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I have not written here for a while. Actually, I'm not exactly sure what I use LJ for anymore. For a while, last year, it was my art blog. Recently I haven't had any time to do art or music. Just Japanese. And I'm still kinda sucking it up in that class. What am I doing majoring in a language anyway? Well, maybe I'm just stressing out, becuase this class isn't even modern Japanese; the stuff I learn in it can hardly be applied to modern conversations.
So I'm sitting here, in a room in David's house, trying to remember what I wanted to write last night. I'm sure I'll read this about a year from now(hairless) and instantly remember everything I wanted to say.
I'm listening to Of Montreal right now.
Monday was the first time I hung out with Saori since the show. We went to dinner and to LeeLee. It was really doing boring stuff with her. Last night, too. She and I went to Phoenicia(the food was dry for some reason) and then went back to Hayden to study for a bit. She fell asleep and I started rading her text. I realized that what she's doing in this country is way harder than anything I'm doing here. Japanese people have an advantage language-wise, they have no choice but to study a foreign language starting at middle school. We have to CHOOSE ours when we finally have time to.
Anyway, I like her alot. Alot more than I ought to. When I like a girl, I try to keep a few other girls that I also like, around. Well, the difference between her and them in substantial. She's really chill, a great person to talk to, and she likes good music. She's really kind and polite to everyone. She's really beautiful, even with her glasses on. When I'm with her now, sometimes, it kind of hurts; I just want to grab her hand.
Sometimes, she and I hang out like we did last night. The thing is, she's hung out alone with that John guy. While I'm pretty sure she would never go for someone like him, it makes me wonder if she treats me that same way when we hang out.
The problem is she has a boyfriend. She's been with him for 7 months before America. While that doesn't seem too serious, I don't think she's the kind of person to break up with him because they're apart. I'm pretty sure she has no idea what she wants to do. Actually....even though I want to be with her, I don't want her to break up with her boyfriend, if she really likes him. I don't know what she really thinks about him, but she seems to be the kind of person that: if she doesn't know what to do she won't fix anything that's not broken.
I suppose that the best course of action is to be her friend. To overcome the feelings I have and just remain friends. If something happens between them; i.e. her boyfriend breaks up with her, I can be there for her.
So I'm sitting here, in a room in David's house, trying to remember what I wanted to write last night. I'm sure I'll read this about a year from now(hairless) and instantly remember everything I wanted to say.
I'm listening to Of Montreal right now.
Monday was the first time I hung out with Saori since the show. We went to dinner and to LeeLee. It was really doing boring stuff with her. Last night, too. She and I went to Phoenicia(the food was dry for some reason) and then went back to Hayden to study for a bit. She fell asleep and I started rading her text. I realized that what she's doing in this country is way harder than anything I'm doing here. Japanese people have an advantage language-wise, they have no choice but to study a foreign language starting at middle school. We have to CHOOSE ours when we finally have time to.
Anyway, I like her alot. Alot more than I ought to. When I like a girl, I try to keep a few other girls that I also like, around. Well, the difference between her and them in substantial. She's really chill, a great person to talk to, and she likes good music. She's really kind and polite to everyone. She's really beautiful, even with her glasses on. When I'm with her now, sometimes, it kind of hurts; I just want to grab her hand.
Sometimes, she and I hang out like we did last night. The thing is, she's hung out alone with that John guy. While I'm pretty sure she would never go for someone like him, it makes me wonder if she treats me that same way when we hang out.
The problem is she has a boyfriend. She's been with him for 7 months before America. While that doesn't seem too serious, I don't think she's the kind of person to break up with him because they're apart. I'm pretty sure she has no idea what she wants to do. Actually....even though I want to be with her, I don't want her to break up with her boyfriend, if she really likes him. I don't know what she really thinks about him, but she seems to be the kind of person that: if she doesn't know what to do she won't fix anything that's not broken.
I suppose that the best course of action is to be her friend. To overcome the feelings I have and just remain friends. If something happens between them; i.e. her boyfriend breaks up with her, I can be there for her.