Being Calm...
So today was an interesting day for me. I had seriously nothing to do. So I had plenty of time to think, which is bad. Because when I think...I think too much and over analyze things. So I was lurking on myspace...like 99.9% of you do, and I came upon some comments left behind by someone (who will remain nameless) to my girlfriend. At first glance, they pissed me off. But then I quickly calmed myself, and soon I wasn't mad at all. It still bummed me out to see that. Also shit like "I'd call you right now...but you know...some haterz"...and I can't help but feel that directed towards me. All I know is that I gave you a chance dude...I put out my hand with a smile, and you can't look at me. I wanted to be civil. I would even go as far and say that i wanted to be your friend. I mean shit, we have all the same friends. I understand where you are coming from, but you need to get over it and suck in reality. I know it takes time. And all I can say is I pity you, because you will never know me past what you see and hear. Out of respect and love for my girlfriend, I will tolerate it. I know most of you will read this post, and be totally bored with it, but for me, it was seriously a momment in my life where I saw myself change for the better, and it feels pretty damn good. For the first time, I contained my negative emotions with positive thought. Am I wrong for feeling negative towards you? I think not. At least I know in the end, where I will be. It will be with her. To know that...makes what you do insignificant to me, and I can just smirk, and go on doing my own thing.