying to get the idea of sharing him, but then, he said that.
“Kazu, I only enjoy, not just sex, but also my life with you. The servants already touch me and I feel nothing. Only you drive me crazy...” he explained caressing his face. Ninomiya was shocked. Was that truly happening? “Being with other person would be as cheating on you and I'd rather to die before doing that” he confessed with soft eyes, but Kazunari was overwhelmed. He wanted that, then why was he not happy? Well, he was happy, but not as he thought. Maybe he could not understand why he had changed his opinion so quickly. He could have done it before suffering so much.
Needing space, he stood up to get out of the bathtub dropping water from every single part of his body. Satoshi called him twice and asked him what was wrong, but Ninomiya only took a towel and went to the bedroom. He dried his body swiftly and when he was already dressing up, Ohno appeared behind him with a towel around his waist. “Why don't you answer me?” he sounded disturbed and Kazunari continued in his world. “I’m talking to you!” finally, he shouted at him and Kazunari turned around.
“And what happens if I don't want to talk to you now?!” he answered rudely. Satoshi was frowning.
“Why? What did I do?” Ohno questioned, pretty lost about his behaviour. Kazunari did not care, he had surpassed his patience.
“Because I always have to do what you what, when you want and how you want, and me?! Why can't I decide?!” he yelled with all his might. That was what was hurting him, how they reached the point of starting a relationship. It was when Satoshi wanted, how he wanted; and when Kazunari tried to ask something different, Ohno rejected it with the excuse that they could not be together.
“That's not true...” Satoshi widened his eyes, speechless about how Ninomiya was shouting at him.
“It's as true as that we could have been together since the first moment, but of course it's better to have eight butts when the sir wants instead of one when the owner wants” Kazunari spat his words without a filter and Satoshi slapped his face so hard that the young man fell on the bed.
“You don't know anything! You're just an immature brat who can't shut the fuck up! If you truly think that about me, then I don't know why you are my boyfriend!” Satoshi finished his reproach breathlessly, with his eyes being reddish. Kazunari only looked up, lost and confused after that slap and those words. So indeed, he was just an immature brat.
“I’m sorry...” he muttered. His gaze was looking at the nowhere, not even blinking, and he heard how Satoshi clicked his tongue.
“Fuck off” he said without caring and searched for his clothes. Kazunari did not observe him, he only heard how there were noises around him, but he was not in that room, he was absent. Just when Ohno entered the bathroom and closed the door strongly, Ninomiya lay down on the bed, cuddling up against the mattress, to cry hard. Why had he said that? He was just angry with his behaviour, he did not understand anything and he was fed up with Satoshi not explaining him even a single detail. But he did not think that, he was not a nice butt to fuck, there were reasons why Satoshi behaved like that. Then if he was sure about that, why had he said those horrible things? He deserved that slap, those words and his anger. Of course Satoshi was mad at him, but especially hurt as well. He must not talk to him like that, much less upsetting him so severely.
He did not know what he should do to fix that situation. At that moment, the two people, who were the most important ones of his life, were angry with him. Even he himself was hating what he had done.
//A week after this super long chapter! A lot of things happened right? Gomen, I didn't know when I should stop and I got writing and writing xD
Good news? Maybe in a week or two I will be able to return to write almost everyday 😭 I miss it too much, also I want to end this story someday lol (even if I don't see the end yet 😧)
Thanks for all the support!
Pd:: this chapter remembered too much to someone 🙈😶
Pairing: Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre: angst, drama, smut, romance
Length: chaptered
Word Count: 4,368 words
Rating: R for a scene and words.
“And is that why you were kissing?! He is a man! You are so useless you can't even marry a woman, and you don't care! You're so selfish-“
“AND YOU?!” Kazunari yelled with all his might while grabbing his face, which was hurting as hell. “You two have always been so selfish that I can't even choose the person I love! I don't want a woman! I want him! I don't care if you accept it!” he was crying because the words of his father had hurt him more than anything else. He never thought his father could say that. He was just in love, was that wrong? Was the love wrong? Why was he feeling alone in that world?
“You’ve never cared if your mother has died, you only want to have the reason about everything!” his father spat. Kazunari grabbed his own clothes, feeling that someone was ripping his heart off from his chest.
“I’d love to be the one who is dead instead of her!” he hit the threshold hard and turned to run outside, not wanting to hear a single word more. The last image in his head was his father's face completely upset and he felt so useless. Even his parents hated him. What was he doing wrong? If he knew it, he would change it for sure. He did not know how long he would handle that situation, he was just loving a human, which was the problem?
Then, when he got out and the fresh air hit his face, he realized that he had to go to somewhere, but he had no place to go. He thought about Aiba, but he could not be visited during the nights. He thought about Sho, but he had no money because his stuff had been left in that house when his father went alone. He only had his phone to call someone and he only thought of Satoshi. For sure he was in a near hotel. That was going to sound so cheeky, but he wanted to be protected by him, only by him. His shaking fingers searched for his number and he called him. It was the first time he called him. Kazunari had his phone number because Ohno had insisted a lot when he travelled alone in the underground.
“Kazunari?” suddenly, a worried voice sounded from the other side. Kazunari tried not to sob and talk properly, but Ohno was the only one who could see that face.
“Satoshi... Can I go with you?” he asked with a weak voice. There was a small silence until Satoshi sighed.
“Yes... Wait for me” he replied coldly. Maybe he had not noticed he was crying.
“Thanks...” he thanked him before hanging up. The night was a bit cold, November was starting and even if Autumn was being hotter than usual, the weather seemed worse that day. He decided to sit on the grass near the road and lean on a tree. He hugged his legs and covered his face to cry when his thoughts returned to storm him out. Why did nobody love him? Why should he be what others wanted to be loved? Why should he not be what he desired to be happy? Ninomiya did not understand anything and he only needed Ohno to be comforted.
Not caring about it, his ears heard how a car stopped near him and how a pair of shoes walked to him fast. Suddenly, he felt two hands catching his cheeks and Ninomiya found that round, cute face he loved so much. He lowered his legs to hug him without thinking. What was wrong with loving him so much? Was he hurting someone? He caressed his jaw, not understanding why people could not accept that relationship. Satoshi only tried to help him to stand up and know what had happened. Kazunari only cuddled up in his arms and kissed his neck lovely.
“Just tell me... Am I wrong if I love you?” he asked and Satoshi made him raise his head. He looked shocked again.
“Since when is love something bad?” Ohno smiled a bit. Kazunari smiled back while approaching straight to his lips, but stopped being unsure about that. What were they? What did Ohno feel about him? He waited to know if Satoshi wanted it too and the sir did the last step. Those lips tasted as coffee and he sucked a bit one of them. Why was that wrong? They were just sharing their love. He could not understand it. “Get in the car, you will explain me then” Satoshi pecked his nose and they started to go to somewhere Ninomiya did not know.
During the path, he was brave enough to tell him what had happened with his father. Everything, until the last dot. And that meant to tell him too the part when he said that he chose Ohno because he loved him. At that moment, Satoshi turned to catch his chin and kiss him sweetly. Kazunari had the feeling that Ohno was so happy about those words, which was odd because he had always been so gloomy when Kazunari had said those things. But that night, he felt free to say everything that it would only make Ohno be happier and happier. And somehow, he was unable to stop smiling sometimes.
Then, he reached a luxury hotel and they entered the tall building. Ninomiya was amazed by it and he only followed Satoshi speechlessly. Suddenly, Ohno hold his hand and Kazunari intertwined their fingers. And there was a whole hotel looking at them, but they did not care. The sir only approached to take their key and go to their room. The wait in the elevator was a torture because Kazunari knew what would happen when they crossed the door of the room. He could feel it, Satoshi was nervous with his bitten lip, he was excited because he could see his trousers already bulky, he was shy because of those quick glances. Kazunari smiled, swearing that he had never seen that cute Satoshi.
After a while, the elevator stopped at the floor where their room was and they walked, maybe Satoshi a bit fast, but Kazunari only giggled while following him. When the door was closed in a hurry, Satoshi cornered him against it to kiss his neck hard. Kazunari was loving that, but they needed to talk first. “Satoshi, stop...” he grabbed his face and Ohno frowned lost. “I want to talk, settle something before continuing this nonsense” he spoke lovely and Satoshi sighed disturbed. Kazunari knew perfectly that sex was the first thing for him, but he would enjoy it more if they could confess what they felt finally.
Accepting that idea, Satoshi walked to the sofa in front of the bed and sat, Kazunari only looked at everything around with wide eyes. How could Ohno have so much money to pay that? “It’s just a room, c'mon” he complained impatiently. Kazunari was amused by how Ohno was suffering at that moment. He was sure he could play a bit more, but just when he knew where to step. He sat by his side and looked at him.
“Why didn’t you want to know anything else about me this morning and now you appear like this?” he asked straight, wanting to know the reason. Satoshi looked away, seeming unprotected and Kazunari approached him to catch his hand. “Tell me so I'll understand you” his voice was soft.
“I had to resolve something before continuing this with you. I thought it would be more complicated, or even impossible, that's why I decided to let you go... But when I knew that you had gone, I...” his eyes were wet and his voice broke into the despair of remembering those details. Kazunari wiped a tear, which dared to fall.
“What am I for you?” he needed to know. And Satoshi smiled.
“You're that virgin boy, who makes me be angry constantly” Kazunari hit his arm and Satoshi laughed, but suddenly, he grabbed his wrist to place him over his thighs while they were looking at each other. “You’re my happiness” he answered seriously. Kazunari rubbed his face slowly because his heart was squeezed into the joy he was feeling after those words. “And what am I for you?” Satoshi asked doubtfully. He had to say everything there.
“You’re my first love” he smiled shyly. “I don't need anyone accepting this if I can have your love. If I can have you” he spoke wanting to kiss him, but he waited for his reaction. Satoshi slipped his hands inside of his T-shirt and left a soft kiss on his lips.
“You have me since the first moment you told me you were virgin. I've never desired someone as much as that day, but you became forbidden for me” his voice was sexier and Kazunari started to feel hotter. That situation was changing in the path Satoshi wanted, but he did not dislike it because he was getting his confession at the same time.
“Why was I forbidden?” Kazunari pressed their foreheads together.
“Because if I tasted you, I would be unable to stop... And that still happens all the times you're close to me” his hands were raised to remove his clothes and Kazunari allowed it while opening his shirt. That was not a game, maybe it would be the first time they would make love knowing what they truly felt when they were together.
“Don’t stop then...” he said lowly while their gazes were asking to be one soon. Satoshi's hands stroked his butt, but he did not do anything else. He was waiting for something, however Kazunari was lost about why he was still. The young man decided to continue by himself and sucked his neck, but after a few seconds, Satoshi was in the same mood. Ninomiya raised his head, wondering what was wrong, but abruptly Satoshi grabbed his thighs strongly to stand up with him. Kazunari hugged his neck and waist, trusting to be carried to the bed and they both lay down on it. But even like that, Satoshi only stared at him after being all on four over him. “Satoshi” he caressed his face.
“Be mine...” he muttered, but Kazunari frowned.
“I'm already yours” he giggled, being lost. Satoshi shook his head, sweating noticeably.
“No, my boyfriend...” he said abruptly and Kazunari widened his eyes. His boyfriend? Was he asking for going out? Was that true? After so much suffering, was he serious about it? Would Satoshi be his boyfriend? Would only he be able to touch him, to kiss him, to love him?
After a few seconds, Satoshi's thumb rubbed his temple, which was wet and Kazunari realized he was crying. He could not feel happier. “Are you serious?” he asked with a weak voice and Satoshi smiled slightly. He nodded.
“I don't want anyone else if I have you...” he kissed his lips slowly and Kazunari tightened his embrace around his neck. Why was he enjoying that moment after all what happened? He felt selfish somehow, but he could only focus on that man, who was sucking his neck. “Even if I had millions of servants, that wouldn’t make me as happy as you...” he muttered against his skin. Kazunari wanted to sob hard. Finally he understood, finally he saw what he had been trying to show him during those months. “So please, be my boyfriend... And I will be always with you...” he raised his head to look at his eyes and Kazunari could not stop crying. Why was he unable to stop that joy inside of him? It was even unbearable.
“Never leave me alone...” he sobbed while embracing him and Satoshi sat to lean him on his chest. He was scared of what was going to happen from that moment on. What would happen if Satoshi changed his mind? What would happen if he woke up the next day and Ohno had left? What would happen if their love ran out someday? What would their future be? What was waiting for them tomorrow? He did not want to lose him. Not at all. Not now that he had gotten him finally.
“This evening when I knew you had gone, I went mad searching for you... Just at that moment, I knew how important you are in my life. I'm sorry I have made you suffer so much... Since the first day, making you work like that for me... I would wish to return back and love you as you deserve since the first second...” he talked without stop, being sincere for first time and Kazunari calmed down while listening to his words. His breath was cut off with the last sentence and his hand caught Ohno's cheek to look at him. Those brown eyes were as a door to the heaven when he took a look inside.
“Love me?” he asked in a whisper, his hands rubbing parts of his face and neck, even shoulders and torso too. He observed how Satoshi widened his eyes and lowered his gaze. There was still something bothering him if he could not accept the last step. “C'mon” he caught his lower lip. “Make love to me” he asked seriously, they were not playing or working, they were spending their first night as couple and Kazunari lost the count on how many times he succumbed to be loved by Satoshi.
Just when his eyes could not be opened, he felt someone hugging him and covering them with the soft blankets. He was a bit cold so that warmth made him be sleepier. Satoshi intertwined their legs and also he left sweet kisses on his torso. He could not help smiling and when his eyes opened a little, Satoshi was smiling back. “I can't believe you love me...” he muttered while observing him. Kazunari embraced him tighter and Ohno had to rest his face on the pillow.
“With all my might...” he answered tired as he felt a kiss on his jaw. That was the dream he never wanted to wake up from. It seemed so real, even if they needed to still progress, their relationship had begun and they were trying to be sincere for first time. He was trying to understand him the best he could, so maybe someday he would know the reasons, which stopped him so long. Maybe someday, he would know his sorrow.
*****
The light was hitting his face and it was a bother because he wanted to sleep a bit more. Also that hot body beside him was making him sweat. He turned around to open his eyes and found Satoshi completely asleep, with his mouth half-opened and dropping a bit of saliva from the commissure of his lips. He smiled thinking he was still a kid even if he was twenty seven years old. Would they be fine? He was worried about how older Ohno was. He was still a kid, who had received the title as adult because he was old enough to drink or drive a car, but not because he felt as one. He was so immature and that might crash with Satoshi. Indeed, their fights were produced because they could not talk as two adults. Mostly because of his fault. He was the one who shouted first or who said everything straight. He must start to search for a solution regarding his behaviour.
While thinking about what he could do, his hand caressed his cheek lovely as he was observing him while sleeping. His life would be better if he could wake up beside him every morning, he was happy since the first second he opened his eyes. Satoshi was his reason to continue smiling despite what happened last night with his father. He did not know what he should do regarding that. His father really seemed affected; he had never hit him until that day. But he was his father, he could not let it go that easily, they needed to talk. Kazunari could not lose his father too, he was still regretting his mother's loss. At least, he had to try it, because he loved his parents no matter how much they hated him for loving men.
Breaking his thoughts, Satoshi started to stretch his body and open his eyes slowly. They smiled at each other and Satoshi sighed. “Where is my good-morning kiss?” he complained while pouting and Kazunari raised his eyebrows amused. What was that? Who was that person in front of him? Since when was Satoshi like that? Was that his hidden side? Could he get to know it?
“What are you saying?” he laughed shyly. He was flushed, it was the first time he had a boyfriend, but at the same time it was the first time Satoshi treated him like that. The sir sat, removing the sheets, showing his shaped body and Kazunari's gaze wandered around while he was licking his lips.
“I want a kiss every morning” Ohno ordered as a kid. He moved through the bed to sit beside Kazunari. “It can be like this” his voice became husky and he pecked his lips. “Or like this” he whispered. They started a deep kiss and Kazunari touched his jaw. He had goosebumps and shivers all over his body. A little sound marked the end of the kiss and Ninomiya gulped.
“If I kiss you like that every morning, we will get up two hours after” he giggled a bit, realizing that Satoshi was so weak to that behaviour, more if Kazunari was the one who started it. The sir laughed.
“True” he rubbed their noses. “Let’s take a bath” he proposed and the young man accepted, his body felt so dirty after the last day. But then, Satoshi caught his hand to go both there. He stopped shocked.
“Together?” he asked flushed and Ohno nodded.
“Don’t be shy, we've already done it” he smiled playfully. Kazunari was amazed by how changed Satoshi was. Was he the same man? He accepted because he wanted to continue observing him. He was as lost as never before.
They came in the bathroom and Satoshi started to fill the bathtub with hot water. When Ohno was looking at the water, absorbed by how the water fell, Kazunari approached and hugged him by behind. He was tensed, wondering which his reaction would be, but his partner only caressed his forearms. Everything was different. Their way to act, to talk, to love each other. He felt that he was at the same level as Satoshi; he was not already his sir, he was his boyfriend. And he loved that.
After a few minutes, he watched how Ohno got in the water and sat, his legs were opened to invite him to sit between them. And Kazunari did it, leaning his back on his torso. Satoshi's hands started to rub his skin slowly and his face seemed as always, serious and cold, but when Kazunari looked behind, Ohno looked at him and his eyes shone with a lovely brightness. Even that was different and he cuddled up in his arms. Could it be real? Because he had the feeling as dreaming. And sincerely, he did not want to wake up. Never if that would mean to be loved by Ohno eternally.
“Satoshi” suddenly, he said his name and he received a growl as reply. “I would like to talk to my father today...” he told him unsurely. His hands caught Satoshi's to intertwine their fingers so he could hug him somehow.
“It’s fine, I will take you there” he accepted normally, but Kazunari did not mean that. He was so scared that he needed him by his side, and that would mean to present him as his boyfriend in front of his father. Maybe if he knew his partner, he would understand how much they loved each other.
“No... I mean...” his voice was shaking and Satoshi caught his chin to look at him. Kazunari turned around a bit, his back over his leg now. “I want you to accompany me” he explained, maybe a bit afraid of his answer. Would he accept? Would he refuse to meet his father? That was an important step not only for him, but for their relationship too.
Satoshi caressed his neck slightly and kissed his lips softly. “Of course, will you present me as your boyfriend?” he asked seriously and Kazunari nodded. “I will help you” his voice was soft and Ninomiya smiled satisfied.
“Thank you” he kneeled on the bathtub to hug his neck and Satoshi took advantage of it to touch his naked skin until reaching his butt. Kazunari giggled a bit.
“Weren't you satisfied last night?” he started to play, his hands touching his torso slowly. He loved to feel that Satoshi was his, that he could do anything at that moment finally. He felt powerful and released, he was completely confident to provoke Satoshi as he pleased.
“I’m never satisfied with you” he touched his nose and Kazunari smiled uncontrollably. Why was he so happy? He could not stop that feeling. He could not stop loving him with all his might.
Slowly, they started another round of touches and kisses and it ended up with Kazunari on top of him, wrapping his arms around his neck to move better and gasping heavily. Satoshi was hugging his waist while kissing his neck and collarbones. Ninomiya arched his back and grabbed his hair tightly. His body was searching for Satoshi's more and more, that was not being enough lately, he wanted more. But he did not know what he wanted, he only felt it insufficient. He kissed his lips to see if that was what he needed, but once again, that did not calm his desire. Ninomiya was not focused on his moves and Satoshi noticed it.
“Kazu, what's wrong?” Ohno gasped breathlessly. Their gazes met, but Kazunari decided to keep in silence. He did not know what was wrong, so how could he answer? He preferred to continue concentrated and reach his climax. His head was leaned on his shoulder to rest a bit and cuddle up in his arms. “What’s in your mind?” he brushed his head sweetly, still trying to know the reason why Kazunari was absent before.
“Nothing, it's just... that a lot of things are happening lately...” he excused himself like that, he needed to think of it coldly and alone. Satoshi only raised his face to kiss him tenderly.
“It’s mainly my fault, I'm sorry...” his eyes were sad, regretful and Kazunari did not want those emotions inside of him. His personal goal was to make him happy, to make him smile everyday, every minute. Because his happiness was his priority.
“Forget that because now I have everything I need” he smiled and Ohno could shine again with that cute smile. His hand rubbed his body because he felt lucky to be able to do that, he was the only one who was allowed to touch him as much as he wanted, Ohno had chosen him.
“And it's only for you” he answered suddenly. Kazunari thought he had heard wrongly. His eyes looked at him as if nothing had happened and hastily he smiled thinking that maybe that was a joke. The last day they were fighting because Ohno did not want to lose his servants, but that day he was saying that, he hated that type of jokes.
“I wish it were true...”he sighed while smiling bitterly. He was fine like that, just gaining the title as his boyfriend was enough for him; Satoshi had accepted his feelings for him and he was satisfied with that. Kazunari was trying to get the idea of sharing him, but then, he said that.
“Kazu, I only enjoy, not just sex, but also my life with you. The servants already touch me and I feel nothing. Only you drive me crazy...” he explained caressing his face. Ninomiya was shocked. Was that truly happening? “Being with other person would be as cheating on you and I'd rather to die before doing that” he confessed with soft eyes, but Kazunari was overwhelmed. He wanted that, then why was he not happy? Well, he was happy, but not as he thought. Maybe he could not understand why he had changed his opinion so quickly. He could have done it before suffering so much.
Needing space, he stood up to get out of the bathtub dropping water from every single part of his body. Satoshi called him twice and asked him what was wrong, but Ninomiya only took a towel and went to the bedroom. He dried his body swiftly and when he was already dressing up, Ohno appeared behind him with a towel around his waist. “Why don't you answer me?” he sounded disturbed and Kazunari continued in his world. “I’m talking to you!” finally, he shouted at him and Kazunari turned around.
“And what happens if I don't want to talk to you now?!” he answered rudely. Satoshi was frowning.
“Why? What did I do?” Ohno questioned, pretty lost about his behaviour. Kazunari did not care, he had surpassed his patience.
“Because I always have to do what you what, when you want and how you want, and me?! Why can't I decide?!” he yelled with all his might. That was what was hurting him, how they reached the point of starting a relationship. It was when Satoshi wanted, how he wanted; and when Kazunari tried to ask something different, Ohno rejected it with the excuse that they could not be together.
“That's not true...” Satoshi widened his eyes, speechless about how Ninomiya was shouting at him.
“It's as true as that we could have been together since the first moment, but of course it's better to have eight butts when the sir wants instead of one when the owner wants” Kazunari spat his words without a filter and Satoshi slapped his face so hard that the young man fell on the bed.
“You don't know anything! You're just an immature brat who can't shut the fuck up! If you truly think that about me, then I don't know why you are my boyfriend!” Satoshi finished his reproach breathlessly, with his eyes being reddish. Kazunari only looked up, lost and confused after that slap and those words. So indeed, he was just an immature brat.
“I’m sorry...” he muttered. His gaze was looking at the nowhere, not even blinking, and he heard how Satoshi clicked his tongue.
“Fuck off” he said without caring and searched for his clothes. Kazunari did not observe him, he only heard how there were noises around him, but he was not in that room, he was absent. Just when Ohno entered the bathroom and closed the door strongly, Ninomiya lay down on the bed, cuddling up against the mattress, to cry hard. Why had he said that? He was just angry with his behaviour, he did not understand anything and he was fed up with Satoshi not explaining him even a single detail. But he did not think that, he was not a nice butt to fuck, there were reasons why Satoshi behaved like that. Then if he was sure about that, why had he said those horrible things? He deserved that slap, those words and his anger. Of course Satoshi was mad at him, but especially hurt as well. He must not talk to him like that, much less upsetting him so severely.
He did not know what he should do to fix that situation. At that moment, the two people, who were the most important ones of his life, were angry with him. Even he himself was hating what he had done.
//A week after this super long chapter! A lot of things happened right? Gomen, I didn't know when I should stop and I got writing and writing xD
Good news? Maybe in a week or two I will be able to return to write almost everyday 😭 I miss it too much, also I want to end this story someday lol (even if I don't see the end yet 😧)
Thanks for all the support!
Pd:: this chapter remembered too much to someone 🙈😶