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Hello, i haven't posted in this community for a while now, but I always come on and give and recieve support.
I don't understand why everything is always wrong, why i'm never good enough, why i never stand up for myself, why i let every walk right over me, why i always comprimise, why everything should be so perfect but in reality is hell. I wish people around me understood how alone i am, as i feel like the lonely perfect in the entire planet even when i'm amonst friends. Everything is going wrong and i am yet again spiraling into the life i never wanted for myself. My past is yet again coming back to pull me under again and all i want is it to go away and never come back.
I wish i could see life through the eye of my friends who seem to be happy, smiling, and upbeat all the time. It always apears that nothing is bothering them, and if there is something they let the hole world know about it and get the support they really need. Then life is back to normal for them, but to the same perfect state of living.
I know i am alive but i do not feel like i am living. I surive from day to day, but is that enough.
Sorry to ramble just needed to let it out. Do any of you feel any of these things?
xxxxThankyou xxxxxx
I don't understand why everything is always wrong, why i'm never good enough, why i never stand up for myself, why i let every walk right over me, why i always comprimise, why everything should be so perfect but in reality is hell. I wish people around me understood how alone i am, as i feel like the lonely perfect in the entire planet even when i'm amonst friends. Everything is going wrong and i am yet again spiraling into the life i never wanted for myself. My past is yet again coming back to pull me under again and all i want is it to go away and never come back.
I wish i could see life through the eye of my friends who seem to be happy, smiling, and upbeat all the time. It always apears that nothing is bothering them, and if there is something they let the hole world know about it and get the support they really need. Then life is back to normal for them, but to the same perfect state of living.
I know i am alive but i do not feel like i am living. I surive from day to day, but is that enough.
Sorry to ramble just needed to let it out. Do any of you feel any of these things?
xxxxThankyou xxxxxx