books
okay so have you ever had a teacher assign a book for the whole class to read and you actually read it? well the past two books that mrs. holly assigned i actually read. amazing huh! niquea read? pfft... well i did and i actually learned a hell of a lot from these two books about my life. i read "catcher in the rye" and "the great gatsby" i do believe if we did not go over these books in class and tear them up sentence by sentence that i would not have found the significance. im glad i know how to look for the deeper meaning in books now tho... what i learned from these two books was a lot of things... for one and most importantly, everybody puts on a costume when they wake up in the morning, weather its just a little makeup or maybe its an entire personality... i mean entire personality... ive looked around after reading these books and i can see what each person does to make themselves to seem like more in cirtain perspects... some people around me change almost everything around them to better fit their character and this always seems to amaze me. i grew up and was taught better than that. i didnt think it was possible for people to do this and get awawy with it, this makes me sad, my eyes had to be opened by these two books. crazy... now that i sound like a teacher...lol on to other things... okay well im always at work.. either im at school or work or with ruben, im always busy... i realized yesterday that im having the hardest time finding time to fit in my best friend into my schedule and it shouldn't be that way... for the next week tho ruben is going to be out of town so maybe ill spend most of it with danny and nina. that would be fun... all my normal daily routines are gone for another week so i can see my self now being lonlier than hell for christmas without my boyfriend and school to keep my occupied. im a little worried... well actually really worried... oh well ill have to see how this goes and if i get way to sad... i could always just slit my wrists and write emo on my head! lol... okay well im off to go find something to do..... oh hey did i mention that i got a car! hell yes i love it! toyota celica 95' white convertable with a black top! its sooooooo nice! call me if you haven't seen it and well meet up so i can show it off! lol jk... call me if your lonly too and well chill!
peace...
peace...