Brain Medicine
I am starting brain medicine today. Ok, it's not serious brain medicine, just stuff to prevent so many headaches and migraines. Apparently it's an anti-seizure medicine that also helps with headaches and sleeping. I had to wrangle the neurologist, insurance company, and pharmacy to get my prescription filled. That's annoying. It took me two weeks! Anyways, I will start it tonight and I'm a little apprehensive.
I mean, it's meds for my brain. Side effects include: arms and legs tingling, sleepiness, can't remember words (!!), carbonated beverages tastes bad, loss of appetite and weight loss. Ok, those last three seem more like perks than drawbacks, but the word thing makes me nervous.
What if I don't just forget words (it's like a really mild form of aphasia I believe)? What if I forget my second language? I already suck and struggle to remember vocabulary. Wouldn't it be sad if that was what I forget. Screw English. Despite how I present myself online, I'm actually good at English. I have a large vocab. Well, at least, large enough that I can forget words and still communicate. Ah well..it's a dumb worry, but one I have. I can ask the PA about it when I see her next month.
She wants me to have an MRI. I think it's just to make 100% sure there's nothing there, but I think she's 99.9% sure I don't have a tumor. If that's the case, then I think I will opt out of the MRI. It costs $2000! I don't have that kind of scratch (my deductible is stupidly high and I didn't find out I might need an MRI until AFTER open enrollment this year...dumb!) I'm sure I don't have a tumor. I think she just wants to see my brain because she's a voyeur. Also, because she knows I must have an extraordinary brain and wants to study me for science. Sure...that sounds like a thing...a thing they would do...
I mean, it's meds for my brain. Side effects include: arms and legs tingling, sleepiness, can't remember words (!!), carbonated beverages tastes bad, loss of appetite and weight loss. Ok, those last three seem more like perks than drawbacks, but the word thing makes me nervous.
What if I don't just forget words (it's like a really mild form of aphasia I believe)? What if I forget my second language? I already suck and struggle to remember vocabulary. Wouldn't it be sad if that was what I forget. Screw English. Despite how I present myself online, I'm actually good at English. I have a large vocab. Well, at least, large enough that I can forget words and still communicate. Ah well..it's a dumb worry, but one I have. I can ask the PA about it when I see her next month.
She wants me to have an MRI. I think it's just to make 100% sure there's nothing there, but I think she's 99.9% sure I don't have a tumor. If that's the case, then I think I will opt out of the MRI. It costs $2000! I don't have that kind of scratch (my deductible is stupidly high and I didn't find out I might need an MRI until AFTER open enrollment this year...dumb!) I'm sure I don't have a tumor. I think she just wants to see my brain because she's a voyeur. Also, because she knows I must have an extraordinary brain and wants to study me for science. Sure...that sounds like a thing...a thing they would do...