im not myself lately
things are askew in my brain. i know what i want, but i dont know if im going about things the right way. i dont mean to make you mad, i just say things the wrong way. and when i mess things all up i get stuck and am helpless to watch things crumble. i just need time to myself to figure myself out. frustration overwhelms. i wish i could be understood. maybe im doomed to exist on the fringes of society. to only have casual friendly relationships with human kind. no one to be totally compatible with. im sorry wreck things up. that i couldnt get the right message across. i guess its my problem and i have to deal or live with it. i wish today hadnt happened the way it did. but whats done is done, and it seems time to move on. blindly fumbling down my path of life. by myself. i only hope that one day ill get this being alive thing right. at least my cat loves me. i wish i could take it back, i should have just enjoyed time with you, cause when my head isnt up my ass things are nice. your right that stuff was trivial.
my bad, better luck next time.
my bad, better luck next time.