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[suicide_child]

I hate how much you love me,
only when you're drunk,
I love how much you hate me,
and tell me I'm a flunk,

never have I known,
this feeling of a father,
I know I'm a mistake,
and I'm sorry I'm such a bother,

I'm such a fuck up,
why am I always wrong,
I just wanted you to love me,
and I've tried for so long,

but I know I'm a bastard,
and your hayte runs deep,
you hurt me so bad,
that I cry myself to sleep,

tell me what to do,
so you will love me now,
I can be the perfect son,
please just tell me how.