This could get hard.
Boy does that ever sound dirty!
Anyway, I had a great day today meeting fellow Dean Winchester lovers, but I gotta admit it has been dimmed a little. More troubles with my good friend.
A little back story first. I got the idea to switch pronouns at the very least for one day. I want to try it out on Saturday for my birthday party, have my friends start calling me he and see how it feels and if I'm ready for it. I thought it was a great idea and I was totally psyched until I talked to one of my best friends who'll be at the party.
He's having the hardest time with this all. Like, really hard time. He's gone as far as saying things like he doesn't know if he'll ever be able to see me as guy, or understand and what not. Coming from him, it's pretty hard for me to deal with, and even though I'm doing my best not to take it personally, it's impossible for me to not be a little hurt by the fact that here's my best friend basically saying he doesn't know if he can ever accept who I am. I thought maybe the fact that I have so much trouble feeling accepted by my mom would make it easier, but I think it just makes it harder. He's agreed to use neutral pronouns, which I'm cool with, but he says he'd feel really uncomfortable with male pronouns.
Honestly I'm at a loss. On the one hand I think it's great that he's ok with neutral pronouns I would feel totally selfish if I was like "neutral isn't good enough" on the other hand I wanna cry.
Edit: I am crying now and just had my first "Why the fuck did I have to get stuck with this?!" moment.
Anyway, I had a great day today meeting fellow Dean Winchester lovers, but I gotta admit it has been dimmed a little. More troubles with my good friend.
A little back story first. I got the idea to switch pronouns at the very least for one day. I want to try it out on Saturday for my birthday party, have my friends start calling me he and see how it feels and if I'm ready for it. I thought it was a great idea and I was totally psyched until I talked to one of my best friends who'll be at the party.
He's having the hardest time with this all. Like, really hard time. He's gone as far as saying things like he doesn't know if he'll ever be able to see me as guy, or understand and what not. Coming from him, it's pretty hard for me to deal with, and even though I'm doing my best not to take it personally, it's impossible for me to not be a little hurt by the fact that here's my best friend basically saying he doesn't know if he can ever accept who I am. I thought maybe the fact that I have so much trouble feeling accepted by my mom would make it easier, but I think it just makes it harder. He's agreed to use neutral pronouns, which I'm cool with, but he says he'd feel really uncomfortable with male pronouns.
Honestly I'm at a loss. On the one hand I think it's great that he's ok with neutral pronouns I would feel totally selfish if I was like "neutral isn't good enough" on the other hand I wanna cry.
Edit: I am crying now and just had my first "Why the fuck did I have to get stuck with this?!" moment.