SM Entertainment Audition
Ok, I'm sure you've all heard that SME is holding their global auditions next year in Asia and North America. Luckily, they happen to be making a stop here in Toronto, my (and Mochi's) home city.
Since they're stopping in Toronto, me and one of my friends are planning to audition to get in. She's planning to model, and I'm planning to sing. The thing is, she's actually got modeling experience, and I dropped music after grade 9, so my experience with music is very minimal...
Seeing as this is a once-in-a-lifetime thing, I really wanna go for it, but I can't help but worry over what happens after.
If I do (miraculously) get accepted, that would mean throwing the future I worked for up to now away. I studied my butt off to earn myself a 91% average for University, which would guarantee me a spot in the program I want to apply for.
But, I don't know if this is what I want to do in life anymore. Ok truth be told, I actually wanted to get into the arts when I was young, particularly I wanted to be a ballerina, but my dream was shot down by my appa (like a hunter shooting down Bambi's mom honestly).
Then in Grade 6, when I picked up playing the violin, I wanted to become a professional violinist, but once again, that idea was shot down. Yeah, cuz according to appa, a career in the arts is well...stupid.
That's why I tell people that I wanted to become a lawyer or teacher or social worker, and now government work, cuz these are considered "appropriate careers" to my appa (ok social worker not really, he thinks that's dumb too...). As a result, I had to drop music after grade 9 to make room for courses that I needed.
Now that I've become a hardcore kpop listener, I can't help but think what if? What if I did get the chance to become a singer, and realize my childhood dream of joining the arts? Do I go for it, knowing that a) I'm throwing aside all the work I've done for a future I had to build for myself, and now that I'm so close, do I really risk it; b) If my appa finds out, I could get kicked out for being..."stupid as usual", and there's no where I can go after that.
Then again, this is something that I've always wanted to do. Do I risk it or play it safe?
Since they're stopping in Toronto, me and one of my friends are planning to audition to get in. She's planning to model, and I'm planning to sing. The thing is, she's actually got modeling experience, and I dropped music after grade 9, so my experience with music is very minimal...
Seeing as this is a once-in-a-lifetime thing, I really wanna go for it, but I can't help but worry over what happens after.
If I do (miraculously) get accepted, that would mean throwing the future I worked for up to now away. I studied my butt off to earn myself a 91% average for University, which would guarantee me a spot in the program I want to apply for.
But, I don't know if this is what I want to do in life anymore. Ok truth be told, I actually wanted to get into the arts when I was young, particularly I wanted to be a ballerina, but my dream was shot down by my appa (like a hunter shooting down Bambi's mom honestly).
Then in Grade 6, when I picked up playing the violin, I wanted to become a professional violinist, but once again, that idea was shot down. Yeah, cuz according to appa, a career in the arts is well...stupid.
That's why I tell people that I wanted to become a lawyer or teacher or social worker, and now government work, cuz these are considered "appropriate careers" to my appa (ok social worker not really, he thinks that's dumb too...). As a result, I had to drop music after grade 9 to make room for courses that I needed.
Now that I've become a hardcore kpop listener, I can't help but think what if? What if I did get the chance to become a singer, and realize my childhood dream of joining the arts? Do I go for it, knowing that a) I'm throwing aside all the work I've done for a future I had to build for myself, and now that I'm so close, do I really risk it; b) If my appa finds out, I could get kicked out for being..."stupid as usual", and there's no where I can go after that.
Then again, this is something that I've always wanted to do. Do I risk it or play it safe?