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on another note. there is this girl that i have been dreaming about constantly. normally in dreams i cannot see faces but i can see her clear as if i were looking you in the eyes right now. i can see her, smell her, hear her voice, feel her touch. i cant stop thinking about her during the day either. im stuck in this hell hole of iraq and i can think of nothing but her. i long to be with her, hold her hand, give her everything she ever wants or needs. my body aches in the mornings i dream of her because i dont want to get out of bed. when i wake i feel as if im being ripped in two. my unconsious wants to take over my consious to keep me in that dream because while im with her im truly happy. i think im losing my mind. i usually just think about getting into girls pants... but i just want to get into her heart. maybe some day that time will come. until then i must continue to make myself better. if some day that opportunity presents itself i will be ready. i will be waiting. now i know how it feels to want. now i know what it feels like to need. the dreams are simple ones, maybe dinner and a movie. or just a lazy day at the house, im literally dating my dream girl in my mind. i gotta go though so i hope everyone enjoys my pain.