Laugh.
I know I'm probably the most fucked up kid in the world... But I can't wait for my boyfriend to cheat on me.
Or for him to screw up.
Cause then I'll break up with him and then I can kill myself.
Is that not THE stupidest thing you've ever heard?
Like right now I don't care if I die tomorrow but I'm not going to go to all that effort to off myself right?
But I wish I was dead soooo bad.
And I've had two bouts of severe severe depression, the first I accepted the fact I was depressed, the second I tried to get help, and I know I won't make it through the third and I don't want to.
But I know there'll be a third once school starts back again and I go back home.
So I'm in Thailand right now on vacation with my family for 2 months (shoot me plz) and I spent the entire tour today planning how to do it.
And this plan is different than all the others.
The others were with sleeping pills and I'd probably survive, this one IS going to kill me.
I mean someone thats never used drugs before o.d.ing on an entire rig of heroin?
That'll do the trick.
Plus I plan on being 110 pounds by then.
Is anyone else excited for the last person that matters and cares about them to leave them or am I just a seriously fucked up kid?
Am I completely insane for wanting this?
Or for him to screw up.
Cause then I'll break up with him and then I can kill myself.
Is that not THE stupidest thing you've ever heard?
Like right now I don't care if I die tomorrow but I'm not going to go to all that effort to off myself right?
But I wish I was dead soooo bad.
And I've had two bouts of severe severe depression, the first I accepted the fact I was depressed, the second I tried to get help, and I know I won't make it through the third and I don't want to.
But I know there'll be a third once school starts back again and I go back home.
So I'm in Thailand right now on vacation with my family for 2 months (shoot me plz) and I spent the entire tour today planning how to do it.
And this plan is different than all the others.
The others were with sleeping pills and I'd probably survive, this one IS going to kill me.
I mean someone thats never used drugs before o.d.ing on an entire rig of heroin?
That'll do the trick.
Plus I plan on being 110 pounds by then.
Is anyone else excited for the last person that matters and cares about them to leave them or am I just a seriously fucked up kid?
Am I completely insane for wanting this?