Needing to offload...
Today has been a super shit day for various reasons.
Felt really low when i finally got back from house hunting. Saw a gorgeous house we just will not realistically be able to have as the landlord is gonna want to rent it asap rather than aug / sept. Whatever just have to keep looking.
After getting nathan his pc for his bday i have no money at all. i totally didnt count on various things going ut so now im fucked till i can transfer funds across. I hate borrowing money.
After getting back we were all supposed to be going out for ems bday. I didnt feel like it but it was for her bday so i went. I really really really really have never ever regretted goin out so much in my life. Em got totally drunk and was just uncontrollable. she pissed of aj the guy shes just got together with, kept throwing drinks everywhere getting really hyped up and ohhhh. *sighs* im such a bitch it was for her bday so she should be letting her hair down but i was just feeling really pants and not able to look after her and everyone. Harry got drunk and started insulting people at will. Most days people can say anything to me and it wont matter to me but some days i feel so vulnerable it just hurts so much when people say things even if they are joking. Today was one of those days. But various people unfortuately took to taking things too far, so i feel pants about that now too.
I also didnt leave myself any time to get ready and i was too sleepy so i looked crap all of today too.... always helps.
Even fucking warcraft keeps rejecting me today and disconnecting me.
I want my ellie bumchum back.
Felt really low when i finally got back from house hunting. Saw a gorgeous house we just will not realistically be able to have as the landlord is gonna want to rent it asap rather than aug / sept. Whatever just have to keep looking.
After getting nathan his pc for his bday i have no money at all. i totally didnt count on various things going ut so now im fucked till i can transfer funds across. I hate borrowing money.
After getting back we were all supposed to be going out for ems bday. I didnt feel like it but it was for her bday so i went. I really really really really have never ever regretted goin out so much in my life. Em got totally drunk and was just uncontrollable. she pissed of aj the guy shes just got together with, kept throwing drinks everywhere getting really hyped up and ohhhh. *sighs* im such a bitch it was for her bday so she should be letting her hair down but i was just feeling really pants and not able to look after her and everyone. Harry got drunk and started insulting people at will. Most days people can say anything to me and it wont matter to me but some days i feel so vulnerable it just hurts so much when people say things even if they are joking. Today was one of those days. But various people unfortuately took to taking things too far, so i feel pants about that now too.
I also didnt leave myself any time to get ready and i was too sleepy so i looked crap all of today too.... always helps.
Even fucking warcraft keeps rejecting me today and disconnecting me.
I want my ellie bumchum back.