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Meh just a quick update as am sat here, talking to marty and i'm bored. Didn't wake up till ten to five yesterday. this flu/cold is really getting to me. I can't sing, can't talk and can hardly move. I am surprised i managed to get on here. theres no one online, and I dont have anyone else to talk to.
And I really really dont know what to do anymore. i love him and I told him on new yrs eve/new yrs day at midnightish, and yeah he was drunk, but i'd thought he'd remember that in particular, but he hasn't and I'm so confused. all he remembers is talkin to my mum and after that he can't remember a thing.
Like monday i was talking to him bout things, and i told him that i'd said something to him then and he just looked at me weirdly and said "what on earth are you on about" and walked off, leaving me to try catch up with him.
oh ffs i dont know what to do. or how to explain it. all he said to me after was "are you alright" when i started to silently cry, but me being me just whispered "nothing" and i feel so stupid bout saying that. I've fxcked it up with him totally. i know that for a fact.
And I really really dont know what to do anymore. i love him and I told him on new yrs eve/new yrs day at midnightish, and yeah he was drunk, but i'd thought he'd remember that in particular, but he hasn't and I'm so confused. all he remembers is talkin to my mum and after that he can't remember a thing.
Like monday i was talking to him bout things, and i told him that i'd said something to him then and he just looked at me weirdly and said "what on earth are you on about" and walked off, leaving me to try catch up with him.
oh ffs i dont know what to do. or how to explain it. all he said to me after was "are you alright" when i started to silently cry, but me being me just whispered "nothing" and i feel so stupid bout saying that. I've fxcked it up with him totally. i know that for a fact.