Stay with me FINAL (17/17)
Title: Stay with me FINAL (17/17)
Rating: PG-13 (adult themes)(substance abuse)
Genre: Angst, Drama
Pairing: HanChul, SiChul( unrequited love?)
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
Summary:Heechul finds himself deeply in love with his fellow super junior member Hangeng. Could this love be a blessing or is it a curse threatening to change everything he knows.
MASTERLIST
Chapter 1|| Chapter 2|| Chapter 3|| Chapter 4|| Chapter 5|| Chapter 6 || Chapter 7 || Chapter 8 || Chapter 9|| Chapter 10a | | Chapter 10b || Chapter 11|| Chapter 12 a|| Chapter 12b|| Chapter 13|| Chpater 14|| Chapter 15||
Chapter16 ||
All else was still in the super junior dorm. It was so silent that you could almost make out every single members breathing as they dreamt. The front door opening broke the silence.
They smiled as they were greeted by the familiar surroundings of the super junior dorm. He had only been gone for almost three days but it felt like an eternity. The first thing Kibum did was walking into his room and put the stuff he was carrying near his bed. How odd Siwon wasn’t there. Confusion filtered over Kibum. Kibums eyes caught the time how strange that no one else was up.
Kibum walked into the kitchen where Leeteuk would normally be with a warm cup of coffee in his hands. Only thing was that there was no one there. All the better Kibum thought as he pulled up his sleeves. He would make breakfast and then wake everyone up. The smell of Pancakes wafted into the air. Ah it smelt delicious.
Kibum sighed in satisfaction at his work. Two plates were piled high with pancakes and there were even strawberries as well. He patted himself on the back for a job well done. Well he had the food now all that was needed were the members. Kibum made his way to Leeteuk and Kangins shared room first. He found it weird that Kangin and Leeteuk were sleeping in the same bed. Had they all gone crazy in his absence?
“Hyung its time to wake up”
Kibum poked Leeteuk gently but the leader didn’t move. He signed before placing his arms on the leader shoulder shaking him gently. Kangin groaned and moved. Leeteuk for some reason moved with Kangin making Kibum fall on top of them both. Kibum yelped when something cold came in touch with his skin waking both Leeteuk and Kangin up.
“W-What’s …”
Leeteuk opened one eye sleepily.
“K-Kibum ?oh gosh KIBUM”
Leeteuk threw his arms around the younger one in joy. Kangin had barely opened his eyes before he found himself being yanked towards Kibum. Kibum was seriously confused as to what was going on. It was only when Leeteuk finally let him go that he noticed the handcuffs that were connecting Leeteuk to Kangin. Well that explained a lot…not really. Kibum decided that he didn’t want to ask and instead looked up at the slowly coming into awareness Leeteuk.
“I made breakfast”
Leeteuk pinched his cheeks and Kangin groaned complaining that his arm was now more a part of Leeteuk then him. When Leeteuk and Kangin finally got up Kibum realised exactly why he had woken them up first. If anyone could make the other members get up and out of bed it would be Leeteuk. He could even make the most stubbornest people Heechul get up when they really didn’t want to. Soon enough all the members were awake except Heechul and Hangeng, Kibum still didn’t know where Siwon was.
Heechul groaned as Siwon moved in his sleep. It may have been a small movement but to Heechul it felt as if the whole bed was rocking. Not to mention his head was in excruciating pain. BANG the door burst open.
“WOULD YOU PEOPLE…”
Heechul groaned even his own screams were hurting his head. Siwon jumped awake at Heechul screams and Hangeng groaned loudly at being woken up.
“K-Kibum!”
Heechul tried to punch Siwon for talking so loud but he had no idea where his hands were. Kibum stood in the door way looking at them all weirdly. They weren’t all handcuffed together were they? Hangeng rolled and looked over at the door. He didn’t blame for Kibum standing there with a confused look on his face. After all it’s not every day you see three grown men sleeping in the same bed and handcuffed together. Kibum shook his head pulling himself out of the trance he was in.
“Ummm breakfast is ready”
Kibum whispered it softly not wanting to anger what appeared t to be a hung over Heechul.
“MORNING!!!”
Kyuhyun burst into the room skipping. Heechul sent a death glare Kyuhyuns way as he clutched his head in pain. Kyuhyun ignored the glare as he unlocked the handcuff connection Heechul to Hangeng. He was about to unlock the one connecting Heechul to Siwon when he was pushed back. Heechul ran to the bathroom dragging a half asleep Siwon with him. Kibum eyed Kyuhyun.
“Ah so it was you who handcuffed all the members”
Kyuhyun sent his signature smirk Kibums way. Kibum just shook his head Kyuhyun was learning to many evil and cruel things from Heechul.
“So was it your idea to get them drunk as well?”
Kyuhyun looked down and shook his head.
“I should have thought of it but it was actually Sungmin”
Kibum sighed it seemed Heechul didn’t only influence Kyuhyun but sung min as well.
“Where is Sungmin anyway?”
A light seemed to go off in Kyuhyuns head as he ran out of the room. Kibum looked at Hangeng who just shrugged. Sighning Kibum walked out of the room. Hangeng was glad that he was finally free of Heechul. He looked down at his wrist where the handcuff used to be and smiled, well it was about time.
Siwon continued to rub Heechul back as he threw up all the toxic alcohol in his stomach. Siwon watched Heechul very carefully. Did he remember what had happened between him and Hangeng? Heechul looked up at him from under those thick black eyelashes. Siwon helped him to stand up and wash his face.
“Ugh I feel terrible”
“Well Leeteuk did tell you to stop numerous times”
Siwon could only smile as Heechul glared at him. Heechul rolled his eyes at him and groaned because it just made his head hurt more. He wanted to glare and Siwon when he moved his hand making the chain jingle. Siwon used his finger to make small circles all over Heechuls forehead. His hands faltered slightly when a sweet sound escaped Heechuls lips. Heechul looked up at him half dazed.
“Mmm that feels good”
Siwon swallowed the lump that formed in his throat. It’s a sin a sin Siwon kept repeating to himself. Heechul tilted his head cutely. Siwons chant turned from it’s a sin into he’s so pretty it’s a sin. He shook his head realising what he was saying. Heechul placed both of his hands on each side of Siwons face. Siwons eyes met with those beautiful sparkling brown orbs.
“Stop turning it’s making my head spin”
Heechul face was so close to his. Those lips if he reached out he could make them press against his. Siwon didn’t realise he had placed his free hand behind Heechul head until that soft voice called his name so sweetly.
“Siwon?”
Heechul was really confused. Was it just him or was Siwons face moving closer? He closed his eyes when he felt his head throb. He could feel Siwons warm breath ghost over his face. There was a knock on the door making Siwon jump and Heechul groan while he clutched his head.
“Siwon breakfast is ready, so you better hurry before it all goes”
Siwon heard Hangengs footsteps retreat. Siwon shook his head what was he thinking? Heechul opened his eyes and looked up at him. Siwon sighed internally. Was it because they were so close that Heechul didn’t notice him? Heechul squeaked his he cupped his cheek. Would he really give up everything just to have Heechul? Siwon dropped his hand.
“Come on lets go”
Heechul followed behind him not saying anything. Whoever said silence screams to truth should win the Nobel Prize. The truth was something Siwon didn’t want to face. That’s probably why he all but dragged Heechul into the kitchen which was fuelled with laughter. Kyuhyun was upon them in a second relinquishing the two boys of the handcuffs that kept them connected.
When it came to noticing things Kyuhyun came second only to a very observative Heechul. He noticed that even if he had taken the handcuffs off, even though they had only been connected for a few days, they still moved as if they were still linked. Kangin would automatically shift when Leeteuk moved. Zhou Mi was practically glued to Henrys side. Donghae and Eunhyuk would move their hands at the same time. Heechul well he practically sat on Siwons lap and Hangeng moved in his seat as if he was still connected to them.
It was interesting very interesting. Detective Kyuhyun as he had nicknamed himself during this period watched all the members with great curiosity. While all the other e-handcuffed members had obviously grown closer there was something not right about the SiHanChul pair. It seemed as if they had gotten closer yet at the same time as if they drifted apart. Kyuhyun trained his eyes on Siwon who was feeding Heechul. He watched as blood trickled down Siwons nose before it was covered by a tissue. Had Siwons nose always been that sensitive? Hmmm maybe there was more to this investigation than he had originally thought.
Kyuhyun wanted to start investigating right away but there schedule didn’t allow it. They had to work extra hard to make up for the time that they had lost while Kibum was away. Leeteuk wanted to complain about Heechul and Hangeng but he couldn’t. There was obviously something wrong but at the same time it appeared like there wasn’t. The boys would sign just like the always used to but as soon as the spot light was off them they would retreat and immerse themselves in other things. What happened to the times that Heechul constantly claimed Hangengs attention Leeteuk sighed these boys were going to give him grey hairs.
Heechul sighed. It seemed like he and Hangeng had come to an agreement without any words. Siwon poked him on the arm and he looked up at him. Siwon didn’t know, in fact he was pretty sure that no one knew that he remembered the argument that had happened between him and Hangeng. He remembered everything how could he not when it hung over him like a plague. Even if he wanted to forget he couldn’t.
What annoyed Heechul the most was that he couldn’t bring himself to hate Hangeng. He tried to forget about Hangeng, tried to live without him but every time he did he felt dead. Siwon would come around like a heavenly angel and wipe all his pain away. Siwon would do something’s that would make him confused but with their busy schedules he didn’t have time to think about it. At night they would all come home completely exhausted. Heechul couldn’t stand being in the room with Hangeng but he did so to not raise suspicion. None of the members would have guessed that he was taking extremely strong sleeping pills ever night. No one knew and that was the way he liked it.
Siwon woke up one night panting. He had a nightmare, a beautiful nightmare. He clutched his chest where his heart was beating rapidly. He should be ashamed of the things he was dreaming but another part of his head loved it. Another part of him wanted it to be real. Siwon sighed and got out of bed no good was going to come out of just laying there awake. He almost screamed in fright when he saw something walking eerily in the hallway. He would have thought he imagined it if it wasn’t for his heart beating rapidly in his chest.
Slightly more awake then he was before he walked stealthily down the hallway. The weird creature slumped over the couch. There was the sound of something dropping followed by what sounded like rocks falling. Siwon turned the light on to find to very human legs draped over the couch. It took a second for his head to realise what was going on.
“Heechul”
Siwon ran over to the figure that was draped over the couch, that figure just happened to be the one and only Kim Heechul. Heechul looked up at him with slightly dazed eyes. Siwon had never been so scared in his life. Why did Heechul look like this?
“I should get Leeteuk”
Heechul reached out for him. Heechul mouth opened and moved but no sound came out. What had he done to get like this? Siwon really just wanted to run into Leeteuk room and wake the leader up. Leeteuk always knew what to do.
“Stay…Siwon stay with…”
Heechul head dropped to the side as he fell unconscious. Siwons fingers twitched. What should be do? Should he leave Heechul just to get Leeteuk or should e do as Heechul asked and stay? Siwon sighed, why was it everything difficult revolved around his beautiful Korean man. Siwon lifted Heechuls unconscious body and placed him on his lap. He didn’t want to move Heechul too much because he didn’t know what was wrong with him. Siwon watched over Heechul for the whole night scared that something bad might happen to the boy in his arms if he did fall asleep.
Leeteuk jumped in fright when a voice called out to him in the morning. He held a hand over his heart as he looked towards the couch. There others were normally still deeply asleep when he woke up.
“Oh Siwon you gave me a fright…Are you okay?”
Siwon looked horrible his eyes were completely red; it was almost as if he didn’t get any sleep during the night. Leeteuk walked over to him with concern written all over his face. Leeteuks eye softened when he saw Heechul sleeping peacefully in Siwons arms. Leeteuks words surprised Siwon leaving him stunned.
“You really care about him don’t you?”
There was something about the way that Leeteuk said it that had him frozen. Did Leeteuk know what he felt for Heechul? Leeteuk patted his head softly.
“Get to sleep Siwon, I’ll watch over him”
Siwon didn’t realise how tired he was until Leeteuks said that. He closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep within seconds. Leeteuk smiled warmly down at the two boys. He brushed that hair that had fallen over Siwons eyes to the side before sighing. These boys really where going to give him grey hairs and what where they doing sleeping here anyway? Leeteuk decided he would talk to them later for now he needed a nice warm strong cup of coffee.
Heechul stirred in his sleep, the movement cause Siwon to jump awake which normally would have woken Heechul up. Siwon inhaled a breath as he prepared for Heechul fit of rage. Siwon was surprised when it was still quiet. He looked down at the boy in his arms. Heechul didn’t wake up. Was this normal? Not for Heechul it wasn’t. Should he be worried? He thought back to how Heechul had acted last night, he did seem really tired, maybe that was the reason. It must be Siwon thought before he fell back asleep.
The two boys woke up to Leeteuk poking them. Heechul was seriously confused, when had Siwon gotten here and why was he one Siwons lap? Siwon let out a sigh of relief when he saw Heechul awake and looking at him with those beautifully sparkling eyes. HE had been scared that Heechul had been doing something stupid but thankfully it was just because Heechul was overtired. Heechul found it weird that Siwon looked as if he only had a few hours of sleep. He was about to ask when Leeteuk was all but shoving them out the door for their schedules. There was one thing that rang through Heechuls mind that made him freeze, his pills…last night…they had dropped…on the living room floor…
Luckily that night Heechul had easily been able to find his pills and very carefully he threw them away. No one ever knew that he had been talking them in excessive amounts, even he hadn’t realised. All he knew was that one sleeping pill hadn’t made him fall asleep like it used to, that night Siwon had found him he had actually taken quite a number of them in one go. Gladly he said goodbye to the pills, he would never be like that ever again.
Heechul decided that he needed to get over this whole thing with Hangeng. He had become dependent on alcohol for a while and almost got addicted to sleeping pills all because of this whole issue with Hangeng. If he didn’t do something about it know who knew what he would do later on. Heechul wanted to have a long and healthy life with the rest of super junior that wasn’t going to happen if Hangeng and he acted like this any longer. He needed to get over Hangeng and there was only one way to do that. Sighing Heechul stroked his beloved cat Heebum.
“What do you think?”
Heebum looked up at him with beautiful round eyes and he smiled.
Hangeng was by himself practicing when Heechul found him a few days later. Immediately Hangeng stopped what he was doing and turned his back to Heechul. How annoying that he had come here.
“What are you doing here?”
Hangeng stone was demanding. Heechul sighed inwardly trying to calm his fast beating heart.
“I can’t do this anymore. I’m over it and I’m over you”
Hangeng gave him a what-the-hell look. Hangeng shook his head deciding he didn’t care, Heechul walked out of the room. Now he can get over Hangeng, he had said it out loud to ensure that he will give up on Hangeng. Before he had fully walked out of the room he heard Hangeng say:
“You’re still disgusting”
Heechul stopped just outside of the door as it close behind him. He clamped a hand over his mouth as a sob struggled to break from his lips. This was the first step to getting over Hangeng so why did it hurt so much more? Heechul put up a front when he was in the presence of the other members. He would get over Hangeng; he promised himself that he would. Siwon was there for him every step of the way, even though he didn’t know it. Siwon was completely unaware of what had been going on between Heechul and Hangeng and maybe that was why Heechul used him like a rock, a support.
Without anything to aid his sadness Heechul was slowly going crazy. Alcohol used to create a haze for the problems to hide and the sleeping pill knocked him out so he didn’t have to face reality. One day Heechul was sitting on his bed, the other members were at a schedule. He was supposed to be there as well but his emotions had been getting the better of him and he didn’t want anyone around him if they exploded. Hangeng and him had pretended like everything was alright but Hangeng still ignored him. It wasn’t like he was expecting Hangeng to welcome him with open arms but he expected something to change. It was just crazy the way everything had turned out. Who would have thought that saying three simple words would rip two best friends so far apart? A sob escaped his lips and he glared. He wasn’t supposed to be like this anymore he couldn’t take it. He was supposed to be getting stronger but instead it just felt like everything was falling apart.
“He=Heechul?”
Heechuls head snapped up. No one was supposed to be home yet. Siwon approached his cautiously. What the hell was Siwon doing here? Heechul turned his head to the side do Siwon didn’t have to look at his tear stained face.
“Are you okay”
Heechul rolled his eyes. What a stupid question. The bed dipped slightly as new weight was added to it. Siwon cupped Heechuls cheek and turned Heechul face s he could see him. Siwon saw the tear stains and sighed. Why was it that even now Heechul tried to hide his pain from him? Siwon wiped the stains away gently with his thumb. Fresh tears poured from Heechul eyes and he wiped those away too. Siwon pulled Heechul into his arms as soon as Heechuls tears had stopped. Heechul inhaled Siwons scent. This man always seemed to know just what to do. It was like Siwon had calming powers that would wash his pain and sorrow away. Siwon sighed maybe one day he would tell Heechul how he felt.
A few days later Siwon walked into the living room with his bible in his hand. He paused in the doorway when he saw Heechul on the couch. He looked down at his bible then up at Heechul. God, Heechul. How could he ever choose between them. Heechul was on the same level as god. He loved them both equally. He sighed and was about to walk out of the room when he saw Heechuls shoulders shake. Immediately he put his bible on the table and stood in front of Heechul.
Heechul looked up at him his eyes glazed over. In that second Siwon didn’t need to think he knew the answer. He offered his hand to Heechul who looked up at him in confusion but took it and stood up anyway. Siwon wiped the tear the fell from Heechuls eye gently.
“Heechul…”
Heechuls eyes shined ever so brightly because of the tears that were welling up. Siwon wanted to take all Heechul pain away. He wanted to show Heechul that he would be there for him. That he would love Heechul with all his heart. That he was always there to provide a comforting shoulder and sweet kisses that would leave the older one dazed.
“Heechul I...”
Its just three simple words Siwon. Just tell him how you feel.
“Heechul I l…”
Heechul head turned away from Siwon as he felt a hand grab his other arm. Hangeng stood there holding his arm and pulling him away from Siwon. Siwon could only watch as Heechuls hand slipped from his. Heechuls eyes flickered to his at the very second before their hands separated. He watched as Heechul was pulled away from him. Maybe this was gods way of telling/warning him that what he had planned to do was a mistake. He crumpled to the couch and buried his head in his hands. If that was so then why did it hurt so much? Tears fell from Siwons eyes and he let them. It hurt.
Heechul was extremely confused when he saw Hangeng holding his arm but he had no choice to follow him. He didn’t want Siwon to see them argue again. Heechul groaned when he back met with the wall once they had gotten inside their shared room. Hangeng stood in front of him. Heechuls breath hitched slightly all the other times this Hangeng had him like this bad things happened.
Hangeng looked down at him. Heechul prepared himself whatever Hangeng was going to do to him he would send it right back to him tenfold. Heechul was prepared for anything, well at least that’s what he thought. Hangengs lips pressed gently against his was one of the things he never expected to happen not even in a million years. He was stunned. Hangeng pulled away only slightly. Heechul didn’t get it. Why was Hangeng looking at him like that? Why was…his thoughts were cut off when Hangeng pressed his lips against his again. He closed his eyes. A tear fell down his cheek; this was always what he wanted.
Hangengs lips moved against his. When had he started kissing back? He felt like he was in a state of bliss. Every fiber, every cell of his screamed out of Hangeng. Heechul placed a hand on Hangengs chest and pushed only lightly. He wasn’t even sure if he really wanted to stop. Hangeng moved away at the light pressure. Their heads were still so close.
“Wh-wh…”
Hangeng placed a finger on his lip silencing him. Hangeng looked down at the ground.
“Heechul…”
His name whispered from those lips sent shivers down his spine. Hangeng mumbled something under his breath.
“What?”
His was surprised to find himself whispering. Hangeng sighed and looked up at him in the eye.
“I love you”
Heechul blinked a few times had he heard right? Hangeng loved him?
“I love you and I shouldn’t. I love you but it’s wrong. I…”
Heechul placed his fingers against Hangeng lips. This man, the man he had loved since the very beginning loved him back. Those words were like music to his ears. He pressed his lips against Hangengs with urgency. Hangeng hesitated at first but he coaxed him in. The kiss was rough, filled with all the passion and love they had kept bottled up inside.
“Its wrong…Heechul”
Hangeng muttered through their kiss. Heechul pulled away slightly panting from lack of oxygen.
“If it was it wouldn’t feel so right”
“But…”
Heechul kissed him again before he could argue anymore. Hangeng gave in after all it felt so good to finally have the lips he always craved for against his. Happy tears slid down Heechul face and Hangeng pulled away wiping all of them. Hangeng looked at Heechul like a lost puppy.
“Why are you crying?”
Heechul smiled softly at him.
“It’s because I’m happy. I’ve wanted this for so long Hannie”
They both smiled at the name Heechul would sometimes accidently call him. Hangeng sighed and turned his head away. Heechul caught this action.
“Hannie what’s wrong?”
Hangeng sighed again before looking at him.
“There’s something I’ve always wanted…”
Hangeng turned his head away and backed off slightly. Heechul took a step forward, Hangeng sure was a confusing man. He was scared so scared that Hangeng would tell him this was all a joke. Heechul didn’t think his heart could take any of it. Still his asked his voice quivering with fear.
“What is it?”
Heechul yelped as he was swept off his feet. Hangeng held him in his arms bridal style.
“Heechul, I know that things have been absolutely terrible between us. I know that I’ve said some things to hurt you. Heechul I love you with my whole heart. I need you more than I need air. Please even after all I’ve done…please be my boyfriend”
Heechul blinked at Hangeng.
“You’re crazy if you think for one second…”
Hangeng flinched prepared for the worst. Heechuls eyes softened.
“That I won’t say yes”
Hangeng blinked at him for a second.
"So you'll stay with me"
Heechul smile at him.
"Only if you stay with me"
Hangengs lips sought out Heechuls. This was perfect they both thought. Hangeng twirled them in happiness and Heechul laughed. This was the beginning of a wonderful time in both their lives.
It someone had asked Heechul why he said yes to Hangeng after all he had been through. Heechul would look at them and answer their question with three simple words.
I love him.
A/N: SO its the end time to say goodbye and thank you. I'm not gonna cry Cries in the corner. Oh man this has been awesome. I want to thank all of you for reading and supporting this story, I couldn't have made this without your comments and your support. I hope it met all of you expectations, or at least came close to it. Well goodbye for now but not forever
Rating: PG-13 (adult themes)(substance abuse)
Genre: Angst, Drama
Pairing: HanChul, SiChul( unrequited love?)
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
Summary:Heechul finds himself deeply in love with his fellow super junior member Hangeng. Could this love be a blessing or is it a curse threatening to change everything he knows.
MASTERLIST
Chapter 1|| Chapter 2|| Chapter 3|| Chapter 4|| Chapter 5|| Chapter 6 || Chapter 7 || Chapter 8 || Chapter 9|| Chapter 10a | | Chapter 10b || Chapter 11|| Chapter 12 a|| Chapter 12b|| Chapter 13|| Chpater 14|| Chapter 15||
Chapter16 ||
All else was still in the super junior dorm. It was so silent that you could almost make out every single members breathing as they dreamt. The front door opening broke the silence.
They smiled as they were greeted by the familiar surroundings of the super junior dorm. He had only been gone for almost three days but it felt like an eternity. The first thing Kibum did was walking into his room and put the stuff he was carrying near his bed. How odd Siwon wasn’t there. Confusion filtered over Kibum. Kibums eyes caught the time how strange that no one else was up.
Kibum walked into the kitchen where Leeteuk would normally be with a warm cup of coffee in his hands. Only thing was that there was no one there. All the better Kibum thought as he pulled up his sleeves. He would make breakfast and then wake everyone up. The smell of Pancakes wafted into the air. Ah it smelt delicious.
Kibum sighed in satisfaction at his work. Two plates were piled high with pancakes and there were even strawberries as well. He patted himself on the back for a job well done. Well he had the food now all that was needed were the members. Kibum made his way to Leeteuk and Kangins shared room first. He found it weird that Kangin and Leeteuk were sleeping in the same bed. Had they all gone crazy in his absence?
“Hyung its time to wake up”
Kibum poked Leeteuk gently but the leader didn’t move. He signed before placing his arms on the leader shoulder shaking him gently. Kangin groaned and moved. Leeteuk for some reason moved with Kangin making Kibum fall on top of them both. Kibum yelped when something cold came in touch with his skin waking both Leeteuk and Kangin up.
“W-What’s …”
Leeteuk opened one eye sleepily.
“K-Kibum ?oh gosh KIBUM”
Leeteuk threw his arms around the younger one in joy. Kangin had barely opened his eyes before he found himself being yanked towards Kibum. Kibum was seriously confused as to what was going on. It was only when Leeteuk finally let him go that he noticed the handcuffs that were connecting Leeteuk to Kangin. Well that explained a lot…not really. Kibum decided that he didn’t want to ask and instead looked up at the slowly coming into awareness Leeteuk.
“I made breakfast”
Leeteuk pinched his cheeks and Kangin groaned complaining that his arm was now more a part of Leeteuk then him. When Leeteuk and Kangin finally got up Kibum realised exactly why he had woken them up first. If anyone could make the other members get up and out of bed it would be Leeteuk. He could even make the most stubbornest people Heechul get up when they really didn’t want to. Soon enough all the members were awake except Heechul and Hangeng, Kibum still didn’t know where Siwon was.
Heechul groaned as Siwon moved in his sleep. It may have been a small movement but to Heechul it felt as if the whole bed was rocking. Not to mention his head was in excruciating pain. BANG the door burst open.
“WOULD YOU PEOPLE…”
Heechul groaned even his own screams were hurting his head. Siwon jumped awake at Heechul screams and Hangeng groaned loudly at being woken up.
“K-Kibum!”
Heechul tried to punch Siwon for talking so loud but he had no idea where his hands were. Kibum stood in the door way looking at them all weirdly. They weren’t all handcuffed together were they? Hangeng rolled and looked over at the door. He didn’t blame for Kibum standing there with a confused look on his face. After all it’s not every day you see three grown men sleeping in the same bed and handcuffed together. Kibum shook his head pulling himself out of the trance he was in.
“Ummm breakfast is ready”
Kibum whispered it softly not wanting to anger what appeared t to be a hung over Heechul.
“MORNING!!!”
Kyuhyun burst into the room skipping. Heechul sent a death glare Kyuhyuns way as he clutched his head in pain. Kyuhyun ignored the glare as he unlocked the handcuff connection Heechul to Hangeng. He was about to unlock the one connecting Heechul to Siwon when he was pushed back. Heechul ran to the bathroom dragging a half asleep Siwon with him. Kibum eyed Kyuhyun.
“Ah so it was you who handcuffed all the members”
Kyuhyun sent his signature smirk Kibums way. Kibum just shook his head Kyuhyun was learning to many evil and cruel things from Heechul.
“So was it your idea to get them drunk as well?”
Kyuhyun looked down and shook his head.
“I should have thought of it but it was actually Sungmin”
Kibum sighed it seemed Heechul didn’t only influence Kyuhyun but sung min as well.
“Where is Sungmin anyway?”
A light seemed to go off in Kyuhyuns head as he ran out of the room. Kibum looked at Hangeng who just shrugged. Sighning Kibum walked out of the room. Hangeng was glad that he was finally free of Heechul. He looked down at his wrist where the handcuff used to be and smiled, well it was about time.
Siwon continued to rub Heechul back as he threw up all the toxic alcohol in his stomach. Siwon watched Heechul very carefully. Did he remember what had happened between him and Hangeng? Heechul looked up at him from under those thick black eyelashes. Siwon helped him to stand up and wash his face.
“Ugh I feel terrible”
“Well Leeteuk did tell you to stop numerous times”
Siwon could only smile as Heechul glared at him. Heechul rolled his eyes at him and groaned because it just made his head hurt more. He wanted to glare and Siwon when he moved his hand making the chain jingle. Siwon used his finger to make small circles all over Heechuls forehead. His hands faltered slightly when a sweet sound escaped Heechuls lips. Heechul looked up at him half dazed.
“Mmm that feels good”
Siwon swallowed the lump that formed in his throat. It’s a sin a sin Siwon kept repeating to himself. Heechul tilted his head cutely. Siwons chant turned from it’s a sin into he’s so pretty it’s a sin. He shook his head realising what he was saying. Heechul placed both of his hands on each side of Siwons face. Siwons eyes met with those beautiful sparkling brown orbs.
“Stop turning it’s making my head spin”
Heechul face was so close to his. Those lips if he reached out he could make them press against his. Siwon didn’t realise he had placed his free hand behind Heechul head until that soft voice called his name so sweetly.
“Siwon?”
Heechul was really confused. Was it just him or was Siwons face moving closer? He closed his eyes when he felt his head throb. He could feel Siwons warm breath ghost over his face. There was a knock on the door making Siwon jump and Heechul groan while he clutched his head.
“Siwon breakfast is ready, so you better hurry before it all goes”
Siwon heard Hangengs footsteps retreat. Siwon shook his head what was he thinking? Heechul opened his eyes and looked up at him. Siwon sighed internally. Was it because they were so close that Heechul didn’t notice him? Heechul squeaked his he cupped his cheek. Would he really give up everything just to have Heechul? Siwon dropped his hand.
“Come on lets go”
Heechul followed behind him not saying anything. Whoever said silence screams to truth should win the Nobel Prize. The truth was something Siwon didn’t want to face. That’s probably why he all but dragged Heechul into the kitchen which was fuelled with laughter. Kyuhyun was upon them in a second relinquishing the two boys of the handcuffs that kept them connected.
When it came to noticing things Kyuhyun came second only to a very observative Heechul. He noticed that even if he had taken the handcuffs off, even though they had only been connected for a few days, they still moved as if they were still linked. Kangin would automatically shift when Leeteuk moved. Zhou Mi was practically glued to Henrys side. Donghae and Eunhyuk would move their hands at the same time. Heechul well he practically sat on Siwons lap and Hangeng moved in his seat as if he was still connected to them.
It was interesting very interesting. Detective Kyuhyun as he had nicknamed himself during this period watched all the members with great curiosity. While all the other e-handcuffed members had obviously grown closer there was something not right about the SiHanChul pair. It seemed as if they had gotten closer yet at the same time as if they drifted apart. Kyuhyun trained his eyes on Siwon who was feeding Heechul. He watched as blood trickled down Siwons nose before it was covered by a tissue. Had Siwons nose always been that sensitive? Hmmm maybe there was more to this investigation than he had originally thought.
Kyuhyun wanted to start investigating right away but there schedule didn’t allow it. They had to work extra hard to make up for the time that they had lost while Kibum was away. Leeteuk wanted to complain about Heechul and Hangeng but he couldn’t. There was obviously something wrong but at the same time it appeared like there wasn’t. The boys would sign just like the always used to but as soon as the spot light was off them they would retreat and immerse themselves in other things. What happened to the times that Heechul constantly claimed Hangengs attention Leeteuk sighed these boys were going to give him grey hairs.
Heechul sighed. It seemed like he and Hangeng had come to an agreement without any words. Siwon poked him on the arm and he looked up at him. Siwon didn’t know, in fact he was pretty sure that no one knew that he remembered the argument that had happened between him and Hangeng. He remembered everything how could he not when it hung over him like a plague. Even if he wanted to forget he couldn’t.
What annoyed Heechul the most was that he couldn’t bring himself to hate Hangeng. He tried to forget about Hangeng, tried to live without him but every time he did he felt dead. Siwon would come around like a heavenly angel and wipe all his pain away. Siwon would do something’s that would make him confused but with their busy schedules he didn’t have time to think about it. At night they would all come home completely exhausted. Heechul couldn’t stand being in the room with Hangeng but he did so to not raise suspicion. None of the members would have guessed that he was taking extremely strong sleeping pills ever night. No one knew and that was the way he liked it.
Siwon woke up one night panting. He had a nightmare, a beautiful nightmare. He clutched his chest where his heart was beating rapidly. He should be ashamed of the things he was dreaming but another part of his head loved it. Another part of him wanted it to be real. Siwon sighed and got out of bed no good was going to come out of just laying there awake. He almost screamed in fright when he saw something walking eerily in the hallway. He would have thought he imagined it if it wasn’t for his heart beating rapidly in his chest.
Slightly more awake then he was before he walked stealthily down the hallway. The weird creature slumped over the couch. There was the sound of something dropping followed by what sounded like rocks falling. Siwon turned the light on to find to very human legs draped over the couch. It took a second for his head to realise what was going on.
“Heechul”
Siwon ran over to the figure that was draped over the couch, that figure just happened to be the one and only Kim Heechul. Heechul looked up at him with slightly dazed eyes. Siwon had never been so scared in his life. Why did Heechul look like this?
“I should get Leeteuk”
Heechul reached out for him. Heechul mouth opened and moved but no sound came out. What had he done to get like this? Siwon really just wanted to run into Leeteuk room and wake the leader up. Leeteuk always knew what to do.
“Stay…Siwon stay with…”
Heechul head dropped to the side as he fell unconscious. Siwons fingers twitched. What should be do? Should he leave Heechul just to get Leeteuk or should e do as Heechul asked and stay? Siwon sighed, why was it everything difficult revolved around his beautiful Korean man. Siwon lifted Heechuls unconscious body and placed him on his lap. He didn’t want to move Heechul too much because he didn’t know what was wrong with him. Siwon watched over Heechul for the whole night scared that something bad might happen to the boy in his arms if he did fall asleep.
Leeteuk jumped in fright when a voice called out to him in the morning. He held a hand over his heart as he looked towards the couch. There others were normally still deeply asleep when he woke up.
“Oh Siwon you gave me a fright…Are you okay?”
Siwon looked horrible his eyes were completely red; it was almost as if he didn’t get any sleep during the night. Leeteuk walked over to him with concern written all over his face. Leeteuks eye softened when he saw Heechul sleeping peacefully in Siwons arms. Leeteuks words surprised Siwon leaving him stunned.
“You really care about him don’t you?”
There was something about the way that Leeteuk said it that had him frozen. Did Leeteuk know what he felt for Heechul? Leeteuk patted his head softly.
“Get to sleep Siwon, I’ll watch over him”
Siwon didn’t realise how tired he was until Leeteuks said that. He closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep within seconds. Leeteuk smiled warmly down at the two boys. He brushed that hair that had fallen over Siwons eyes to the side before sighing. These boys really where going to give him grey hairs and what where they doing sleeping here anyway? Leeteuk decided he would talk to them later for now he needed a nice warm strong cup of coffee.
Heechul stirred in his sleep, the movement cause Siwon to jump awake which normally would have woken Heechul up. Siwon inhaled a breath as he prepared for Heechul fit of rage. Siwon was surprised when it was still quiet. He looked down at the boy in his arms. Heechul didn’t wake up. Was this normal? Not for Heechul it wasn’t. Should he be worried? He thought back to how Heechul had acted last night, he did seem really tired, maybe that was the reason. It must be Siwon thought before he fell back asleep.
The two boys woke up to Leeteuk poking them. Heechul was seriously confused, when had Siwon gotten here and why was he one Siwons lap? Siwon let out a sigh of relief when he saw Heechul awake and looking at him with those beautifully sparkling eyes. HE had been scared that Heechul had been doing something stupid but thankfully it was just because Heechul was overtired. Heechul found it weird that Siwon looked as if he only had a few hours of sleep. He was about to ask when Leeteuk was all but shoving them out the door for their schedules. There was one thing that rang through Heechuls mind that made him freeze, his pills…last night…they had dropped…on the living room floor…
Luckily that night Heechul had easily been able to find his pills and very carefully he threw them away. No one ever knew that he had been talking them in excessive amounts, even he hadn’t realised. All he knew was that one sleeping pill hadn’t made him fall asleep like it used to, that night Siwon had found him he had actually taken quite a number of them in one go. Gladly he said goodbye to the pills, he would never be like that ever again.
Heechul decided that he needed to get over this whole thing with Hangeng. He had become dependent on alcohol for a while and almost got addicted to sleeping pills all because of this whole issue with Hangeng. If he didn’t do something about it know who knew what he would do later on. Heechul wanted to have a long and healthy life with the rest of super junior that wasn’t going to happen if Hangeng and he acted like this any longer. He needed to get over Hangeng and there was only one way to do that. Sighing Heechul stroked his beloved cat Heebum.
“What do you think?”
Heebum looked up at him with beautiful round eyes and he smiled.
Hangeng was by himself practicing when Heechul found him a few days later. Immediately Hangeng stopped what he was doing and turned his back to Heechul. How annoying that he had come here.
“What are you doing here?”
Hangeng stone was demanding. Heechul sighed inwardly trying to calm his fast beating heart.
“I can’t do this anymore. I’m over it and I’m over you”
Hangeng gave him a what-the-hell look. Hangeng shook his head deciding he didn’t care, Heechul walked out of the room. Now he can get over Hangeng, he had said it out loud to ensure that he will give up on Hangeng. Before he had fully walked out of the room he heard Hangeng say:
“You’re still disgusting”
Heechul stopped just outside of the door as it close behind him. He clamped a hand over his mouth as a sob struggled to break from his lips. This was the first step to getting over Hangeng so why did it hurt so much more? Heechul put up a front when he was in the presence of the other members. He would get over Hangeng; he promised himself that he would. Siwon was there for him every step of the way, even though he didn’t know it. Siwon was completely unaware of what had been going on between Heechul and Hangeng and maybe that was why Heechul used him like a rock, a support.
Without anything to aid his sadness Heechul was slowly going crazy. Alcohol used to create a haze for the problems to hide and the sleeping pill knocked him out so he didn’t have to face reality. One day Heechul was sitting on his bed, the other members were at a schedule. He was supposed to be there as well but his emotions had been getting the better of him and he didn’t want anyone around him if they exploded. Hangeng and him had pretended like everything was alright but Hangeng still ignored him. It wasn’t like he was expecting Hangeng to welcome him with open arms but he expected something to change. It was just crazy the way everything had turned out. Who would have thought that saying three simple words would rip two best friends so far apart? A sob escaped his lips and he glared. He wasn’t supposed to be like this anymore he couldn’t take it. He was supposed to be getting stronger but instead it just felt like everything was falling apart.
“He=Heechul?”
Heechuls head snapped up. No one was supposed to be home yet. Siwon approached his cautiously. What the hell was Siwon doing here? Heechul turned his head to the side do Siwon didn’t have to look at his tear stained face.
“Are you okay”
Heechul rolled his eyes. What a stupid question. The bed dipped slightly as new weight was added to it. Siwon cupped Heechuls cheek and turned Heechul face s he could see him. Siwon saw the tear stains and sighed. Why was it that even now Heechul tried to hide his pain from him? Siwon wiped the stains away gently with his thumb. Fresh tears poured from Heechul eyes and he wiped those away too. Siwon pulled Heechul into his arms as soon as Heechuls tears had stopped. Heechul inhaled Siwons scent. This man always seemed to know just what to do. It was like Siwon had calming powers that would wash his pain and sorrow away. Siwon sighed maybe one day he would tell Heechul how he felt.
A few days later Siwon walked into the living room with his bible in his hand. He paused in the doorway when he saw Heechul on the couch. He looked down at his bible then up at Heechul. God, Heechul. How could he ever choose between them. Heechul was on the same level as god. He loved them both equally. He sighed and was about to walk out of the room when he saw Heechuls shoulders shake. Immediately he put his bible on the table and stood in front of Heechul.
Heechul looked up at him his eyes glazed over. In that second Siwon didn’t need to think he knew the answer. He offered his hand to Heechul who looked up at him in confusion but took it and stood up anyway. Siwon wiped the tear the fell from Heechuls eye gently.
“Heechul…”
Heechuls eyes shined ever so brightly because of the tears that were welling up. Siwon wanted to take all Heechul pain away. He wanted to show Heechul that he would be there for him. That he would love Heechul with all his heart. That he was always there to provide a comforting shoulder and sweet kisses that would leave the older one dazed.
“Heechul I...”
Its just three simple words Siwon. Just tell him how you feel.
“Heechul I l…”
Heechul head turned away from Siwon as he felt a hand grab his other arm. Hangeng stood there holding his arm and pulling him away from Siwon. Siwon could only watch as Heechuls hand slipped from his. Heechuls eyes flickered to his at the very second before their hands separated. He watched as Heechul was pulled away from him. Maybe this was gods way of telling/warning him that what he had planned to do was a mistake. He crumpled to the couch and buried his head in his hands. If that was so then why did it hurt so much? Tears fell from Siwons eyes and he let them. It hurt.
Heechul was extremely confused when he saw Hangeng holding his arm but he had no choice to follow him. He didn’t want Siwon to see them argue again. Heechul groaned when he back met with the wall once they had gotten inside their shared room. Hangeng stood in front of him. Heechuls breath hitched slightly all the other times this Hangeng had him like this bad things happened.
Hangeng looked down at him. Heechul prepared himself whatever Hangeng was going to do to him he would send it right back to him tenfold. Heechul was prepared for anything, well at least that’s what he thought. Hangengs lips pressed gently against his was one of the things he never expected to happen not even in a million years. He was stunned. Hangeng pulled away only slightly. Heechul didn’t get it. Why was Hangeng looking at him like that? Why was…his thoughts were cut off when Hangeng pressed his lips against his again. He closed his eyes. A tear fell down his cheek; this was always what he wanted.
Hangengs lips moved against his. When had he started kissing back? He felt like he was in a state of bliss. Every fiber, every cell of his screamed out of Hangeng. Heechul placed a hand on Hangengs chest and pushed only lightly. He wasn’t even sure if he really wanted to stop. Hangeng moved away at the light pressure. Their heads were still so close.
“Wh-wh…”
Hangeng placed a finger on his lip silencing him. Hangeng looked down at the ground.
“Heechul…”
His name whispered from those lips sent shivers down his spine. Hangeng mumbled something under his breath.
“What?”
His was surprised to find himself whispering. Hangeng sighed and looked up at him in the eye.
“I love you”
Heechul blinked a few times had he heard right? Hangeng loved him?
“I love you and I shouldn’t. I love you but it’s wrong. I…”
Heechul placed his fingers against Hangeng lips. This man, the man he had loved since the very beginning loved him back. Those words were like music to his ears. He pressed his lips against Hangengs with urgency. Hangeng hesitated at first but he coaxed him in. The kiss was rough, filled with all the passion and love they had kept bottled up inside.
“Its wrong…Heechul”
Hangeng muttered through their kiss. Heechul pulled away slightly panting from lack of oxygen.
“If it was it wouldn’t feel so right”
“But…”
Heechul kissed him again before he could argue anymore. Hangeng gave in after all it felt so good to finally have the lips he always craved for against his. Happy tears slid down Heechul face and Hangeng pulled away wiping all of them. Hangeng looked at Heechul like a lost puppy.
“Why are you crying?”
Heechul smiled softly at him.
“It’s because I’m happy. I’ve wanted this for so long Hannie”
They both smiled at the name Heechul would sometimes accidently call him. Hangeng sighed and turned his head away. Heechul caught this action.
“Hannie what’s wrong?”
Hangeng sighed again before looking at him.
“There’s something I’ve always wanted…”
Hangeng turned his head away and backed off slightly. Heechul took a step forward, Hangeng sure was a confusing man. He was scared so scared that Hangeng would tell him this was all a joke. Heechul didn’t think his heart could take any of it. Still his asked his voice quivering with fear.
“What is it?”
Heechul yelped as he was swept off his feet. Hangeng held him in his arms bridal style.
“Heechul, I know that things have been absolutely terrible between us. I know that I’ve said some things to hurt you. Heechul I love you with my whole heart. I need you more than I need air. Please even after all I’ve done…please be my boyfriend”
Heechul blinked at Hangeng.
“You’re crazy if you think for one second…”
Hangeng flinched prepared for the worst. Heechuls eyes softened.
“That I won’t say yes”
Hangeng blinked at him for a second.
"So you'll stay with me"
Heechul smile at him.
"Only if you stay with me"
Hangengs lips sought out Heechuls. This was perfect they both thought. Hangeng twirled them in happiness and Heechul laughed. This was the beginning of a wonderful time in both their lives.
It someone had asked Heechul why he said yes to Hangeng after all he had been through. Heechul would look at them and answer their question with three simple words.
I love him.
A/N: SO its the end time to say goodbye and thank you. I'm not gonna cry Cries in the corner. Oh man this has been awesome. I want to thank all of you for reading and supporting this story, I couldn't have made this without your comments and your support. I hope it met all of you expectations, or at least came close to it. Well goodbye for now but not forever