thoughts...
so i havent written in this thing for how long? actually i forgot that i even had this thing. so anyway instead of writing about my day or whats going on (since i already do that on xanga) i think i should just babble about whats goin on my empty head of mine. i found out that i was being played around with the other day...but then i realized that i was probably doing the same. but i wasnt sure...yeah this is really helping. i stared a poem 2 days ago in the music room while jeremy was studying and everyone else was playin gin rummy. i had all the churned up anger from that person and started to write. but instead of him, i started to write about my past again. for those who have read my earlier poems, ive written one of my past. but its not very good at explaining. it dwells too much on the past. so i started writing on what i was thinking, feeling, and believing in. and i got a whole page down. then i got salsa all over it later. but thats besides the point. i realized that as i was writing..i was getting stronger. i was learning...and also that if i was ever haunted by the past again...i dont think id be able to take it. ill let u guys read it when its done.