if you should leave me (flashfic challenge #5: just for one day) pg
if you should leave me
357 wds. pg.
- kyuhyun/donghae; no names
author pureuda
summary sometimes you come to love a person just when you realize that that person doesn't love you back - one of life's small miseries that you grow both to love and hate.
disclaimer super junior © sm entertainment.
it's been three years and there are so many things i want to say to you. i don't think you've changed very much; you, who will laugh at any joke; you, who will cry at every movie; you, who will never stop fretting about your height (you are almost as bad as hyukjae).
and i want you to take me by the hand and say, "oh, it's you, it's you, i've missed you so so so much my heart hurts every moment of the day" but i know it doesn't work like that.
do you still remember? one fine day, when we were a little bit more innocent and lax and could afford to be shallow and materialistic. you took me to the city and i've learned more in those six wild hours than i had in eighteen years of living. "maybe we're tired," you said, basking in the afterglow because it always hurts you to talk for very long.
i said, "i haven't been living before today."
you said, "i'm glad i met someone like you" and then you left me.
the sun goes down and i'm fine; the sun comes up and i'm fine. for a while i thought that maybe we could pretend to be star-crossed lovers. for a while i deluded myself in dreams of running away with you and living our lives like a romantic fairytale. i indulged on impulses, wants (not needs), desires, thoughts, hopes. and then i realized:
you never loved me.
three years in vain; i want to find you and tell all these silly, trivial things i've combed through and recorded into a spiral notebook because i know that they'll make you laugh, whether you've changed or not. i want to find you and sing you small songs that i've came up on a whim because i know that you'll like them.
so just for one day, take my breath away; take my arms and dance; take me into your embrace and whisper into my ear, "baby baby baby, hello hello hello can you hear me because i've missed you"; just once, before i ever forget this happened.