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Today I met with Sanghoon to pick up a girl arriving from Korea. On the way to the airport we had a talk. About a year ago I told him about my tactic for finding a girlfriend - I meet many girls and agree to hang out with them on different days, that way if one turns me down or cancels, I won't feel bad because I have someone on the next day.
He asked if I still do this. No way. I don't care anymore. I've concluded that I must be doing something wrong. Jamie, Saori, Soraya, Marium, Hanul and Yui. These are the girls that I asked out last year. All of them said no. Soraya had a boyfriend and I didn't really know her, Saori I have already written about. The others....I don't really know what to say. I have also attempted flirting with other girls but to no avail. Thus, I've concluded that something I'm doing is wrong.
I'm not sad, I'm just contemplative. Rather than getting depressed I am kind of frustrated. Am I aiming just a little too high for my standards? Are the girls I'm aiming for too beautiful? I get the feeling that girls like me but think that they could do better than me. Those Korean teachers that came had fun talking to me but when I asked the two out to a bar they kept postponing it. Then I got an email two nights before they were leaving that that wanted to do something. I didn't bother. When the Hiroshima students came I didn't bother because I was already subscribing to this frame of thought. The funny thing is I bet I had a chance with one. Figures when I give up that happens.
I don't like certain this about myself. There are things I do like, but I'm obsessed with one thing...My confidence has gone down alot since last year. that must be why I think the girls I like think they can do better than me. Probably because I think they can do better than me. (the girls that like me I think I can do better than....so maybe it's karma getting back at me).
In digression, I like this new girl and I like Soo Hyeon. Though I'm definately leaving for Japan this summer, I wouldn't mind having a relationship with either of them, but at this point I don't care. I think they'll end up thinking I'm a nice guy but not quite up to their standards.
He asked if I still do this. No way. I don't care anymore. I've concluded that I must be doing something wrong. Jamie, Saori, Soraya, Marium, Hanul and Yui. These are the girls that I asked out last year. All of them said no. Soraya had a boyfriend and I didn't really know her, Saori I have already written about. The others....I don't really know what to say. I have also attempted flirting with other girls but to no avail. Thus, I've concluded that something I'm doing is wrong.
I'm not sad, I'm just contemplative. Rather than getting depressed I am kind of frustrated. Am I aiming just a little too high for my standards? Are the girls I'm aiming for too beautiful? I get the feeling that girls like me but think that they could do better than me. Those Korean teachers that came had fun talking to me but when I asked the two out to a bar they kept postponing it. Then I got an email two nights before they were leaving that that wanted to do something. I didn't bother. When the Hiroshima students came I didn't bother because I was already subscribing to this frame of thought. The funny thing is I bet I had a chance with one. Figures when I give up that happens.
I don't like certain this about myself. There are things I do like, but I'm obsessed with one thing...My confidence has gone down alot since last year. that must be why I think the girls I like think they can do better than me. Probably because I think they can do better than me. (the girls that like me I think I can do better than....so maybe it's karma getting back at me).
In digression, I like this new girl and I like Soo Hyeon. Though I'm definately leaving for Japan this summer, I wouldn't mind having a relationship with either of them, but at this point I don't care. I think they'll end up thinking I'm a nice guy but not quite up to their standards.